I tried sleeping but I couldn't fall asleep. My mind kept drifting on to Roy's words. Was it really my smothering love that ended my relationship with Roy?
I thought I hadn't tried to be that possessive girlfriend by making him do whatever he wanted, talked with him only when he wanted to, never asked for favors when I needed him. I tried not to depend on him but was always there for him.
Though I was physically and emotionally exhausted,my mind kept me awake and at the wee hours in the morning, I finally fell asleep.
I woke up at seven in the morning and washed up and went to have my breakfast. Though I wasn't in the mood to eat anything, I had to eat and stay healthy for the sake of my baby.
Aurora was already awake and was preparing the breakfast, when I entered the kitchen. She glanced at me and noticed my puffed up eyes.
"Is that another pregnancy symptom or is it just the Roy effect?",she pointed out directly and I smiled ruefully.
"Last night Roy apologized to me and we talked",I said. She left whatever she was doing and looked at me, knowing there was more, so I continued,"He told me that I loved him too much and that was one of the reasons why he felt suffocated and did what he did".
"Issy, you don't believe that do you?",she asked me and I shrugged. I didn't know what to believe or not believe anymore.
"Look Issy, Gabby and I have seen you suffer while waiting for him to call you just because you didn't want to disturb him and end up fighting. You even missed your classes just to fit him in the dates that he planned. He is just trying to pin you for the mess he made and guilt you into taking him back",she was saying when Gabby came out of her room,rubbing her eyes.
"Who is taking whom back?",she asked and Aurora replied,"Roy is trying to guilt Issy into giving their dead relationship a second chance".
"No way!Issy, you're not going back to that weasel of a man",Gabby said looking at me.
I sighed and I told them both honestly,"I'm not getting back together with Roy. Its just what he said about my love suffocating him, it hurt me."
"Don't bother about it Issy. It doesn't matter now why he did it because fact remains that he cheated on you and mistreated you. Period",Gabby retorted and I smiled at her, thankful for my two friends who were my rock and pillar, and gave me the support I always needed.
"Enough of Roy now,let's eat up I'm starving, and I need to run to work as well", Gabby said and we had our breakfast and left for our office.
Zeke was already in his office when I reached office, so I went straight to him and showed him what I had worked on yesterday.
He looked at the flow chart and we discussed about tweaking a little bit of here and there, and finally completed with how we needed to design the whole program, after which he took me to meet the rest of the team.
Since it was a start up, there weren't many people and everyone had to multi task. But after meeting with everyone and seeing how amiable they all were, I knew I was going to love this place.
After the introductions were over, Zeke took me to my desk and we started on our website project right away as we needed to complete that on a priority.
Tyler Jacobs aka TJ, who would be doing the user interface designing, came and joined us as we discussed about how our clients needed their webiste.
"The delivery guy is here. Who do we thank for the lunch today?",came a voice from behind me. I looked up to see Maya smiling at me, thinking it was I who ordered it.
"It wasn't me",I shrugged and she furrowed her eyebrows as if she was not convinced, and I chuckled.
"I ordered it since we have our newest colleague joining us today, and we need to show her the hospitality we share, here at ZeWill", Neel, Maya's twin brother replied, ignoring his sister's eyeroll.
"Oh for goodness sake Neel, just say that you find her pretty and you wanted to make an impression on her so you ordered us lunch", she retorted back at her brother.
I looked at them and couldn't help smiling at their bickering and thought of Leo and my own silly exchanges.
She opened the contents and I got a whiff of the delicious food that she now laid on the table for everyone.
We had been so deeply engrossed in designing the website that I didn't even realize how hungry I was, and now my stomach growled to remind me how hungry it actually was.
Embarrassed, I quickly held my stomach and hoped that no one had heard it, but my hopes went down the drain when Neel joked, "Please give the first plate to Ms. Issy out here, before the tiger comes out of her belly".
I blushed at his remark and Maya said,"Don't mind my idiotic brother Issy. He's just pulling your legs." I smiled back at her but still felt embarrassed.
"So Issy, you and Zeke graduated from the same college?",Kaylee, the concept artist, asked me and I nodded, unable to speak with my mouth filled with food.
"How was Zeke in college? Was he as bossy as he is now?",she said as she looked at Zeke, with a sense of longing in her eyes, which she was quick to shake off, but I had already noticed.
"How am I bossy? I might be the only person who doesn't boss around others",Zeke replied defiantly.
"Oh, but you are bossy,boss!", said Neel and added,"Ask Steven and he'll agree with me".
Their easy conversation continued for the whole time we had our lunch and when we were done, everyone dispersed back to their own desks and picked up right where it was left.
I liked the work environment here as they knew when to rest and when not to waste time. I was glad that they had such good work ethics and did not think much of it anymore as I looked to my own work.