A. STEPH...
Su why didn't you live up to your promise? You can't just leave me here to do all the work alone. I don't know what to do when Ethan clocks twenty five. Please watch over your son. I'll miss you Susan.
ETHAN...
Mum, you lied to me.
You said you will never leave so where are you now?
I did everything so you don't die but what did you do?
You just bailed on me!!
You told me all that wolf stuff and how do I face it without you mum? What if I lose control? What if I can't be as good as my dad was? Mum I need you....I really need you, I can't do this on my own. Susan Anderson please teach me how to live without you.
ARIYA....
It's 6:25pm already. People gave their condolences before leaving. I am there, still there with Ethan by aunt Su's monetary.
"Ethan the darkness is approaching let's go home"
He doesn't say a word in response to his aunt, he just sits here besides me quietly.
"Ermm aunt let's give Ethan a little bit more time. Let me take you to the car."
I take her to the car and open the door to the back seat so she can get in and I close the door before getting back to Ethan. I sit with him for a while and hold his hands in mine.
"I just need a place where I will never feel, I need a place where pain don't exist. Is God even real? Because I don't get it"
"I know you are hurting and you have the right to say what you are saying but you heard the Priest Ethan..."
"Fuck what the priest said.I know he's just compelled to say all what he was saying. I don't think he even believes in what he was saying."
Jesus Christ! I know he's hurting but I can't let him just criticize the Priest.
"Ethan, I believe in what he said. God does exist. He has a reason for everything"
"There's no fucking reason why he's gonna take away my mum right now. He knows I need her now more than ever. You don't understand"
How dare him say I don't understand? Of course I understand , if there is someone here who is most understanding, it's me! else there's something he's not telling me or I don't know about.
"Cmon That's enough, let's go"
I help him to his feet's and slide my right hand around his waist as we approach the car. I reach the car and open my own door by myself this time. I get my phone from my bag and call Larry one of our drivers. I ask him to get my car and bring to Ethan's. Doubting if Ethan will be able to drive in this state and he gets into the car.
"Can you still drive? I think I should drive"
"I'm good Ariya, I'll drive"
I do not want to insist and I do not want to make him madder than this.
The ride to his house is so quiet, I on the other hand have nothing to say to break the awkward silence. Well let's all just grief in tranquility. Aunt sobs till she falls asleep in the backseat. Once we arrive Ethan's place at the parking lot, I notice Larry in black shades standing by my car wrists crossed in front of him. I get out my door, open aunt's and take her out. Ethan is still seated in his seat. I don't know why but I'll like to take away even close to half the pain he is feeling. I take aunt into the house and up the stairs to her room,help her into her PJ and put her to sleep before descending.
All the sad looking maids greet me as I walk pass the door leading to the frontage. Ethan is still seated in his car, I can't just leave him here like this. I open the door to the passenger seat and get in again.
"Ethan you should go in and get a rest."
"You leaving?" He ask me sadly.
"Yeah"
"Why?" This is crazy. He turns in my direction and take my hands in his.
"Can't you stay the night? I.... I..... need you Ariya"
Cmon you can't be serious right now Ethan.
I know he is hurting but I can't just do what ever I want, I have probably worried sick parents at home waiting for me to come back. I personally even blocked mum because I know she must have called a hundred times already.
"I'm sorry I can't stay" with this he let's go of my hands and sit up in his chair.
"Ethan I haven't been home for approximately two days straight. My parents must be worried sick"
"Yeah... right. I'm sorry"
He's apologizing? Why? I mean I did this for aunt Su and mostly for him though but yes!! It will kill me to admit it.
"You do not have to be sorry. I did this because I wanted to"
He just stares at me and into my eyes before saying anything.
"I'll see you tomorrow?"
"If I'm free I will see you "
"Thank you so much for everything Ariya"
"It's nothing. Larry is waiting for me, I gotta go"
I open the door and help myself out. Hmm if he's thinking I'm gonna just let him stay in that car, then he is solely mistaken. I open his own door and take him out.
"You are so stubborn. If I leave you here,you just might end up sleeping the night in this car."
He follows my lead. The maids greet him as we pass by but he just shoots them a faint smile and progress to his room.
*Please take a shower and rest. I would have stayed but I can't.*
"Sorry?"
If I'm not mistaken, my lips didn't even move, that was all in my head.
"What?"
"You said something?"
"No I didn't "
What now? Does he read thoughts now?.