When the white sunrays fall on me, I open my eyes. It feels like, it has been years since I saw the world. I feel like until now I am in a bad dream.
Someone helped me out of that dream with a great effort.
I saw Bogum sleeping near the couch and I am on the bed in a room with white walls, a white ceiling and a red hospital mark on the door.
Don't tell me I am really in the hospital !!
Ahh, my head hurts, what the hell happened? Is everything alright?
These were the questions that are rambling in my mind but abruptly there is someone closing my eyes and making me sleep slowly.
The scent right now I could smell is very nice, it's like there are a lot of beautiful flowers in a garden and the smell we get just after it rains at that place, that's amazing.
After a while, I could open my eyes. Someone holding my hand and kissing my forehead lovingly. And-and he slowly starts kissing on my nose, cheek and th-then my lips.
It feels like heaven.
I could just kiss him forever, he is so good. I start taking initiative for more. I want to kiss him some more !!.
Then again someone drag me back and everything changed in a second. Now all I could see is, I and a man kissing each other. I could surely tell he is the one I kissed before.
I hold him tighter into a hug and kiss.
But, he is in pain. I can see a lot of wounds. He, being held in my hands while bleeding everywhere. It hurts in my heart, I don't know why but it hurts a lot.
My heart aches a lot when I touch his wounds, I took him even more into my hands and caress his hair.
"My mom always tells when we kiss on the hurt, the pain will go away" I said to him while tears rolling fell on his body. "Baby, I would love it" he gave a bright smile but I could see his tears too, I know it hurts for him a lot!
I quickly blow on the wounds near his cheek.
Both his cheeks are so red, the fingerprints on his soft skin tell that he got slapped very harshly. How can someone be this cruel as to beat him like this?
The more I see the more it hurts, then he closes my eyes saying "Baby it's going to be alright baby, your husband is..." then a sharp sound of a bullet being fired can be heard.
I freeze, his hand dropped, I-I could tell h-he is not moving at all.
No, Noooo I must be wrong to th-think that noo that can't be this way! I am wrong! How can he die?! He is of course fine!
I am scared to open my eyes. I pray to god, this guy, my husband must be alright! Please he must be alright!
I slowly opened my eyes and all I can see is...
My husband-my husband, the one who called me...Baby. That sweet man whom I could kiss forever is lying on the ground, there is a lot of blood near his heart.
I could just memorize the words he said: "Baby, it's going to be alright."
I touch near his heart, I know, I know it's not bea...No, no I must have seen it wrong maybe he is just unconscious. I hug him tighter, tighter even more closer and cry.
You are a bastard, I shake him so much to wake him up.
"Hey, hey didn't you say you are fine! Why are you playing dumb now!!... Just get up... please, get up." In my mind, I know that we are not close enough that I am so broken like this but in my heart, it might have hurt less if I died instead of you!!
I flick his hair softly, caressing his cheeks. His brows are very beautiful and his face! He is Mr Kang! Kang Tae, the CEO of Kang electronics!
"Daehyun, it's okay, it's okay, don't be scared" I hear my dad's voice not far away. But Mr Kang's body on me gave me shivers. I cant toss him away, I can't move my body.
The hate I had on him is nothing compared to the love from my heart.
Then I open my eyes panting heavily. My dad kept comforting me for a while.
"So it is a dream?" I couldn't throw those memories away from my mind. "Hey, what dream? What happened?" Bogum kept asking me while tieing his shoes.
"Nothing, it's just something that came to mind ." I said to him not willing to reveal my story. I don't know whether he believes it or not if I tell him that Mr Kang is my husband in the dream.
And also he died after suffering a lot.
But how can my husband die?! When my husband whom I will be marrying will not have to go through such a worst situation. He and I will have a beautiful life, we will enjoy our every moment.
"Hey, Nice to see you again," said a guy wearing a blue T-shirt and black jeans, he is none other than Mr Kang.
I just thought about him and he appears now?! Okay, don't feel tensed take it easy.
"Yea, nice to meet you, sir. How have you been recently?" I said in reply.
"Very good, are the classes done?" he handed me a coffee drink while patting me on the shoulder. I am stunned, when did we even become this close!
I just nod. Anyway, it's just for cheering me up, let's consider it that way.
It looks a bit awkward right now. We can just leave from there but... somehow I feel like talking to him, I am curious about his wounds, why is his hand injured?
"Sir, did you get hurt?" I asked looking at the bandage on his left hand just below his wristwatch.
"Oh, it is nothing just a scratch." he shrugs, So he doesn't want to share. Then I would never bother him to say.
"Then we will get going sir" I moved to Bogum's side who is busy chatting with someone, he always finds someone to enjoy with.
Mr Kang holds my hand, I have expected something from him, maybe... a reason for his wounds or the actual truth behind my so-called bad dream, I am expecting an explanation.
He clears his throat I hesitate to turn around. Something is holding me back to turn, suddenly my head started to hurt...
A hand that is holding me in the same way as he is holding me now is clearly sensed, there is a beautiful view in front of me, I could also see that there are two children standing next to me.
They are peeking from the side of me like hiding behind me, that's so cute.
They are observing the beauty of nature.
Their cheeks blushing while smiling at us sweetly made my heart flatter. I could just live like this for my whole life, looking after them.
Even the minutes felt like seconds all I could see now is the cutest children holding my hand lovingly are all crying now.
They look so painful, why? what happened? Did something happen? I don't know why my heart hurts now, don't know but it feels like something bad has happened.
The man who is holding my hands, where did he go?
"Father, don't go, no father come back, don't leave us" is what I hear from the pitiful children.
I want to hug them and comfort them that their father will come back to them.
One of the child cuddle in my embrace sweetly yet with sorrow "Dad tell father to come back, please tell him please..."
What? Are you calling ME your dad? That means you both are...
Then I come back to my senses I hug whatever is near me, some huge teddy bear is hugging me it's nice!
"Drink some water, slowly" is what that teddy bear said while slowly making me drink water. Now I can open my eyes.
Tears rolling from my eyes I hear a voice that comforts me "Baby, don't forget to stay strong whatever it takes, you will right?" those words made my heart crumble to pieces.
The meaning is wonderful but the person who says that is none other than that CEO, the same voice I hear every time. Why does he keep telling something?
"Please open your eyes Dae-Hyun" I open my eyes to see that man in front of me eagerly waiting for me.
Did he tell me those words or did someone else tell it? Do we have any relation? Why does all this happen to me?
"It's good that you are okay, take a deep breath and relax," he said, I can hear but all I can get on my mind is the view of those children and the hand holding tightly to me.
I clearly remember the tattoo on his hand thought it is a bit complex, it looks very attractive. Wait, the symbol on his hand is similar to the way the trees are arranged in that place.
It made me think about how nature, children, me and him are related. We must be related somehow...