John's P.O.V
In the past, she would always cup me on the cheek as she inspected my face for any wounds I might have after I would come back from some of our missions outside the safety of the empire. War was rampant and because of that, I was always needed to aid on the frontlines from time to time. It was rare to ask for my assistance as the men could handle the situation themselves. I was mostly sent out in the last battle or at the beginning to stir the opponent.