Azan woke me up and I had a shower and straight away went to the mosque , offered salah and sat down there for Doa. I said to God , "O, Lord , the Devil inside me is getting stronger day by day , please help me in finding a straight path and clear my sins' '.
I felt very light after Doa . I returned home and sat near Baba on the ground , who was gazing at me , but gave no answer to me. After one minute I broke the silence Baba ,"will the devil win" .
Baba : Devil has powers which Allah has granted and has taken permission from Allah , that he will make every human being on this Earth go astray , Allah said if my Servant returns to me and make AStaghfar which means "o Allah , forgive me". I will forgive him and HE will give you three things , Rains, Money and Lots of children.
I was happy to know that these three things are enough for this duniya and for akhera , is forgiveness. I started reading it on a daily basis.I felt difficult in reading and understood devil is not allowing me reading it , so i started going to mosque to read the asme azam "Astagferullah".
I have final metric exams and started paying more attention to my papers. Business was going well .
Adil marriage:
My mother found a very nice lady for my brother Adil and she was different as compared to Zara , elder brother Sahil's wife.I also like her because she was friendly and loving . one day their family came to our house to see us and brought lots of gifts along with it.I was very happy but could clearly see jealousy in the eyes of Zara for no reason.
We took one week to prepare for marriage , it was a big occasion and I was so happy for the first time after the death of my father, Baba was wearing
White clean shalwar kameez and me in a pants coat.
Zara felt jealous on the stage while the ceremony was taking place and silently talking in her husband's ears.
It was cold evening after having dinner , we take bride in our home ,My room was decorating , that i and adil used to share before now i have no room left to sleep and decided to go to mothers room and sleep on mattress .
In the evening , my mother had a big argument with my big brother Sahil and He was talking madly , he was looking so angry , I was so scared that he could do anything. ZARA planning worked and now Sahil is playing in his hands.Argument was about not giving protocol to the old couples .I tried to convince my brother but he said loudly ,"shut your mouth,kids should not interfere".
I was silent instantly...….
I passed the matriculation exam with low grades , due to the worst situation at my house . I was fed up with everyday tension being created by sahil and her wife . Started spending most of the time in a mosque , started reading the Quran with mosque students.
Sahil's business went down and down and he stopped paying ,salary of workers at home and Baba also looked worried. He was not worried about the salary, afraid of losing me. He loves me so much.I requested in front of my brother that let Baba live here, He will not disturb us for the salary. I saw Baba tears for the first time. He silently packed his bag.
I requested Baba ,come lets us sit in the Garden.He hugged me and said "GOD has given you spacial heart , love for poor people like me , I spent my half of life here and watched you people growing up, do come to see me and remember Allah all the time , and make ziker of Astaghfar all the time . He will listen to all your problems."
Baba left the house and I could see clearly ,light going out and Darkness entering into the house.
Next day i requested mom ,need to go to college ,please arrange my fees , Mom again requested Sahil but in vein, I was quiet and silently sat down in tv lounge .Adil came downstairs , I told him about the fees while crying , He said politely ," sheroz do not worry !, I have arranged fees for you and now let's go to see your new college and make your admission".