His mom brings me up a glass of water. "Thanks." I say. I almost drop the glass of water from shaking so much.
"What happened El?" Jace tries to look me in the eyes.
"Nothing." I say quietly.
"Elliot tell me right now or Im leaving." He says a little louder.
"No dont leave." I say looking up a little.
"Then tell me. You yell at me for gaslighting you when really your the real manipulator. So just tell me stop with all these guessing games." He says with pure anger in his voice. Maybe hes right. I shouldnt be putting him throught this.
"It was my dad." I hide my face so he dosent see my eyes.
"Did he do anything?" he asks grabbing his bat. I couldnt tell if he was joking or not.
"No. I just got scared." He probably thinks im overreacting. "I was just over it."
Hea quiet for a moment. "whats that on your arm, Love."
"Nothing. I just fell." I say covering my arm with my hand.
"I get that your hurting and its okay to show it. Have you taken off your binder since..." He cuts himself off when he notices his mother is right behind him. "Can you leave?" He says in a harsh tone. After she leave he continues. "Have you taken off your binder since we had sex?"
"No." I answe quietly.
"You need to." He replies.
I sit back. I guess my secrets out. Im Transgender. Nobody knows not even the school. Only Jace and my family. Not my dad though because my mom told him that he had a son when he left the first time because that was right after I came out. He accepts it now.
Anyways enough trauma dumping,
"It dosent matter. I dont care if I die anymore Jace." My voice shakes.
"Dont say that." He shakes his head
"Too late. I dont care Jace. I have nothing to live for." I say it looking straight at him.
He dosent say anything. He climbs in the bed with me and covers us both up. I dig my head in his chest. He kisses the top of my head and I eventually fall asleep.
I wake up and Jace is still sleeping. I get out from under the sheets and walk over to my bag. I put on my extra sweatpants and shivered since it was like 20 degrees in Jaces house. I turned on the TV and it was louder than I expected and looked over at Jace.
"Sorry-" I say when I get cut off by him.
"You ass- Oh. Its you. Nevermind your fine." He rolls back over. Hes so cute. I suddenly get really horny.
I crawl back im bed and stare at his body. Hes only im his boxers. I start feeling him up as he slowly opens his eyes. "We are not having sex just to get your mind off of things." He rolls over.
"I dont want to do it for that reason asshole." I climb on top of him.
I go down and kiss him. I slightly move my hips and he jerks foward. I laugh. "Dont d-do that." He groans.
"heheheheh" I laugh as I do it again slightly.
"You bitch." He grabs my hips and grinds them against him. He lets out subtle moans as I feel him get harder beneath me.
"hehehe someones excited." I say whispering in his ear. "You should really quiet down. Your getting a little noisy."
"Shut the fuck up you whore. You started this, You are going to finish it." He says flipping me over as he gets on top of me. He kisses me up and down as he undresses me.
"Your so fucking hot." He groans in between kisses.
I grind my hips against him again. He pins my hips to the bed. "No more" He says wrapping his hand around my throat as he kisses me down my chest.
Soon after I blackout. I only remeber the before bits. I wake up and look around the room. I dont see Jace anywhere. Then I hear the toilet flush and he opens the bathroom door.
"Oh. Your up." He says with a blank expression.
"Yeah. I am." I smirk.
"No we arent doing it again. Elliot I dont want you to get hurt." He walks over to his desk ans sits down.
"W-What do you mean..." I ask. My voice is shaky again.
"Listen, I have to get to work. Be careful." He kisses me on the head and grabs his bag.
"Love you." I mumble loud enough for him to hear.
He pauses for a moment and turns his head a little. "Mhm. Bye." He walks out the room and shuts the door.
What did he mean by he dosent want me to get hurt?? Is he going to leave me? Did he just leave me? Am I not worthy enough to him? What am I doing with a guy like him? I cant do it anymore. I stand up and go to the bathroom and stand infront of the pill cabinet.