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Chapter 27 - I Accept It

Kamou's head raised up in quick movement. 'Did Juho tell him something? How is he aware of this?'

Looking at her bewildered face, Taehee smiled, "I know he loves you. I have known for a while now. He never told me upfront but he has been in love with you for the past two years now. It isn't easy to hide one's feeling for that long. I saw his interview and it wasn't hard to guess he wrote the song for you."

"Past two years?" Kamou questioned.

Taehee nodded, "Yes, I was there with him when he first saw you. He specifically asked me about you and at that very moment I knew he was interested in you."

"When did this happen?" Kamou was curious to know. She knew she wouldn't be able to get these answers from Juho any longer. Listening about how much he loved her brought happiness and pain, both at the same time.

"It was when we were shooting our first drama. I will tell you everything but first you need to answer me. Think about it and then reply. Do you love him?"

"Yes, I do. I love him." Kamou answered without a doubt.

This was the first time, Kamou was confident of her feelings. She not only accepted her feeling but also acknowledged them in front of someone she thought she loved.

"Then why don't you tell him about this? Why would you let a guy like him walk away?" Taehee asked unaware of what actually happened.

"I thought I loved someone else. I couldn't have that guy; it took me long to realize that it wasn't love but admiration. I grew up in a very toxic environment, I wanted to get out of it but I wasn't strong. I came across this guy, he inspired me, motivated me to break free. I thought I had fallen in love with him. When I got a bit closer to him, it took some time but I realized I didn't love him. I looked up to him, respected him. I got my feelings confused." Pain visible in Kamou's eyes as she spoke.

"Then Juho came, I wasn't ready for love but he made my heart flutter. I don't know how; I slowly fell in love with him. I had already given my heart to him, yet I was too stubborn to accept it. Even when he walked out, I was too stubborn to say it. He is gone forever and I don't have any hopes for us to reunite. I accept it now, I love him, I love him more than anything this world." Tears falling out as she talked about Juho.

"Tell him now."Taehee said.

Kamou gave a weak smile through her tears, "It's too late now."

"It's never too late. He is my best-friend, I know him, he loves you a lot."

"I am already blocked, so I don't see any chance there."

"Do you want me to talk to him about this?" Taehee offered.

"No! No, it's fine." Kamou almost jumped from her seat.

'I don't want Big Brother Taehee to know that he was the one Juho is jealous about. I wouldn't look good for their friendship. Poor guy had nothing to do with this but still got dragged into this shitshow. It's better if he doesn't know.' Kamou thought.

"You said you love him. Do you want him back in your life?" Taehee asked with a serious tone.

"Yes, I know it isn't possible but my answer to this question will always be 'yes'."

"If I say I can help with that, till what extent are you ready to go for the one you love?"

"I can go to any extent, give my soul away to the devil himself, just to have Juho back."

Taehee smiled satisfied by her answer. Juho was precious to Taehee and he wanted to make sure Kamou was more than willing to be with him.

"Then I will help you get in touch with him." he said assuring her.

"But Big Brother, Juho doesn't wants to talk to me. The last time we met he was very angry."

"I have been with Juho since our teenage days. He can't stay angry with someone he loves for long. His anger doesn't mean he doesn't love you. I am sure he loves you and he would keep on loving you. Juho worships music, he is very passionate about it and he wrote a song for you. It's the purest form of love a person like Juho can give you. That's the place you hold in his life." Kamou's heart started beating loud hearing this.

"He has blocked you because he is aware that if you were still in touch, he wouldn't be able to resist himself from talking to you. Juho would be suffering from within all alone. I never interfere in someone's personal life, but with Juho and you it's different. I know the both of you, you are my friends and I want to make sure you both remain happy." Taehee went on.

"You don't know this, but in the past when we went out for dinners together with some friends, it was Juho who initiated it. I wasn't that close to you at that time, we interacted little at the sets of our drama. Juho was too afraid to ask you out, so in turn he suggested group dinners. He wanted to know you better before making a move. Juho knew one wrong move would cost him dearly." Taehee added.

Kamou listened to all of it patiently. 'It was me who started this unknowingly. If I hadn't invited him to my room that night maybe our conversations wouldn't have started. I still couldn't understand why I did that. Was I that drunk?'

"Thank you. You don't know how much relief your words have brought to my heart." Kamou expressed her gratitude.

"I am leaving for Seoul within some hours. We would execute things once you are back in Seoul, till them I won't tell anything to Juho. Remember, I can only serve as a medium, it's you who has to put in the efforts." He said getting up to leave.

"I understand. I am ready to give it my all." She answered with determination.

"Meet you soon." Taehee said leaving her room.