I didn't want to move. I just sat there too tired to go back to my bed. It felt cooler here anyway.
Soon my tiredness came back to me and I felt sleep taking over. I didn't resist it. I let it come and it did.
I slowly closed my eyes ready to just sleep in that spot.
As I slowly drifted off I laughed a little to myself as I realized how much I'd slept in these few days and how off the patterns were. But in the end I didn't care, at least, now I didn't. Now I just wanted to sleep.
So I let it come drifting me off.
***
"Hey Sammy? Do you think I'm a good person?"
I got up from the ground and looked over to Justin.
"Do I think? I know you're a good person! Why would I need to question it?"
"Well I feel bad for leaving to college now with how things are."
"What do you mean?"
I looked at my brother as he stayed laying on the ground by my tree. Well our tree according to him. A breeze came by in the summer heat and still Justin hadn't said anything.
"Justin?"
"There's something I need to do, or really say, and I feel bad about it."
"Why?"
"Because it might hurt that persons feelings."
He would be leaving in a week now. And if he were to tell that person whatever it is now it might actually hurt them just from the fact that he's leaving.
I looked off back at the people at the park and sighed.
"I say get it out. Better to tell the person sooner than later."
"But what if it's a personal thing for that person? Like none of my business but then again is because I care for that person?"
I started to feel a little uncomfortable. I felt as if this situation could relate to me but he couldn't be doing that. There's no way.
"If you care for them then that's reason enough. Besides," I pounded on my brother in a hug, "I'll always love you in the end. No matter what someone else says."
He looked at me, our eyes locking and I felt that he was hinting at something.
Could he mean me? Why would he mean me? I mean he can't possibly know, could he?
I got off of him uncomfortable now and looked up at our tree. Still I felt his look on me.
"By someone you care about do you mean... like, family?"
I didn't look at him when asking the question. I knew he had to be talking about me.
"Even if it was it's not you, I promise. But it does relate to you."
Relate to me? Does he mean Drew then? He cares about Drew? Is it because I'm dating him and we have been childhood friends?
I was confused and conflicted. I glanced at Justin and felt my thoughts ease.
It didn't matter if it did relate to me or was about me. I would just love him in the end.
"Honestly if you think it's right I'll always follow you."
Justin smiled and got up bringing me in for a hug. He grabbed my hair and started messing it up making me laugh.
"Thinking like that won't take you far in life."
I laughed even more and soon he joined in.
"You're right but it's as far as I'll need to go."
"You can't always depend on me Sammy. If you do in the end I might not forgive myself."
He was still messing with my hair and smiling making his "serious" words mean not much but I still got the message.
"I know, I know. I won't always depend on you but, I will be the only one to love you the most."
"You and our parents."
I smiled at his words and started to shove his hand off of my head.
"Ugh you messed up my hair! It'll take me forever to fix this!" I yelled trying to smooth it out.
He burst end out laughing at my comment and pulled me in for another hug.
"No one can replace you, Sammy."
"And no one can replace you, Justin."