ETHAN.....
I do not want to teach myself to live without my mother. I can't do it. How do I tell her she's got only a short time to live? I enter the ward and everyone's gaze is on me but why though? I notice a cloud of tears in mum's eyes and I don't make five steps to her bed yet..
" I'm dying I'm I not Ethan?" She asks looking into thin air. I rush to her side and just then, the tears she's been fighting rolled down her cheeks and just then, I feel my whole life crumble along with the tears and I take her hand in mine.
" Mum I'll do everything...everything"
I know I know. I shouldn't let my vulnerability show out like that but right now I'm the weakest person in the world. I'm so weak that the wind can blow me into the sea. I can't stand the pain, I can't stand everyone's crying, I can't even stand my own tears. I should be comforting the women but I can't even suppress my own pain. I just need to step out for a while.
I pick up my car keys and head for the door when mum's voice brings me to a stand.
" Where are you going Ethan" I can't tell her I'm going to waste myself instead of figuring out and finding out different ways to safe her life.
" I'll just be out for a while Mum " I dash out , if she said anything else, I didn't hear it.
ARIYA....
I can't believe I just kissed Ethan, I face palm myself.
" Ariya that's taking advantage, my God how could you be so stupid?"
My thoughts won't let me be. I mean I didn't mean to kiss him. I've watched movies and read books and they all seem to have the same idea on calming a beast, just seal the lips with a kiss and the beast is tamed.
No matter how I look at it, I still took advantage. I should have just given him a hug or something. But! To be honest to myself, I kissed him and he kissed me back. Jezz I was already floating, it's a good thing I didn't let it last any further. Why I'm I even thinking about this? Stupid me, I should be comforting him, I shouldn't let him go alone, I should go with him to protect him. I giggle at my thoughts of course I can't protect someone with all that strength.
........
About to start the car, I open the door to the passenger's seat and get in. He just looks at me and bring down his head before saying anything.
"I wanna be alone"
Does he really think he can make me leave the car I'm already seating in? Jezzz I've got pride mehnn.
"Not today" I finally answer him. Well he knows I've made up my mind and he can't make me leave.
My God why is this lime brain on high speed?.
" Ethan!!" I call or yell his name and grab my seat belt. I'm frightened yknow.
" I hope you not trying to get us both killed!!" I yell again and yet still he pays no attention and still doesn't slow down. I try and focus on his face and I see how gloomy his face looks. It's like he's not even the one driving the car, he looks so far. I know better than to touch the wheel, I might end up being the one to get us killed.
When he finally comes to a stop, he leaves the car leaving the door to his seat open and just step into something that looks like a bar. I don't know Ethan to be a drinking type . This person today is definitely not Ethan, I hope the thing in him returns this body to the rightful owner.
I notice he's not even opened my own door as usual, not that I'm expecting him to in the state in which he is in right now. I finally open my door and step out and I remove the key from where it was still stock and close the door he left open too. I press the lock button on the car remote to lock the car.
Stepping into the bar I notice it's not as mild as it looks from the outside. The inside of the bar is much larger, very crowded and the music here plays on very very high volume, you can barely hear each other talk. I tear through the drunk dancing crowd to the counter were I find Ethan seated, two shots glasses in front of him and it's like he'd already taken one quarter of the bottle of henessey the bar tender is holding. I'm already confused right now like I don't know what to do. I know better than to stop him yknow so I just take a seat beside him and order for a cider.
Watching Ethan drown himself in sorrow hurts so bad and what hurts most is I can't do anything to help him out. Taking the next shot I hear him let out a small scream and hold his head tight then falls to the floor dragging some attention with him and oh that came down with the two shots glasses smashing against the floor and scattering into tiny small pieces. I reach down to him on the floor almost scared to touch him because of how violently he is pressing his head from the sides.
"Ethan!!...Ethan!!" I try to call but I don't think he can hear me.
Many people moved away because of how he was acting down here.
" Is he ok?" People were asking from a distance.
" should we call an ambulance?" Others ask.
The fact that people moved away like he was some beast got me really mad. Nobody is tryna help the fuck out, they all moving away. This is the second time today I'm dropping a tear for this guy's pain. I hold him in my arms even though he'd hurt me unconsciously when he was acting wild. It takes some time but he calms down a little, I know I can't carry him out by myself but I'll try. I put my free hand in my jacket and take out 50box and threw it on the counter.....