ETHAN....
I don't seem to have any answers to all these questions in my head.
Before I reach the door, it opens.
" Oh I'm sorry, I didn't know you were awake how ill mannered of me. I should have knocked"
"It's ok Ariya." I smile.
" Thank you so much for yknow, last night. Who knows what could have happened to me if you weren't there. Thanks for being stubborn yesterday." We both giggle.
"I'm glad I was there Ethan. Ok so there's a new tooth brush in the bathroom, you can use it and there's oil (Dove, Caen, E45, cocobutter, etc)
Choose the one that might fit your skin to use." She states.
"There's even a pair of new boxers, just not new cloths so I had the ones you had on yesterday dry cleaned. You can go ahead and take your bath,Suzi and I are making breakfast so hurry up and join us for breakfast" she demands.
How embarrassing right? I should have tried to stop myself yesterday. Wait!.... "Suzi?"I ask surprised.
"Oh yeah! You were too drowsy last night to notice. This is one of my dad's safe houses and she's the care taker here. She helped me bring you in last night." She explains.
"So we are three of us here right now"she adds.
So it's not even an alone time tcheww.
" Oh ok! But won't your dad be mad?" I ask the question before I even notice the words escape my lips already and how stupid it sounded.
"I've taken care of it. Just let me worry about my dad. Hurry so we could go see aunt Su later" she leaves the room after saying that. I feel stupid, this feeling has been becoming too normal lately. I'm still standing here wondering why I even asked that very less mature question. I really wanted to ask her about the kiss but now is definitely not the right time.
.........
For close to a month now, we've been jungled with mum's life, trying to make her stay with us. When I step into the room, I notice it's void of extra people. Just mum is there and I also notice the worried look on her face.
"Hi mum"
I smile at her after the hi and I go closer to her and take her hand in mine. I could feel her heavy breathing.
"Are you ok Mum?"I ask her as my smile fades away.
"I'm fine son" I hear her manage to say but I don't know if I'm just being paranoid but I think she's struggling for breath. I feel her tighten her grip on my hand.
"Ethan I'm sorry" she says and I watch a tear drop roll down the side of her eye. I'm already confused now. I'm still mingling in my cloud of thoughts and confusion when she broke through my thoughts with something like a confession?
"I've lied to you since you were a kid." Confused the more.
"What do you mean mum?"
"I'm so sorry son, I won't be able to make it till your 25th birthday but you gotta be strong" she's not even giving me the chance to speak.
" You are going to be experiencing a lot in your life from then hence. And I won't even be there to help and guide you"she said as tears rolled down her face, now faster.
" Why Mum? Why is my 25th birthday so peculiar?"I manage to ask.
"Your father Ethan! He didn't just die, he was killed" wtf!! I'm standing on my feet's now trying to digest what she just said.
"What do you mean he was killed?" I ask now frowning skeptically and my breathing is quite heavy now.
"Who killed dad? My voice is now louder than normal. I draw my fingers together into a tight fist. I shouldn't be mad and yelling at my sick mother but what will you have me do or say? Oh he was killed? Too bad see him in the next fucking life?
"You told me he suffered from a heart attack" she struggles to sit up in the bed and I help her up.
"Son I hided the truth from you to protect you."
What bullshit is she saying? How does lying to me about what happened to my dad sound like protection? It's fvked protection.
"Protect me from what or from who?"
"They would have come after you Ethan and they would have killed you and that would have been over my dead body" I'm even more confused . Mum shot her eyes before I hear her yell.
"Your father was a werewolf"She sobs more. This got me mesmerized and knocked off. It sounds like taking in a roll of coc in my left nostril and it travels directly to my brain. I feel drugged right now. What the hell!!! Do those things even exist? I only watch them in movies and read them on covers of books I hate reading books. What seemed like crude reality keeps slapping me in the face.
"Does that make me one too?" I manage to ask, partly hoping she'll say NO.
"Yes! .... Yes my child. It makes you one too. Your first transformation is on your 25th birthday that's the 26th/10/2020.
This is just too much to digest. A flash of what happened to me a month ago in the bar came hitting my thoughts. I move away from the bed backing it.
"It all makes sense now" I couldn't figure out why I kept getting those frequent severe headaches, it's been signs of my transition.
"Mum how could you keep all this away from me?" I ask now facing her direction.
" I was only trying to protect you my child. If they knew who you were, they would have come for you and probably killed you too ."
I'm very mad she kept the truth away from me for so long....so mad. I feel like I have never even known who I am, I've been thinking I'm a normal guy with a normal life. So what does this all mean for me? That I ain't gonna have a normal life? Normal family? Normal kids? Because well I'm not normal and I'm a kid of a wolf.
Does this mean once I start transforming I'll be on the run for my life? For ever? No no I can't do this.
I mean, I'm not ready and I don't want to be. This clearly explains the tattoo on my back.
"And the tattoo?"
"Your father had that drawn when you were four. He wanted to mark you. He wanted for you to know who you really are and accept it"
"You mean what I am.. blc I'm a bloody monster mum" I yell.
"Why is half of it a sketch?" I press on.
" He wants you to complete it. When you finally accept who you are you complete it..Son?" She holds my hands. "You are not a monster, you are my beautiful child, a good man that you'll continue to be even after I'm gone. You will soon have two sides. Wolf and human and you can choose not to be a monster in any state."
How did she even get to be with a wolf man?