I got home at 11 last night due to all the stupid traffic and all I wanted to do was take a day off today so badly but I can't on a Monday. I didn't even bother with my appearance today, I just put on whatever I could find that didn't need ironing and headed out of my apartment.
I reach our floor to see that Nayel is not in yet so I leave his coffee at his desk and come back and sit down on mine. I didn't get much sleep last night, I kept tossing and turning in bed.
I sigh as I rest my elbows on my desk and run my hands through my hair. I rub my face in exhaustion.
"We do not come to work to sleep Ms. Reynolds" I hear Nayel say in a stern voice as he approaches my desk.
I flash him a forced smile which was basically my version of fuck you which I think he recognizes so he simply scowls and walks into his office.
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I don't know if this is a good thing or bad but today was a very slow lazy day. On one hand, I could relax since I barely had any work to do and did not have to deal with Nayel's constant outbursts but at the same time I was fighting the urge to fall asleep, I was beyond exhausted. I've had two cups of coffee since this morning and it's only 12:30 yet I still can't get any energy inside of me.
Winston approaches my desk, he was smiling as always. Today he was wearing a dark brown plaid suit with a beige turtle neck sweater underneath, he had taken off his coat now. He looked really handsome, he sure knew how to dress, unlike most men.
"Rough night?" Winston eyes me speculatively.
"Is it that obvious?" My voice comes out a little hoarse causing him to chuckle.
"Kind of, I'm sorry" Winston looks at me in amusement.
"I barely got any sleep last night I don't know why. I just kept tossing and turning" I shrug.
"Want some coffee?" Winston offers and I shake my head.
"No, I've had 2 cups since the morning, no more for me" I raise my hands in defeat.
"You should eat something, that much caffeine on an empty stomach isn't good" Winston's lips pursed in a smile as always.
"Yeah, I think I might head down to Dunkin and get a donut or something, it is lunch for me" I check the time on my phone.
"There's this really nice cafe like 10 minutes from here, they have the best donuts," Winston says.
"Oh, really what's it called?" I ask, pulling my hair away from my face and tying it in a bun.
"The Cakery, we could go there right now, I was heading out to lunch myself" Winston suggests.
I check my watch again, I still have 45 minutes of my break left, "Yeah why not" I say getting up from my desk and Winston smiles.
I grab my purse and coat and follow Winston to the elevator.
Winston offered to drive us there so we could be back quicker not wanting to deal with the wrath of Mr. Nayel and as suspected Winston did not drive a douchebag car. I'm such a numb nut when it comes to cars but I know it's not a sports car maybe it's a honda or something? It's a nice car, it has a red and black interior and it smelled really nice. It didn't smell like cologne instead it smelled like lemons because he had one of those car fresheners in. Why don't more dudes have that? I hate getting into a guy's car and instantly the pungent smell of cologne hits my nose making me nauseous. Don't get me wrong, I think cologne is alluring as hell and it makes me feel all types of ways but overdoing it makes me want to gag and not in a good sexy way.
The cafe was very tiny, with only 6 tables inside which were mostly preoccupied. I get a lemonade and a Boston cream donut while Winston gets a Turkey sandwich. We sit by the window, I admire the busy and loud streets of New York as we make conversation and enjoy our meal. Whenever I'm having a bad day I remember I'm living in New York City and I know it's so lame but I automatically feel so untroubled and warm.
"So what type of law do you think you want to specialize in?" Winston asks taking a bite of his sandwich.
"Honestly, I haven't given it much thought?" I clink my teeth together, "I know that's so unprofessional of me, most people my age are usually getting into the practice already when I'm kind of fine where I am. Like yeah, I went to law school and always wanted to be a lawyer but now that I am working with all these lawyers I don't know if this is what I really want? I could see myself as maybe a family lawyer or even a criminal lawyer but at the same time, I don't know" I don't know why I'm telling him all this, "I'm sorry for getting all deep with you" I smile at him apologetically.
"No please go on, I'm here to listen" He flashes me a warm smile and for some reason, I go on.
"I sometimes feel like if I wasted all that time and money in law school and the bar and all of that, I've never wanted to do anything but law and when I applied to Jefferson Legal I actually applied as a lawyer but they didn't have any vacancies and I would learn a lot as Mr. Nayel's assistant so I took the job. I have learned a ton, really but working here also made me wonder if I even want to be a lawyer? Like I told myself I'd work as his assistant for 6 months tops get some experience and then practicing law but I sorta fell in love with my job, yes my boss sucks but I love the whole behind-the-scenes aspect of it all? Or maybe I just love the aspect of an office corporate job? I sometimes feel like I'm 25 and I don't know what I'm doing with my life like yes I have an amazing job but I don't plan to be an assistant forever especially not to Mr. Nayel so what do I want to do? Because I don't think Law is it for me" I ramble everything out as if I needed to say it in a breath.
Winston nods, "I understand where you're coming from and it's totally alright to realize what you wanted to do is not it anymore because it's not what you thought it would be" Winston pauses, "you're 25 you're so young. Just try to broaden your horizons a little, figure out what you're interested in and what you like aside from law while doing your job so that you don't feel completely lost and have somewhat of an idea of what you want after this"
I smile, "You're right, I think I should start doing my research, Thank you for listening to all that."
Winston's emerald eyes crinkle as he smiles, "Of course"
I check my wristwatch, "We should get going, I am in no mood for a lecture from you know who."
Winston nods and asks for the check from the waiter and slyly slips in his card before I even got the chance to open my purse.
"No no don't do that" I complain, shaking my head as the waiter walks off.
"You can get the next one, my treat to a new friendship" Winston flashes me a dimpled smile.