ARIYA...
When he faces my direction, I see that his lips have been drawn into a tight determined line and his eyes weren't blue anymore.
"I can explain" he pleads.
"Ethan what what what are you ? What's going on?" I ask and shift in fright when he sends he's hand in attempt to touch me. It bothers him. I could tell from the look on his face.
"You do not have to be scared of me Ariya I would never ever hurt you"
"What the hell are you!!!" I yell in fright because I mean my head still can't wrap around what I just saw.
"I know you are frightened by what you just experienced but I mean no harm, I'll never hurt you I swear"
With the way you tossed my phone away, I'm sure you will.
"Is this what you want to protect me from? From you? What the hell are you and what have you done to Ethan?" Crazy.
"It is me Ethan Ariya I promise. I'll explain everything to you but now is not the time. For now you just need to stay away from me, for your own good"
I sure should.
"I'll drive the rest of the way" I do not wanna get killed out here, not by a stupid car accident. If I'm to die, I wanna die on purpose yknow. I finally open my door and switch sides with him and drive home. I pull over in front of our gate, get my phone from the back seat and I'm about to step out when he gets hold of my hand and stops me.
"I'm not a monster Ariya, you know that"
No! I do not know nothing. Not after what I saw.
"Great! See you" I reply and leave the car straight into the gate that was already opened for me by the gate officer. I get into the house and move straight to my room. I pant the room for 30 minutes straight trying to organize the puzzle in my mind, trying to put the gaddamn pieces together.
"It all makes sense now. The first time I saw those eyes, I forced myself to think I was only hallucinating, here you go Ariya, the hand writing is so clear on the wall." Talking to myself.
I take off my cloths and toss them on to the pile in the laundry basket. I pull out a pair of cotton shorts and a blue hooter from the wardrobe and put them on then I pull up a pair of pink flowerish socks on my feet before easing myself on to the carpet at the foot of the bed. I lean against the bed and bring my kneels up so they can touch my chin.
"What the fuck!! Is this?" Talking to myself.
I just want a word that is not 'monster' to use. I just can't believe all this while he is some sort of ....something and I didn't even know. I do not want to see him again for fuck's sake I almost died out there in that car with him. I gotta stay away from him. I realize I'm just fooling myself.
"But how do I do that?.. I'm in love with a monster " I sob in my palms. This is just a sac full of shit dropped on my table of peace.
"Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!" I yell. I hit the bed with my fist. I get on the bed to sleep and I can't sleep, I mean, how can I? I toss from side to side. I wake up and turn on my speaker and shuffle some cool headed musics of Selena Gomez and go right back under my sheets.
🎶 you can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass,
Like I'm made of paper🎶
I don't know if I'm singing the right lyrics but I lip sing to the music till I finally fall asleep.
....
ETHAN....
I wake up one day in my life and I'm a fucking dog from the wild dog family, a forest dog. I can't live freely within people anymore. Do you know how it feels to be thinking you are human whereas infact you are not?... I lost Ariya already and every other thing that matters to me, every thing that made me happy. It's for the best.
*But you still have me*
"Shut the fuck up, what are you to me?"
*The most important part of you but I wouldn't want to let the cat out of the bag. I do not want to ruin the surprise*
I do not even know how my life will be after today. I'm I gonna hit the streets with terror or as a hero? Will I be hiding in the woods all my life? Can I make the people realize that we all can live together as a raise? . But wait, what if I can't turn back into human form? I'll remain a dog forever? I do not want to be stock in a wolves body c'mon universe!!
Kay mind talks with me asking me to come to the woods at 10pm tonight.
I get a knock at the my door. "Come in" aunt Steph comes in with a cake in her hand and starts singing a birthday song for me. This day, my birthday should be one of the happiest days of my life but it's the saddest. She and the maids sing the song till the end while I stare faking a smile . She asked me to blow my candle off.
"Before you do, you must make a wish"
It's always easy to say a random something and call it a wish but today got me thinking about what I really want to wish for. I would have wished I was a normal man but! I don't think that's gonna work, I would have equally wished for Ariya not to hate me but it won't happen, I would have also wished for mum to come back too but that ain't happening either. Finally I settle for the most important after my insecurities.
I wish to be a better wolf just like dad was, just like mum wanted me to be, a good leader, a good person.
With that I blow off my candle as they all cheer then aunt placed the cake on the table.
"Thank you ladies. If you don't mind, please excuse us" she smiled at them and when she'd shut the door, she gives me a kiss on my cheek. "
Happy birthday my beautiful nephew. Because Susan isn't here doesn't mean I can't take care of you on my own. Today you are 25 and it changes a lot for you. You are not and will not be a monster, not under my watch. You gonna be just like your dad I know it." Wait, what is she talking about?
"Wait! Aunty you know??"