I can't believe I told him,it's none of his business.But he is the only one that would understand if I told him anything wierd.I taped a sad smile on my ugly face as I looked down."I'm ha-a m-m-murderer.I cried,the mixed emotions in me had been churning slowly and mixing a deadly poison,me.Carvis stood up and unlocked the stall and walked.I was confused,was he mad at me,did he not want to be friends with a murderer?I cried harder in my green grassy eyes.
THIS.IS.ALL.MY.FAULT.The half of my brain whispered to me.
YOU.MONSTER.It kept pushing me and resumed doing so.Another Memory had begun in my stupid murderer mind.
"Olivia?"A man in white sang to me awakening in a chair holding me down."Are you being bad?"
"Fa-th-ther?"I wispered to the white thing in front of me."Oh dear,I guess she still hasn't been awakened from aesnethia?"A woman spoke,it sounded sweet like honey."Oh my oh my, i'm with a little cutie plus she is a girl, that's rare."She sweetly sang to the man watching me with absolute stillness,it looked like not even breathing.I had woken up finally,with wondering how I had gotten there,I tried speaking.No words.Shocked,I panicked,nothing was on my mouth to help me prevent talking,or nothing in my throat,could I have drank/eaten something to have prevented this?
The man moved in front of my sight to the woman, and mumbled something that I know I shouldn't have heard from of a huge distance.
"I think it's time to help her out and start."
My head tilted asking for answers by what that meant.The man in white shocked but excited walked over towards me,grabbed my shoulders and unlocked the locks on the leather straps."Get comfortable now or you'll mess up."I sat straight in my chair tightly not understanding what he said."Um,but my Mommy doesn't like me sitting comfortably." Touching my small fingers his white gloved hands gently were placed upon one of my hands.
"Well,mommy is'nt here,you can do whatever you'd like."Joy smacked me in the face as my back slouched my neck hung and my hands between my legs,shyly being comfortable.
"Now watch what I do."His fingers in front of me touching my lips,as he concentrated harshly with sweat dripping down his white masked face.
He stopped,and told me to speak as if I had no control over my mouth itself,well not anymore.I couldn't speak again.I was stuck in question and answers,but couldn't ask/tell them.I could breath but it made no sound nor noise."Now, don't be scared sweetie,I know you can do this,just try to do what Dr.0.1 does,ok?A sweet smile covered the place where a mouth should be,and made me pay attention.He took a weak ungrown white rose and had closed his circled eyes on his mask.The then white rose bloomed into a white headband and placed it on my head.Pushing me hair back I could now,focus on what he was trying to do.He gave me a white ungrown rose and told me to turn it into something else.I tried thinking,then turned into murmuring to myself.STOP, you're doing it wrong.He showed me how to hold it gently and made me think peacefully.A deep breath inhaled and a quiet one exhaled.I thought of that bird I had seen yesterday that was long dead but made it fly somehow.I pictured the beautiful brown,gray bird in my head then I heard chirps and small talons hanging onto my fragile small hand.I opened my eyes but nothing was seen only chirps of birds outside,and the man pinching my hand.He pinched one side of my hand too hard and jumped.My eyes closed while the pinching of my skin made me feel scared."The bird."He whispered.The image of the bird popped into my head and there it was,with a little pinch I had managed to turn a white rose into a reincarnated baby bird.He knew what I was thinking about yet why didn't he make it himself."Don't show anyone what you can do, NO ONE,do you understand?He took the bird into his hands and put it in the cage the woman was providing him with.Then the woman walked over towards me and helped me out of my seat.This way darling,she walked me to and opened the huge metalic door that I had always been curious about.Hearing children screaming,crying for their parents,no one did anything just Men,Woman in lab coats walking past me and the sweet lady.There is your room,now don't act like other children,understand her smile melted off and she said seriously.Gently placing me down on the bed the room was lukewarm and the covers made me sleepy.I couldn't hear,see anyone just the heater in the middle of Fall of my new room making fan noises and reading the book that was provided,"Nothings Right."
Dec,13,1904
Hello it's me again,sorry for not updating just a lot of stress and work on my shoulders but making this page finally lifted them.I hope you guys/girls/neither,love this series I will keep up the good work.
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