"You," Mr. Stark raised his voice as I sat on a rock in front of him feeling like a child "You knew, you knew you couldn't kill, I didn't rush over to back you up I came because of what I witnessed with the soldiers or whatever they were that you completely massacred and then I walk in on you killing once again. You are no longer a child anymore you know the rules that were set-."
"What could I have done when it was a sudden ambush, they had more than 20 people stationed at the 18-wheeler, Bucky killed as well!"
"No Artemisia he didn't…"
"I heard his gunshots."
"He hit areas where they could've survived, you," Mr. Stark sighed before messing up his hair "you used someone's body as a shield, you slit their throats, you almost killed Bucky when you threw a dagger at him."
I lower my head as I sigh frustrated "I can't change what I do over night, not even in weeks, I can't just stop the way I do things because you all don't agree with it."
"It's murder, what you do is murder Artemisia, you know your strong and can not die easily, you could've taken a few hits now and then to spare a life," I felt my heart sink as I look at the ground "you are a hero now, hero's do not kill."
"No don't you dare say that because you know damn well, I'm not one of you guys," I mumbled.
"It's the reality! You have been recruited by me! You are making ME look bad every time you kill do you understand? Every person, thing, or whatever that you leave behind comes back to me. We can be using them as prisoners and interrogate them to know what's going on the other side! I can't believe I have to put this in words to explain to you that what you're doing is wrong!"
"Why should I care?"
"Care to remind you about this huge favor I'm doing for you huh? I have more important things to do yet I'm doing this for you, the least thing I asked for you is to stop killing so Steve can get off my ass and I can work on new equipment for the team."
I hum annoyed.
"Artemisia I'm going to take you off missions till you get your shit together you understand? We will have a meeting back at the building with the team about what went down here today, I can't guarantee that Steve will not find out about this, and-," he stops and glances at the body of Murillo "help me clean up the bodies to get them a proper burial," he sighed as I stay silent and take a deep breath.
"You know I had no choice, right?"
"In your eyes it seemed like it," Mr. Stark looked at me.
"There was no choice," I mumbled as I grab my gun laying next to Murillo's body and picked up her body slowly as I handed her over to Bucky who looked at me with no expression. I walk towards the creature and cut it open as I find the remains of the child feeling my emotions falter a bit as my breath hitched at what is left "no choice," I whispered to myself as I remember the horror she had on her face, she wouldn't have been able to handle this.
I know she couldn't have.
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"How are you feeling after everything?" Clovis asked as I sat in the meeting room as my hands shook lightly out of impatience.
"What?" I mumbled.
"Arte," he mumbled as I kept my eyes forward as Thor sits on the other side of the table with a disappointed look. I turned my head away from him, just with that I knew that everyone found out about what happened and what I did, but I have no reason to feel ashamed for what I did.
Loki walks in and stands behind his brother smirking at down at me as he hummed lightly.
Next up was Bucky as he didn't acknowledge my presence and sat 2 seats away from me.
I shouldn't feel what they want me to feel, I feel no guilt for what her decision was, I don't.
Natasha walks in giving me a glare as Steve walks in behind her with a heavy sigh as he held his arms across his chest, Bruce walked in looking for me and glanced away as soon as we made eye contact, lastly was Mr. Stark as he sat in front of the large table.
He coughs lightly and crosses his legs and looks at me "Ana will be out of missions till further notice, sadly we were caught off guard and lost many of our brave scientists that worked at the lab tonight, we successfully kept all our information out of their reach, we will relocate the research and uhm see if we can try to figure out everything on our own for the time being. There is nothing else, you may all sleep," Mr. Stark sighed as he glanced at me.
"She kills all the people at the 18- wheeler, kills the last of them instead of capturing them to gain information on the enemy, and lastly kills one of the scientists and all she gets is a time out?" Rogers scoffed behind me as I grip my hand in a fist as I stay quiet.
"Forget it Rogers it's already late, and it's been a rough day for us," Mr. Stark rubs his head annoyed.
"We told her to stop killing and she didn't, seriously? Not only that she murdered one of our own!" Rogers raised his voice.
"No Rogers-."
"No don't start this crap, she murdered one of our own Stark, open your eyes for Christ's sake she isn't one of us!"
"You don't know anything of what happen over there Rogers so keep your mouth shut!" Mr. Stark argued.
"I don't need to know what happened; all I see if that this thing that you brought in is not human nor care for human lives!"
"She has gone through more than anyone in this room so I suggest you be quite and just understand that what happened to Murillo was what Ana thought was best!"
"The best?! The best, really? She shot her in her head! How is that the best," Steve walked towards Mr. Stark and pointed at me "how can you let this person in here knowing what happened today?"
"Because I trust her, she has her own reasons."
"Her own reason to blatantly shoot someone in the head?"
"I didn't shoot her she shot herself," I mumbled under my breath, "I gave her the gun for her to choose her fate, she chose death herself, I helped her the best I can."
"Helped her? You killed her Ana."
"You don't even know what happened tonight," I sighed as I stood up from my chair "your little boyfriend wasn't there when I found her, you wanna see the video? I mean go ahead watch it if you want, Mr. Stark can play it out right now to see what happened," I smirked "I helped her the best way anyone could help her."
"By making her chose to kill herself? We could've helped her with whatever she saw or experienced."
"Are you a parent Steve, Natasha, Thor, Loki, Bucky, Bruce, I mean I'm asking you all because of the looks you are all giving me," I sat down on the chair and looked at them "no? So just think of this scene of walking towards the eery screams of a mother, and seeing her holding on to a severed arm, you turn your attention to the large creature as you watch it chewing on something and hear the mother beg you to save her son," I looked down feeling my eyes water "realizing she had just watched her young child being chewed slowly to hear the cries of that child and knowing the only way you could've helped is by trying to pull them out the monsters mouth only to rip out their arm, think, think about that. Now imagine yourself already knowing that the child is already gone and only being able to pull out a head and handing it to their mother, seeing that face I've seen it before, I knew that in no way we could've helped this mother after what she witnessed," Clovis began playing the film of everything as everyone looked in horror. "You have to make a choice as she begs you to kill her, I knew I couldn't make that decision for her so I let her make that choice for herself, she chose in the end that what she witnessed she wouldn't have been able to live with it, the brutal death of her young child." The loud screams began playing out loud as I sighed, the gunshot was heard when the video stopped "how would you deal with the pain of a parent when you can't even relate to it, I can't relate to it, but she lived through it."
"You have no right to criticize what I do when you yourself don't understand the extent of what actually happened tonight, none of you have the right," I sighed as pull the gun out of my hoister before placing it into Rogers hands "you look at me with disgust every time I come near you," I smile and place the gun point to my forehead as he tries to pull away as I keep a firm grip on it "this is murder, what I did was help, that's all I ever do."
"Ana please-," Bruce began as I sigh.
I pull my hand away from Rogers as he sets the gun on the table with a scowl on his face, I grab my gun and walk out the room before heading to mine not wanting to be bothered.
"She's insane!" Rogers yells.
"You labeled her a murder without even knowing what happened! I don't have time for your problems especially after today's mess!" I heard the door open and close as Mr. Stark walks out "stay in your room and don't come out until I call for you understand," he ordered me as I stay where I'm at before storming into my room and grabbing a lamp from my beside table before smashing it on the ground yelling.
I grab the dresser from one side of my room before turning it over making most of my clothes land on the ground. I tug on my hair as I try to remain calm, "fuck, fuck," I sighed as I felt the fumes of my body slowly start to leak out my body.
"Arte calm down right now!" Clovis said loudly as I try to breathe in and out "Arte!" He yelled as I feel myself slowly calming down.
My body fell on the floor as I try to get up feeling weak suddenly "C-Clovis," I called as I felt my eyes slowly closing "what-what did you d-do?"
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry you're putting everyone in danger… but don't worry… I called…," their voice slowly started fading as my mind was going blank "Mr. Stark!"
"Open the door Clovis!" I heard Mr. Stark yelled from across the room.
I try to get up as I crawled to the door trying to keep it shut "n-no kee-keep it closed," I begged.
"We need to lock her up quickly!" Mr. Stark yelled as I felt my body being pushed by the door opening, everything was blurry as I look up to see Mr. Stark in his suit, he grabbed my body before shutting my room closed as I heard voices murmur from where I'm at.
Shit.
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I'm sorry that this chapter is short! But pleaseeee understand that the next chapter will explain why
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I also hope you all like the new cover I created ;) I worked so hard on her:3