As I woke up the next day it was already midday.
'Mom really did let me sleep today.'
I streached myself and got up.
It was still dark in my room, so I opened the window and the sun was shining on my face.
Fresh air came into the roome, and as I walked downstaires it was quiet.
I saw that my mom did make something to eat for me and placed it on the table.
It was already cold so I needed to warm it up first.
It was delicious.
'Mom needs to teach me how to cook. She's really good at it.'
Because it was boring inside I went out for a walk.
'It's so boring, what can I possibly do to not die put of boredom?'
Little kids were running past me and laughing while looking very happy.
I was a little bit jealous.
'My childhood was never that good and happy. I never even had that much fun, it's just unfair!'
Whitout noticing how late it was the sun started setting and filled the sky with red.
As it got darker the street lights went on and brought some light to the nights darkness.
I called my mom and told her that I'll probably be out a little later and that she shoulden't worry about me.
She said that she will maybe be already asleep when I'm back home.
Sl I walked around the corner of a house and freezed.
Something away I saw Minjun standing infront of a girl and they both talked to each other.
Luckily they didn't saw me and I slowly walked back around the corner.
I watched them quietly.
Now, it was more like they were fighting instead of talking normaly.
The girl started screaming at Minjun and then she slaped him.
'Uh, that looked like a hard slap, must have hurt!'
Minjun stood still and didn't move a finger.
I almost felt sorry for him, but just almost.
The girl huffed heavily, tears were shimmering in her eyes.
Minjun turned his had in her direction.
The tears were running down her checks, abd he let is hand slied to it, to wipe the tears away.
Slowly he was getting closer to her face.
He whispered something in her ear.
I shivered, cold sweat was running down my back and forehad.
It felt like he was whispering into my ear, but I knew he wasn't.
I turned back to keep watching them, but right at thus moment there lips touched.
The special feeling wasn't there anymore.
A sharp pain pierced my heart.
Now, tears were running down my checks.
'Why? Why am I crying?'
I didn't understand.
'It hurts.'
I turned around, running away, bot looking where I was running off to.
'Just keep running, away from the pain.'
I never want to feel that again!
Never!
It was so late, I just ran.
I couldn't see the ground anymore because of the tears, and tripped.
My knees and hands were bleeding, the pain was good, it let me forget the pain inside my heart for a moment.
I tried to stood up.
It started raining.
I couldn't walk, my feet just had no energy.
They did hurt so much.
I was sitting there, in the rain, crying and didn't know what to do.
I decided.
'Let's never have a crush on any boy again! Let's abondon love!'
That was the last time I wanted to love someone.