Everything was dark, but it still had a warmth to it. "Where am I? I wonder if this is the afterlife that everyone is always going on about?" I couldn't move, but I didn't mind, this is what I chose after all.
A brief thought of the family I left behind flashes through my mind cause my chest to tighten, "I'm sure they're fine. My sisters are old enough that they don't need me anymore. They'll be sad but they will move on for their dreams."
I start remembering how excited Janet was to become a teacher. She only had a year of school left until her dream would come true. Mia had just finished her studies to be an engineer much earlier than expected the little workaholic genius. While Willow was thinking of joining the army after high school. They were all so driven. I give a small smile in farewell to the sisters I loved, wishing them a life that they live for themselves and not for anyone else.
Suddenly there is a soft muffed voice coming from all around me, "Hello little one, we can't wait to meet you so come out soon. We're all waiting for your arrival." The language was like nothing I had ever heard before, but somehow, I still understood what they were saying. I reached out and found that I could now move, but that I was in an enclosed space. I tried pushing against the wall and suddenly there were many excited voices talking all at once.
"I think she kicked! Roland, did you feel it!?"
"Yes! Yes, I did!" the voices sounded so excited, "Oh, our sweet child we love you so much and we can't wait to meet you!"
"Don't worry little one, grandma will be sure to spoil you rotten!" another voice suddenly spoke up with determination.
"Mom!" A voice said before they all started laughing joyfully.
Hearing these voices made me want to cry. The warmth in their voices and the love. I tried to reach out again, I wanted more than anything to find those voices, but the wall stopped me again. "Roland! The baby moved again! I think our baby can hear us!"
"Yes, I think so too!" the voice said as I felt something press against the same place as my hand.
Baby? But didn't I die? I was confused for a while before I realized that I must have been reborn, well, in the process of being reborn and the thought scared me. I thought I had escaped life, will I have to relive everything all over again, the pain, loneliness, and the expectations that I could never live up to.
"No! I don't want this! Why!? Why did this happen?" I started to panic and kick the wall, but it didn't do anything. I wanted to cry but found that I couldn't. Then a soothing sound started to come from all around me.
"Oof, Little one it seems you're quite the fighter. Calm down now, mommy will sing you a lullaby." Her voice was incredible and the more she sang the more my panic started to subside.
"Hush now little baby and I'll sing you off to sleep"
"The Moonlights shinning gently as the Goddess smiles."
"It blesses you and lights your path in its beautiful glow"
"She guides you and she guards you,"
"As you walk your path."
"Don't worry my child,"
"For you will never be alone"
"The Fairies seek your friendship, and your family gives you love"
"May you always be happy."
"May you see the light in all those around you until the end of your days"
"Know that we love you and that will never change."
"Sleep now my precious child,"
"Of the Moon"
By the end, I could feel my consciousness fading. I started to think that maybe this time will be different. Mother never sang anything meaningful to me like this. I'm not even born yet, and I can already feel my new mommy's unconditional love.
"Maybe, just maybe, I'll trust just one more time." I thought to myself as fell into a peaceful sleep.