Wednesday.
Classes today felt like they dragged on forever. I was so thrilled to be finished for the day that I rushed home straight away. I also had to clean and set up my place for the sleepover tonight.
I was happy that the boys were coming over. I felt so tense lately that I really needed to have a night where I could relax and be with friends. Not have to think about all the bullshit that was happening or the fact that I might be homeless by next week.. lol. Yea, that was sadly starting to become a reality.
Anyways, it was a worry for another time. Right now I need to focus on cleaning my apartment!
I managed to get the lounge set up comfortably by laying a super soft fluffy blanket down and piled all my pillows around the edge so it was like a huge cosy floor bed in front of the T.V and fireplace.
That's when the intercom buzz. I rushed over and pressed the downstairs door release button to let them up. A few minutes later there was a knock on the door. I opened it up to see an eager Jimin and Tae.
"Heey~ Where's Kookie?" I asked the pair as I stood aside to let them in.
"He's still finishing up with some stuff at the agency but he'll be here later" Tae replied. I noticed they both were carrying plastic bags full of things.
"Aren't you more happy to see me though?" Jimin sent me a cheeky smile before setting the bag down on the kitchen counter.
"Yesss, I'm so glad we can just relax together like this. God knows I need it." I sighed as I closed the door and made my way over to join them.
"Oh? What's wrong?" Tae asked as they both started unpacking the bags. "Umm, it's complicated.. I'll tell you about it later" I gave a tiny laugh. Tae didn't question me any further but instead pulled out a bunch of snacks and went and laid them out on the coffee table.
"You know the best way to relieve stress?" Jimin smirked. He pulls out a bottle of Soju and cutely waves it in front of me. I couldn't help but laugh.
"We have class tomorrow though? Are you sure that's a good idea?"
The blonde just continued to smile as he nodded his head. Guess it really didn't bother him going to class with a hangover.
"We won't drink too much! Don't worry~" he assured. If that was the case then it would probably be fine… Besides, as I'd learnt from our last little escapade at karaoke, drinking with these two was rather fun.
After we'd set up all the drinks and snacks on the coffee table we sat down on the blanket together in a close circle. Jimin sat with the table to his left, me, angled to his right, and Tae squeezed into the other space beside that table and my right. Jimin was the first to pour shots. Tae was sat cross-legged, he had my laptop open on his lap and was going through my Spotify to put on some tunes.
I noticed it was getting dark outside so I got up and turned the lights on, dimming them faintly before turning on the lantern lights that were strung across the curtain beam. They emitted a soft pinkish-yellow glow, and the atmosphere became much more relaxed.
A soft tune filled the air as Tae had decided on a playlist. It fit the ambience and put me at ease. I settle down between the boys. Jimin passed out the shots.
I thanked him as I took it. We clinked glasses and my first shot went down easily. Tae was the last to finish, he made a sour face before returning the empty glass to Jimin, who, took it and placed it on the table.
"First one is always the worst." Tae set the laptop down on the blanket beside him. I giggled, knowing full well that was the truth.
"Jia" Jimin beckons from next to me.
"Yeah?" I turned, his hair was pushed back and he was eyeing me.
"There's something I wanted to ask you," he says.
"Go ahead." Where was this suddenly coming from? He looks like he's about to cause some mischief.
"So, what do you think of our little Kookie?"
"Oh, um. Yeah, he's cute. Why?" He was more than cute but I should probably keep that to myself.
"Just cute?" Jimin said slyly, "That's all?" He nudges me playfully.
"Yeaaaah. He's.. kinda sexy too… But! You didn't hear that from me, okay? Seriously don't repeat that!" I uttered.
My confession causes Jimin to burst into a little fit of giggles.
"Interesting," Tae hummed, laying down on his side, closing any gap in our 3-way circle. Head resting on his hand. Was he getting comfortable with the gossip that was about to ensue?
"What about me and Jiminie then?" He asks.
" like you both, too," I say, fighting the urge to bury my face in my hands from embarrassment.
"But, if you could only pick one?" Jimin perked up, edging closer to me as though keen to hear my answer. I glance between the two a couple of times in contemplation.
"That's not fair. There's no way I could pick. I like you both so much."
"Aww, that's cute," Tae smiles. At that moment a buzz came from the intercom. It must be Jungkook. The first to jump up was Jimin, he went over to let him in. I turn to look as Kookie comes in, the faint lighting and the way he walked in made him appear handsome and sort of mysterious.
"About time, what took so long?" Jimin probed, closing the door behind him. Kookie squints towards Tae and me. He was most likely trying to adjust his vision.
"Yeah, sorry. Just Hyungs wanted to make sure I had the rap right. You know what they're like." Kookie lazily slung his bag down by the couch and made his way over.
"Mm. Oh okay," Jimin mumbled, coming back over and sitting in his spot beside me. Kookie bent down and picked up Tae's legs, moving them over so that he could sit next to me. Tae sat up to make space for the youngest.
"So, what I miss?" Kookie smiles at me, eyes crinkling cutely as he asked.
"Oh… Not a lot! Jimin was about to pour more shots," I quickly answer. Hoping that the other two wouldn't repeat what I said about ten seconds ago.
"Was I?" Jimin laughs.
"Nooo. Let me do it. Jimin always pours." Tae interjects, edging closer to the table and picking up the Soju. I could feel Jungkook glancing at me every so often. He was sitting quite close to me. Why was I so sensitive to his presence right now?
I look back over to Tae and Jimin to try and distract myself. The next second, we had all taken another shot, Jimin convinced Kookie to take two seeing as he was late, which he didn't refute. I watched as he swallowed them both with ease. Then, he rummaged through the pile of snacks before taking two different packets, casually popping a few gummy bears in his mouth at a time.
"Hmm, so what should we do? Game? A Movie maybe?" Jimin looked between the three of us.
"A Game!" Tae exclaims.
"Yeah let's play something" I added to the excitement.
"Sounds good, which one?" Kookie questions. We all kinda look at each other until Tae speaks up.
"Something fun! Truth or Dare?" He suggests.
"Yeah~ Good idea." Jimin hummed in agreement.
"I might need another shot if that's what we're going to do." I joked. I had to admit I haven't played this in so long, and rightfully so. Who knew where this game would lead, anything could happen.
"I second that. This game is brutal" Kookie deadpanned from beside me.
"Okay, okay." Tae poured another round and handed them out. After we drank, we decided to use a game of rock, paper, scissors. The end result being that Tae would ask first.
I could feel the heat rising to my cheeks as Tae pointed at me. I didn't know if it was the alcohol or the fact that I was sandwiched in between three really charming guys and we were starting a game of notorious unpredictability.
But, I guess you only live once! I'll try and make the start of this game fun for the others.
"Me? Okay… Dare." Tae instantly broke into a mischievous grin.
"Really? Already? So brave." Jimin cooed from beside me.
"Hm. I dare you to take off your jumper and sit on Kookie's lap." Tae looked extremely pleased with himself as he announced his dare.
"Ahhhh really?!" I buried my face into my hands, purely out of shy reflex. I felt a pat me on the head and knew it must have been Jimin.
"Aw C'mon Tae Tae, have some mercy on her. We only just started." I couldn't tell if Jimin was being sarcastic or not but I decide to muster up that same courage I had five seconds prior and actually do it.
I look up at everyone and let out a small sigh before getting on my knees and peeling off my jumper. I was left in a light singlet and shorts as I scrambled up onto Kookie's lap. I couldn't make eye contact with him as I did, I was way too shy but he didn't protest to it, either. As I settled down onto one of his thighs, he took me by surprise, lifting my legs up and resting them across his other thigh. It was really comfortable and Kook was really warm.
I looked between Tae and Jimin who both had the stupidest grins on their faces, I was about to say something when I noticed Tae's gaze drop down to my chest. His eyes widen. I was really confused as to why.
I felt my chest, realising that I wasn't wearing a bra underneath and that without my Jumper it was a bit colder than before. Instantly I regretted not putting a bra on earlier.
"Hey! Stop looking you perv!" I yelled, grabbing a pillow and throwing it at him.
"Jia, is it a bit cold in here?" Jimin started teasing me. Tae just hugged onto the pillow I had thrown and fell on his side, giggling along with Jimin.
Kookie, on the other hand, seemed to not have noticed. My chest was below his eye level so, he was confused.
"Are you cold? Do you want me to warm you up a bit?" He asks, peering into my face, he was so close. I stuttered at his offer. But, before I can answer his arms wrap around me. Encasing me in his warmth. The fabric of his baggy jumper felt so soft against my bare skin.
"See, Kookie is the only one here with some decency." I purred into his hug, shooting the other two an evil glare. This just made them chuckle more.
"Okay, okay~" Jimin calmed down, "This is getting interesting, who's next?"
"Your turn Jimin, Truth or Dare?" Jungkook voice nibbled at my ear. Jimin took a second before choosing truth.
Kookie drawled out a short Umm before he asked. "What's your biggest fear?"
The question had caught Tae's attention, looking to his best friend curiously. Jimin looks down into his lap in thought for a moment.
"Honestly. I'm scared about my future as an Idol. And about Debut. We don't even know when or if we will get the chance to, " Jimin let out a long breath, "And, not to mention, the Hyungs are all really talented. Sometimes I'm scared. I'm not good enough. I need to be better." Jimin's confession had left me with a weight on my heart. Was this really how he felt?
"Jimin," I said, pulling his attention up. "You're so talented. God. I wish you could just see what I see when I look at you." The Soju had loosened my lips and some truths I usually kept to myself started to tumble out. Kookie's arm tightens around me. Tae looked sombre for a moment before getting onto his knees and tackling Jimin into a bear hug. He doesn't resist. Instead, smiling and patting Tae on the back. Tae was squeezing him tightly in his arms.
As the mood lightened back up, Tae let go and shuffled back to his place. Their friendship was heartwarming to watch.
"My turn now, yeah?" Jimin asked, we all nodded. He rubs his chin in thought for a moment before calling my name.
"Truth" I didn't want to make the same mistake as last time.
"Who was your first love?" Jimin was really trying to dig up some dirt with this one. But, I knew this was the game so guess it was time to re-visit some unpleasant memories.
"I.. was in love with someone in high school. At first, I didn't take his confession of liking me seriously. But, he kept trying to talk to me and eventually I fell for him. He was.. sweet, kind, but, eventually I realised it was all fake..." I don't know when it had happened but I realised Kookie's hand had gently slipped into my own, he was holding my hand… I lingered in its warmth momentarily before focusing back on what I was saying about my first love.
"He was one of those guys that all the girls liked, that was another reason I tried to avoid him.. but yeah.. as you can imagine, a lot of girls got jealous and they didn't make things easy for me back then. After about 3 months of enduring the bullying to be with him, one of the girls came to me with a recording she had taken. It was basically him bragging to his friends that he could get the hottest girl in school. That he couldn't stand my personality but put up with it because I was hot". I let out an unsteady breath as I recalled the memory. It was painful. Humiliating. And made me feel like I was nothing more than an ornament to hang on the wall.
"That's messed up," Jimin's eyes may have been a little watery as he looked at me. Tae on the other hand looked pissed off.
"What a little shit, just forget that guy Jia. He's didn't deserve you. You're way too sweet to be caught up with someone like that." Tae scowled at no one in particular. I felt Kookie's hand squeeze my own softly as he agreed with Tae.
"Mm. You deserve so much better." His voice was quiet but deep, it was healing as it resonated in my chest. It was comforting and if anything, it was a reminder that things and people change. Grow and become more resilient.
"Yeah! It's okay! I'm alright now." I gave the boys a big smile. I didn't want them to feel bad for me, sympathy really wasn't my style.
"Tae~ Your turn! Pick!" I wiggled from side to side excitedly in Kookie's lap as I tried to shake off the sad vibes. It seemed to work as Tae's expression lit up at being chosen.
"Truth" he replied. I decided to ask something I was kinda interested in knowing.
"Is there someone you like at the moment?" I wanted to pry some info out of him if I could and this was the perfect opportunity.
"Oh~" Tae smirked, "Well, there is someone I kinda have feelings for .. but, I don't wanna ruin the friendship so.. it's better for me to leave it alone" he explained.
"Omg really?! Who is it?!" I was so surprised that there was actually someone he was interested in, I was half expecting him to say there wasn't.
"It's not your turn anymore~" Tae teased, a boxy grin on full display. He was right, I'd already asked my question and technically hadn't asked who.
"Why are all these questions so tame? C'mon someone do another dare!" Jimin chimed in.
"Fine, I'll take a dare." Kook gave a small laugh, I could feel it reverberating against my side.
"Wow really?" Tae grinned. Jimin broke into a small sly grin as though he was about to do something super questionable. I swear if he couldn't find any trouble he had no qualms about making some himself.
"Well, in that case... I dare you to kiss Jia. No take-backs." Jimin and Tae both exchanged smug looks but Kook went silent. I was worried he was going to not want to or something was wrong. I was also slightly shocked by the sudden dare so I decided to protest first to save him from the awkwardness.
"Kook. if you don't-" I was cut off before I could finish.
"It's okay, I'll do it." His words sunk in. I turned to him only to see that his cheeks were absolutely flushed and his eyes were kinda wide. He was averting his gaze and trying not to look directly at me.
"Are you sure? You don't have to if you don't want to.." I quickly said, now sliding off his lap as to put some space between us. He looked down for a second as though in thought before he responded.
"It's not that I don't want to. It's just that.." he began to say. I felt a bit confused but just waited for him to finish.
"If I kiss you, it'll be my first."
Jimin and Tae both kinda giggled and the realisation of the situation dawned on the three of us.
"You know Jungkookie~ Having your first kiss with Jia-Noona is probably a good idea. If we do debut and become idols dating is going to be really hard.. better to do it now before you get too famous," Jimin giggled and it sounded like a half baked excuse to convince him to go along with it but, at the same time it made sense in a weird way.
"You're actually so smart Jimin. That's a good point." Tae, now becoming more serious as he contemplated the viewpoint Jimin had posed.
"Umm. I dono about your logic but if it's your first kiss, are you sure you're okay with it being me?" I asked Kook who seemed to now be seriously contemplating what Jimin had said too.
"Yeah, I .. want it to be you. Also, Jimins point is valid.."
"Okay, it's settled! This is happening." Tae beamed before reaching over to the bottle of soju on the table again. He poured another shot for the four of us and we drank another round in preparation for the dare.
After Jimin took the empty glasses from us and put them back on the table I turned so that Kookie and I were directly facing each other.
His blush had subsided slightly but he still looked a bit unsure. It was cute and in all honesty, I was still in disbelief that this was actually happening but, there was nothing I could do to stop it. The motions were happening and I felt like I was in a daze as he leant in and placed his lips softly against mine.
Was I dreaming? His lips lingered for a moment before he pulled away again. It was the softest and most innocent kiss I'd ever had but, the daze it had left me in was surreal.
"What? That's it?" Jimin seemed kinda disappointed as his voice pulled me back to reality. "Hm? What do you mean?" Kook queried. Seeming genuinely confused.
"You gotta put a bit more passion into it ya know~ like this! Let me show you" Jimin started to explain before gently taking a hold of my hand and giving it a small tug in which I turned to face him out of reflex. What was he talking about? That was a really sweet kiss…
I hadn't even fully realised what was happening until I felt another pair of soft lips against mine but these ones felt much plumper. This time it was more sensual and assertive. Jimin had taken me by complete surprise, the feeling of his lips against my own startled me and I quickly pulled away.
"Oh sorry, are you okay?" He quickly asked, his hand still held gently on to mine.
"Ah. No, I'm sorry. I just wasn't expecting that! It's okay, go again," I quickly said, closing my eyes. I heard a small chuckle before he kissed me again. But this time I was fully expecting it.
Even so, it was sensual. His plump lips pressed against my own causing my mouth to part, Jimin took full advantage of the opportunity- I felt his tongue press against mine and there was only so much of his tongue rubbing against mine I could take before I pulled away.
"Wow. Uhh, so I'm supposed to do it like that? Guess I can give it a try," Kook says from beside me. I took a deep breath and gathered myself a bit before I turned back to face Kookie. He gave me a small reassuring smile before he leaned in and kissed me again. The way his tongue started to explore my mouth was much more dominant than before. He was slow though and would lick my bottom and top lips in between. That familiar feeling of closeness still faintly lingered even though he pulled away. I felt my body heating up as I sat there in my post kiss daze.
"Hmm.. that was definitely better. But, you gotta be a little more aggressive. My turn, come here Jia." Tae patted his lap as though calling his pet to him but I was kinda into it so decided to crawl over and sit on his lap.
Taes hand gently cupped my cheek but his depth as he kissed into me was melting me like butter in his hot hands. Jesus where did this boy learn how to - my thoughts are quickly cut as I feel him bite my bottom lip gently. He was completely taking me over the way he was ravaging my mouth. Then, as quickly and as fiery as it had started, It stopped.
"I don't know how much more of this I can handle," I mumbled, feeling like I was going to become a hot undone mess if this continued any longer.
"Hm? Are you okay? What's wrong?" Tae asked as he pushed a few loose strands of hair behind my ear and peered into my flushed face. Did he really not know what he'd just done to me?
"What?! Don't play dumb, I'm serious," I whined, only to earn a small smirk from him.
"Yea Jia is right this is going to get out of hand if we don't stop" Jimin hummed before getting up and ruffling Kooks hair spontaneously on his way to the T.V.
"Hey, don't ~" Jungkook whined. He playfully slapped Jimin right on his delectable butt cheek. Jimin just laughed cheekily. "Let's put on a movie. I'm getting kinda sleepy anyway."
I let myself be pulled into a bear hug by Tae as we watched the other two with their antics. He hummed a small tune in his deep voice in my ear as we waited for Jimin to put the movie on. As soon as he's finished Jimin came over to me and pulled me out of Taes embrace. I laid down facing the T.V and Jimin cuddled up to me and laid his head on my chest. Tae scooted over to my other side still sitting up slightly. Kookie who was on the other side spooned Jimin. He quickly became totally enthralled by the movie.
Jimins head was a little bit heavy against my chest but the way he curled up and had his leg over mine was really comfortable so I didn't want to move. As the movie went on I felt a slight tickling feeling against my stomach, maybe Jimin had fallen asleep and was doing it without realising. His head had become a bit too heavy, I glanced over at Kookie who had seemed to notice. He snuggled up closer to Jimin and then carefully picked up his head off me and put it on his own chest. Jimin mumbled a little bit before comfily snuggling up to Kook. I turned to Tae who had also noticed and laid down getting comfier. He silently pulled me into him and I felt the warmth of his body against mine.
A small moment passed before I heard his deep voice resonate closely in my ear.
"I like it when we're all together like this.." were his words. I nodded into his chest. I felt the same way. Another small moment passed before he spoke again. "Sometimes… I really miss my family. There have been times that I've even thought of giving up on becoming an idol.. and just going home to see them. But, when we are together like this, it makes me feel like I can keep going".
Even though I could feel myself getting sleepier I knew I wasn't dreaming and that Tae was genuinely telling me how he felt. I snuggled into him more, finding the strength to say something before I fell asleep.
"I'm not going anywhere, I'll be here Tae. As long as you need me. Follow your dreams," My voice was full of sleepiness but I was sure he heard it before I drifted off.