I didn't want to believe it. I mean how could my first relationship be online and that too with a boy that I really had a crush on! I felt worse at the thought that I left his text on seen and switched off my phone! Why did I even do that? I had sat to study but I wasn't at all able to concentrate on the book. I kept overthinking over and over. It was the weirdest moment of my life! I had NEET in a month and a half and I was thinking all about a guy whom I had never met in real life. My exam was in September and it was really stressful because it had already been postponed twice before! The covid was never going to let that exam happen but the NMC kept taking out random dates for the exam. I had lost all the hope about my admission this year. I didn't even want to get into MBBS so I was thinking about other things I could do and still live a normal life as soon as possible. And when that Abhimanyu thing happened, it didn't even let me think about options to get into vet stream when its exam was already missed by me!
My life then got from just studies to optimistic future with relationship issues. The next whole day I didn't talk to him. I went to my cousin's house and decided to not think anymore about him and study seriously because I was already failing in the tests which my brother used to give me. And that day, I didn't even take a break to eat food! I was into my books all day long. And then in the evening my father came to pick me up as everyday and I went home and I opened my phone.
He really had texted.
"Hey! Did I mess up?"
"Was I not supposed to say all that?"
"I know I messed up right? But that is actually the way I feel about you! I have actually fallen for you."
"Its okay if you don't want to text back. I understand that you already have a weird life and you don't want no more weirdness. I completely understand."
He said all that and I don't know why did I feel a hint of sadness in all those texts. It sounded more like a person saying all those things while he was holding his tears back. Like he does not want to accept the reality but he have to because that was for the best. Nothing could happen otherwise!
And I don't know why did I feel all that but I genuinely felt all that. And I replied to him, "Don't you ever let yourself down due to anyone! Consider me yours and I will fight the world for you!"
And that's how my relation started! I meant all those words. At that point I was ready to go through anything to be with him. I felt that I owe him something. He was such a nice person. Other boys at his age would have been like 'if you don't text me back in one hour then I will understand that you don't love me at all and that I was a fool to love you'. Or the other boys would have been like 'I know that you love someone else, that is why you are not saying yes to me'.
And those are the most lame boys because they start assuming things without any reason and make a boyfriend of the girl without having a single hint. That's the sad truth about India right. Most of the boys are immature and they have made us girls to stay overprotective about ourselves. If a girl wears revealing clothes and go out in public then most of the boys are like she might have surely gotten out to impress her crush. I mean bro, she is not out to impress her crush and she is not out to impress any other boy in the universe. She is wearing that because she was feeling sticky in the long clothes which you expect her to wear. Bitter truth right? It is the fact that most of the boys we have are immature and they have no clue about what things to say at what moment.
Why did I even move to the social disabilities? The fact that Abhimanyu was nothing like most of the boys of his age. He was way too mature and someone like him had fallen for me. I had butterflies about this thing for weeks!
The day we confessed to each other was the day I didn't get to talk to him at all because I had a test the next day and my phone hours were reduced to zero.
But I was happy because I at least had someone who thinks of me before he goes to sleep.
And that day I had the weirdest dream of all. There was no Kapura in my dreams after so damn long. I was with Abhimanyu. And we were raiding a mall in the middle of the night. It was really crazy and as vivid my dreams are, it felt real. He had picked me up on his shoulder and we were going towards the fire exit. It was the same staircase at the mall which everyone ignores! The whole mall was empty and I don't know why did he chose to go there and that too while he had picked me up! He then put me down and pinned me to the wall. Our heartbeats matched and his breath was warm on my shoulder. I had tingling sensations all over!
And then some sound made me startle. I bet it was a baby crying! He looked at the direction of the voice and stared at that for sometime. And I couldn't get my eyes off of him. He looked back at me and asked me if we should go see if everything was alright!
"Do you want us to go check who's the demon baby?"
I gave him a little shove away from me and got an angry face. And then I walked towards the sound. He surely did know that I was frustrated due to something!
"Hey! If you don't wanna go then we wont go alright?"
And I literally smiled and that and kept walked! He literally had to run to keep pace with me.
He then called my name and made me turn towards him.
"Aerikaaaaaaaa!" the last part of my name. He prolonged it like he was longing for something. That made me blush.
He grabbed my waist and, "Don't be mad at me. You know I don't like it right?"
That made my skin go all red and pink! Why was I so shy from him. I covered my face with my hands! And he grabbed my right hand and made me look into his eyes.
"Hey don't look away from me!"
I blushed again. But then I saw the surroundings! It were all pink walls and baby wallpapers. Mostly like the scene from horror movies where babies are kept and there are all weird dolls! I wasn't even scared but it felt like some baby doll from the white wardrobe will come out and murder the whole family. I hugged him! I hugged him so tight and I didn't let go! He gave me head pats and shoulder rubs and back rubs. I felt the luckiest person on the earth to have him. Why wouldn't I? I got a matured man with the most gentleman behavior and he had the best body built. He was even taller than me and could pick me up with just his one arm. He knew the best about how to handle my tantrums and mood swings!
I was thrown out of my thoughts when I heard a baby cry again. Then I turned my head around while I was still hugging him and then I saw a crib! It really had a baby inside of it! Even Abhimanyu was looking at the baby so I decided to walk closer and pick him up in my arms!
I held the baby and it clung to my chest like he was hugging me! He was filled with cuteness! He smiled while looking at Abhimanyu! He was also looking at the baby like he was struck by the fact that a baby would be in some wilderness! So I asked him, "Do you wanna hold him?"
"No I don't want to hold him and I suggest that you too should keep him down! I don't think that its safe!" he was really concerned about the whole situation.
"Please Abhi! Lemme hold him for a little longer. What harm could a baby do to anyone?" and then the baby turned his head over and was not looking at him anymore. It was as if he discouraged the fact that Abhimanyu was there. I laughed at that.
"See! Even the baby does not like the fact that you don't like it!"
And he groaned irritatingly! He seemed to not like kids! I found that funny! I wanted to irritate him more with that baby smell and the annoying coos! But his eye caught something!
He was heading towards the wardrobe! He leaned at the end of the wardrobe and saw a key beneath it. It was clearly visible from where I was standing and I had a really weird feeling about it. It made me shiver from top to bottom and I went cold just at the sight of the key.
"Abhi don't touch that!"
"Why?"
"Please!"
And after seeing the look in my eyes, even he was scared! He saw mw shivering! He came closer to hold me but before he could do anything, a white shadow approached him with its full potential and engulfed him. I was horrified again. I turned to see the baby and the baby also had a weird smile on his face. He suddenly grew horns and wings like that of a devil! I feared everything around me! My eyes started widening! My skin went pale and I suddenly had no blood in my body! I was still not over the fact that Abhimanyu was just eaten by a silver silhouette. I just froze on the spot.
The baby's eyes turned red! He was all bloody and his sclera was black! His laugh was eerie and I don't know why I was still holding him. And then his eyebrows got crooked and everything turned bloody red and black around me. The baby had a mature voice. He said in a loud voice, "HE DESERVED TO DIE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
I woke up then. I was all sweaty and my forehead was throbbing! I got up and drank a jug full of water. Even that was not enough for a little while and then I thought of cooking Maggie. I was still thinking that the dream was real and Abhimanyu had gone for real this time! I wanted to lay on the floor and cry! But I couldn't cry because I knew that someone of my father and mother would surely come to check on me because I was no in the room! Just by the thought of making them see me cry made my eyes go dry! Not that I cared but they would make a fuss out of everything and start assuming things. Because according to them I had already lost 6 kgs of my weight due to stress that studies gave me. Only if they had seen how I used to be in Chandigarh hostel, they would know that I was not the doctor type of human. I didn't want the type of discipline which they had to keep in their lives. I didn't want to see different people in my whole day just to listen to their abdominal pains and diagnose them with diabetes or kidney stones or appendicitis! I didn't want any of that! I didn't even like to study biology. And after thinking that I will have to study biology for the rest of my life once I got into MBBS and that my parents would not rest until I got into MBBS, made a huge lump inside of my throat. I wanted to throw up. The only thing I was thinking at that time was that if I don't stand for myself now then I will end up ruining my whole life and then there will be no turning back because I would have already taken the Hippocratic oath and then I couldn't say no to the people who were in pain! I didn't want any of that.
I was so sad about the fact that Abhimanyu was eaten by a silhouette and I couldn't shake the scene off my eyes! And then my phone pinged!
"Are you sleeping alright?" How did he know that I had a nightmare?
"Why would you ask that?" I was really shoved by the fact that he could feel me from this far! But also I was out of the nightmare so everything in my head was back to normal.
"I don't know. I just woke up all of a sudden in the middle of the night and then I couldn't sleep for so long! I had a gut feeling that I should really talk to you. I really needed to talk to you!"
I smiled at that! Amazing isn't it? Just how one text can make your fear change into excitement!
"Actually I really had to take this thing out of my tummy!" I told him and then I told him everything that happened in my dream. Except the part where he picked me up and pinned me to the wall because I was way too shy to tell that to him at that point of our relationship! I also told him that I didn't want to do the thing which I am doing right now and I was really upset about that. He just said that its not always about what we want. Sometimes we even have to do double work just to make to people around us happy! Even if they are making us do their work just to satisfy their ego, there is nothing wrong n gaining a little extra knowledge.
"Besides I will always be there beside you! And you surely don't want to leave your family! You love them too right?"
How was he so smooth in saying that? How was he so easy going and chill?