After that day, Kamou returned to work more focused. She was still hurting inside, Juho left an emptiness in her soul. Every day she woke up, she had to motivate herself to get out of bed and go to work. The only thing left for her now was her work and she made sure to dive into it. She seemed fine but only she knew how much effort it took for her to pass her days without Juho.
Juho was on her mind all day, she knew deep down it was her fault. She almost had him and he left because she couldn't muster up enough courage to express her feelings. Things would have worked out between them only if she wasn't this stubborn. And now he hates her. No matter how hard she tried, he wouldn't be the same again. She hated herself for letting the love of her life go.
Kamou tried hard to explain her heart it didn't matter to her, but every day she would stalk him. Keeping an update on what was going on in his life, whether he was doing fine. At times she would try to call him or even drop a text but nothing went through. He must have blocked her. Kamou got to know he was having an interview for a prominent magazine. Juho was working on a new album and so his agency arranged this interview to attract publicity.
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Kamou came back from a hectic day at shoot. The filming schedule in London was almost over. Taehee would be leaving for Seoul the day after and she would also be in Seoul by the end of this week.
Juho's interview clip was released today. Changing into her night clothes, Kamou took out her iPad to watch the clips. She hadn't seen it but it was already creating quiet a buzz on the internet. Kamou searched for the video and played it.
The video started with Juho introducing himself. A faint smile appeared on Kamou's face seeing his on screen, her eyes shined. Juho looked different from the day she last saw him. He had his hair cut shorter, he no longer had bangs. His hair was much shorter and the undercut made him look hotter. His forehead showing, hair parted towards right side. The multiple piercings on his left ear made his side profile look ethereal. He wore black suit and he looked devilishly handsome. Even though he was on screen, his dark eyes were cutting through her soul.
The interviewer began questioning him. He was sitting elegantly on the couch, replying her politely with a smile plastered on his face. His smile that might look genuine to people, was excellent acting he picked up by working in the industry for years. Only Kamou could he through his fake smile.
"Before getting into your new album, let's get into the much-anticipated movie. Your good friend Yun Taehee is playing role in it and according to reports you are giving your voice for the theme song. Is that correct?" The interviewer asked.
"Yes, I had this song written from long. The name of the song is 'Always You'." He replied.
"So, what is the general theme of the song?"
"It's a very romantic song, where the guy expresses his love for his lady." Juho's expressions softened a bit talking about the song.
"Is there something or someone who served as an inspiration for the song? Were you ever in love?" The interviewer asked trying to get some hot gossip out of Juho.
"There was a girl, I had feelings for a long time. I wrote the song for her because I wasn't confident enough to go up to her and confess. Unfortunately, I never got a chance to express my feelings. We couldn't get together and have lost touch." Pain could be seen his eyes while talking.
Though it was for a small miniscule minute, it didn't go unnoticed by Kamou. Her eyes filled with tears, seeing him smile through his pain. 'Is he talking about me? Had feelings for long time. Did he really write a song for me?'
Kamou was getting impatient now, wanting to hear the song. She had no choice but to wait because the song would be out after the movie release. She needed to get her hands on the song as soon as possible.
The interviewer understood and changed the topic to his new album. The rest of the interview was quiet standard with Juho talking about the main theme of the album and expected tours. Soon the interview ended and Juho urged his fans to keep supporting his art.
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For hours Kamou sat in her room, thinking of ways to get a hold of Juho's song. It would have been much easier if they were still on talking terms, she could simply confront him. She was going crazy thinking about what he could have written in the song.
Suddenly she remembered Taehee and Juho were in the same agency. That means Taehee might be able to help. Taehee could ask Juho for the song, they were best friends after all. Whatever happened between Kamou and Juho seemed to have no effect on Juho's friendship with Taehee. Taehee didn't seem to have any idea about Juho's jealousy or his belief that he was dating Kamou. Kamou also chose not to involve him into this chaos as there was nothing going on between them.
Kamou quickly dialed Taehee number and waited for him to pick up. Soon Taehee answered the call with his husky voice, he might be sleepy.
"Big Brother, I have something important to ask from you."
"Well, it must be important considering the time of the call." he said looking at his watch. It was already midnight.
Kamou was so desperate she forgot to check the time before calling. "Can you please send me Juho's song for our movie?"
"It's not released yet." he flatly said.
"Yes, but I know you could arrange it, the director already has it. You both work in the same agency. Please. I will owe you big time." Kamou pleaded.
"Fine. I will try but no promises." he said while hanging up.