When we get to The Black Moon Pack's gate the driver drags me out and throws my bag out of the car. I stumble towards the gate where I see 2 figures waiting for me.
I shake in fear.
The Black Moon Pack is known for their brutality, they have the largest territory in the world. They also have the biggest pack. Their Alpha is so feared that children shake and cry at the mention of his name.
The two men grab an arm on either side of me and start taking me through the gate. "Is this her?" The man holding my right arm says.
"I think so, she smells like it." The guy on my left says. "Even if this is her she won't last long. The alpha will kick her out in no time, I know Beta Paul said she had no wolf but he claimed she was an Alpha child, so she was at least strong! But when the Alpha sees this mess, he'll kick her out for sure." He said while chuckling at my expense.
"What?" I whimper but they don't listen and just keep dragging me along to a small house in a clearing. I look up at the man to me left. He has a look I know all too well on his face so he must be mind linking Beta Paul.
"I know... she's too small to be an Alpha child, he must have just wanted someone else to put her out of her misery" the guy to my right snickers.
Before I can say anything, they set me down on the doorstep and disappear. I shake and tremble on the doorstep, it was the middle of winter, and I wasn't exactly supplied with warm clothes from my pack. On top of that I am so scared I can't even move. I don't even notice someone has picked me up and carried me inside. I shake and tremble when I click out of my shock, I realize I'm looking into the eyes of Beta Paul.
"Hey." He says. I only whimper. "Don't be scared." He says. "I'm not going to hurt you." He carefully sets me down on a bed. I can't help but think about what my father said about "Rape". Beta Paul must know what I am think because he shakes his head. "No, no, no. I will not EVER do that to you." I visibly relax. "You've had a long day, sleep, I won't hurt you. I promise I won't force anything you don't like, I won't even marry you."
I whimper even louder and shake my head "My dad will kill me if I don't."
"Shh, your dad isn't here so don't worry about him." With that I pass out from relief and sleepiness.
I wake up to sunlight streaming through a window. I sigh and close my eyes, well at least I did get a good sleep before facing this hell I think as I swing my legs over the side of the bed and walk out of the room.
Beta Paul is sitting at a coffee table staring at a pack file. When I walk in his eyes fly to mine. "Hey." I manage to say, the back of my throat dying from thirst.
"Hey, sit down." He motioned to a spot across from him. On the table is a mug of coffee and a plate of eggs and bacon. I walk over and sit down taking a bite of the bacon. "So, Cici. Alpha Ash wants me to update you on your position." My eyes meet his and I got a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach.
"Your father already shared with us that you've lost your wolf." He says. I nod and drop my gaze. "Listen, Cici, to be honest with you the Alpha doesn't want a burden on the pack, I don't think you can stay here. You're not fit for a wife or for much else in the duties we expect of our pack members." The second he said those words my whole world came crashing down.
"W-what?" I cry out.
"As you know there aren't a lot of women in this pack. The ones who are though are strong and independent," I make my eyes go blank to stop myself from completely braking down in front of Beta Paul.
"Ok." I say. Paul gives me a sympathetic look.
"I'm sorry, but from this point on you can either go back to your father or you're a rogue." He says, then he gets up and leaves.
I lay down on the sofa feeling numb. I'm going to die. My father will kill me. Tears continue to steam down my face. "My father will kill me if I return, and I'd rather kill myself than be a rogue." I say to myself before stumbling into the bathroom. I pull open the medicine cabinet and grab whatever pills I can find, luckily for me there were plenty of strong medications due to wolves needing stronger meds to aid healing then humans do. I pop the caps to the bottles open. Before I swallow the pills, I go and find a pen and paper in the kitchen.
Dear Beta Paul,
Thanks for breakfast and for the truth. My father said that if he saw me again, he'd kill me and I'd rather me dead that be a rogue.
Can you do me a favor though and not tell my father about what I've done? I don't want him to hate me more in death then he has throughout my life.
Thank you and goodbye.
Cici.
I walk over to the sofa and dump the pills in my hand. Wolves heal fast but I don't have a wolf so I'm essentially human. Taking a deep breathe I pour the pills in my mouth and swallow.
About an hour passed when my body felt numb, and my mind felt clear. "What have you done" I hear a voice... I look around frantically, then I realize… it's my wolf. I gasp and start to try to bring up the pills, I choke and splutter but it's too late, 'you weren't here fast enough' I thought as I saw everything fade to black just as someone burst through the door. "Still too late." I mumble.
I woke up in a field of white flowers that are illuminated by the glowing full moon above. I sigh and sit up. For some reason I am not scared just, relaxed. As I sit up I'm immediately met by the silver eyes of an enormous white wolf. My breath catches in my throat. This wolf, its breathtaking. It doesn't look like a regular wolf because of its eyes and size. "What are you?" I say surprised.
"I'm your inner wolf, Maya." The wolf responds. I jump back a bit not expecting it to respond.
"Where am I?" I choke out. Maya closes her eyes and takes in a deep breath.
"Your mate is carrying you to the pack doctor." She says. I gasp and look around pushing myself off the ground.
"What is happening to me?" I yelp.
"You're transitioning into Maya, we are becoming one now that you are old enough to bond properly." She says.
"What?" I yelp.
"Your mate will explain, that or you'll feel everything for yourself when we are fully bonded." She sighs.
"H-how long will it take." I tremble.
"Not very long, but you will be in extreme pain." She says sympathetically. I drop to the ground, having no control of my body I whimper and shake. Maya walks up to me and nudges me with her nose. "I am sorry child, I tried to come back sooner but you were in pain and too afraid all the time. When you finally had some peace I could slip back through to you, but the only reason you felt peace was because of what you'd done." She sighs, "I'll be back with you soon, just hold on through the pain."
With that I drifted back into the black.