I open my eyes to the sound of Jace screaming at his video games. I shake my head letting my hair get messy so i can refix it.
"Jace can you be a little Quieter?" I groan.
"No. You can leave if you dont want to hear me." he snaps.
"I love hearing you." I laugh pulljng the covers back over my body. I hear the people on the other end start saying things like "bro is that a dude your fucking?"
"WHAT NO OMG GUYS CHILL." he yells.
I get up and put clothes on and leave without saying a word to him. He did it again. Fuck him I dont need him...but he makes me happy...but he also dosent want to be seen with me.
TW: Self harm
I walk to my house. When I get there I go straight to my room as I hear the sounds of my parents screaming at each other. At this point im used to it. I throw my bag out of anger and slam my door. I search through my bag for my scissors. Fuck. I cant find them. I look around my messy room and cant find them anywhere. I look on the ground and see a glass shard. It'll have to work.
Blood drips on my bed sheets. I hear footsteps coming towards my room. Heavy footsteps. Fuck its my dad. I hide the glass and cover my arm with my sleeve as my dad bursts through my door.
"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN YOU LITTLE SHIT" He screams.
"I was at Jaces house-" I get cut off by him.
"AND YOU DIDNT THINK TO TELL US???" He throws my stuff off of my dresser.
"I texted mom." I say with tears filling my eyes.
He walks over to me and grabs me by the shirt. "Fuck your mom, Elliot. Shes a worthless peice of shit-"
I kick him in the balls as he doubles over in pain. I grab my bag and run out the front door. I look behind me before the door shuts and sees my mom laying on the ground passed out. I have no time to react because I hear honking coming from the other side of me. SHIT A CAR- I jumo out of the way.
I gasp out of breath and run down my street. I stop at the corner store and get a water bottle to try and calm down and catch a breath. I get a phone call from Jace and ignore it. He probably just wants sex. Thats all hes using me for. He dosent love me.
"Everything okay kid?" The cashier asks me.
I didnt even relize tears were streaming down my face. "Yeah. Im fine sorry." I laugh as I wipe my face. Fuck. Dont let them see.
"Whats that on ur arm?" He says pointing to my left arm. My heart drops. My jacket. Its gone.
"Uh. I f-fell." I say. I walk out of the store and break down in tears. i see jaces car pull in to the parking lot and he starts running towards me. I scream from the top of my lungs.
He wraps me in a bear hug and I scream more into his chest. I dont want to be around him but hes the only one that cares right now. He picks me up and brings me to the car after I calm down. Im practially asleep by the time he sets me in the seat. I see him looking at my arm and I see his eyes get glossy. Shit not again.
He drives to his house again and he carries me up to his room. He puts me on the bed and I cry into his shoulders. He kisses me and tells me everything is gonna be okay.
"Im here now El. Its gonna be okay." He whispers.
"I CANT DO IT ANYMORE" I sob.