Something... My head is spinning so much. I cant see everything clearly. I close my eyes, then open them suddenly when someone called me "Baby, this is it, try it". I widen my eyes to see a young man dressed neatly, so neatly and handing me a cupcake mixed with something. I just open my mouth, it tastes so good, very tasty.
I raise my head to say it is very nice. That guy is smiling very heartfully even blushing, it feels like my heart strings are vibrated and played lovingly!
"So we are going to be parents now ^^" he exclaimed very happily. But I feel it is some bad news, because I feel disgusting rather than happy, why?
Then I see my view being blurred but only one person trying to run towards me, he couldn't make it, I feel like falling from somewhere which is so high from ground. To see the world from this high, I am scared, I am scared.
"I-I am s-scared sca-scared, scared" my eyes again blurry, I close my eyes scared to see the world from this high. I tightly hold something which is near me to never let go. "Its going to be alright, don't be scared" I heard this most familiar voice, always audible at most miserable times.
I open my eyes, Mr.Kang is hugging me, while I am totally in his arms like a child. Somehow it took a while to get that scary scene out of my head. Wait even that guy who is with me in those glimpses of memories is also Mr Kang.
Everywhere everything is filled with this guy's presence. So irritating, I push him "Leave me alone" I said. "No, you must be dizzy just take rest" he hugged very gently.
"Did that happen again, you are not feeling well again, not eating well?" he asked, I am so confused, I wanted to know the truth "Are we related? Do you know me before o-or perhaps in o-other..." what am I even asking, other life, ridiculous.
Kang Tae: What do you mean related? We a-are... I don't know what is our relation, m-maybe I am t-toy for you back then. Haha, toy, toy! Tears can't stop falling from my eyes, it's just painful to remember. How come it's the same, I expected that I may match your personality from back then, but shockingly we are the same.
"You seem to have some nightmares, did you see any love stories of lovers being parted, don't be ridiculous" I said forcing myself a smile to make the tension go.
No matter what, I shouldn't say anything about our relationship, I know you will take me in right away if I say all of it, but the pain you suffer remembering them breaks my heart. I have already did a big mistake back then, now I can't repeat it baby.
"N-not at all, I expected you to say some funny story as we are related and all shit, so I asked you" he replied.
I nod not to extend it. I gulp "Can you answer me now, will you be with me, not as a toy but" I am about to complete when some guy came towards us interrupting me.
"Hey, Where have you been? Are you okay? Come let's go home" he took Dae-Hyun's hand and about to leave. I stood instantly trying to stop them "Hey, wait, we did not complete yet"
He push me away "What the hell do you even want to say? There is nothing you have to say, get out of the way, his dad asked me to bring him back" he replied, I am angry as hell, I grip his collar.
"I said, we have things to deal with, just wait outside" I said suppressing my anger to beat him right away. He just tossed my hand saying " You have things to deal with? Then deal with his father not him, You come with me" he took Dae-Hyan away.
I can actually go, stop them and talk but... somewhere I felt it is not good to talk right away because I am not ready to face his answer. If he says OK, then I would be happy and take good care of him. How about if he says NO, how to convince him? How to make him believe I can be a good person for him?
So let's talk to him after I mentally prepare my mind. Of course, I might have done something wrong to him when I am not in control and HE takes over me, that bastard is such a scumbag he just does everything so mindlessly, such a freak!
Ah, again this starts, has it already been many days? Why appear just thinking about HIM? Ahh, this time it's horrible, even more bleeding... that's too much. I wipe away the blood from my nose.
I sat in the chair with throbbing pain in my head as if it is about to blast...
I can sense my eyes are feeling like they are burning in fire, I know whenever I think about my past mine, HE appears, he appears taking over me and letting me drive into the darkness.
.........................[ after half an hour ]
Ha, Such a disgusting outfit, doesn't HE get anything nicer? So disgusting. I rush near the shopping mall to change into my outfit.
Does he even know I will kill him if he appears in front of me?! This underwear! Shit head!! I change every cloth on me, I did even bathe to let his disgusting perfume get away from me. Now I feel secure.
How many days has he taken over me? Nearly two months I guess. Hmm, I go through my phone to encounter many new things that happened in the past few days.
Sister? Did he ignore her call? This guy seriously! I call her right away "Yuri, did you reach home? Sorry I missed your call" I said worried if there is some emergency. "Oppa! Did he leave? Why did you call in the middle of your date!" she scolded me.
Ha?! A Date?? With whom? "My date? Ah, he just l-left, I called you for saying goodnight, bye" I cut the call. Here she goes again arranging a date when she already knows I have someone in mind. Just leave it.
How is my cutie doing? He must be studying, hmm such an innocent puppy, "Hyunee(pronounced as Honey) you are always cute" I flush a little while thinking about him.
My phone rang interrupting my thoughts, it's my seceratery, he is a very talented person, he can handle any kind of situation very easily and also he is a beta so there is no problem for him to deal with anyone. Calling me at night... hmm tomorrow must be Wednesday.
Yes, it is indeed. "Hello sir, sorry for disturbing you but I called you to remind that tomorrow is Wednesday so I have prepared all the documents and placed in your room sir, thank you, have a good night sir" he said . I cut the call and then drove to my lonely house.
The house which can never be filled or at least felt a little warmth except...
I went straight to my room after freshening up, I got back to work about to open the laptop beside my bed.
Except this, I took out the bracelet that can always make me feel the warmth of being loved.
I kept staring at it while it's been hours. Then I remember about tomorrow's appointment and started looking into files.
There are many issues with the file from Glad Electronics, I sigh in silence, the market has fell in last few months! Ok, let's check the views of the Marketing staff.
Hey what the fuck is this! There is a drastic fall, i-its nearly 20 per cent!! Will I at least survive tomorrow... How many hours has it been, I kept analysing all the files, making the reviews. Solving the issues, my phone has ran out of battery, the bright sunlight fell on my keyboard and my eyes started aching a little.
I saw the time, it is almost 12pm, ha I sigh and go wash up. I stood in front of the broad mirror to analyse every cloth I put on myself, every inch of my coat to be perfect. I spray some cologne before I put on a recorder in my pocket.
When my secretary entered to take over the files I kept, everything was arranged. "Good Afternoon sir, I hope you have analysed all the files and...T-These are the files from Glad Electronics international record." he took out a bunch of files raising to place them with a bit of hesitation.
I can already tell he was shocked while going through those files, I guess even I will be shocked. It's not required for me to look into it, as being a MD for the branch in Korea, it is certainly unnecesatry.
But that devil ordered him, ordered to make me look into those too. Might as well pressure my secretary to work for those branches too. I will have to look into them not for that bastard but at least for my secretary. My secretary to actually let me know before ten minutes is so brave of him.
I can also just deny saying its not my responsibility...
I know of the consequences of both decisions, he being crushed or I take it instead of him. It's not a hard decision, I will take it instead of him because my employees believe in me, they depend on me so I must make sure they are well. I take the files, it took a while to get a grip on my foot, t-th-those bastards! They have no, not even a bit of responsibility.
They just took the company as a freelance, if its not for the meeting I could go to America and kill them right away, the designing, product analysing, marketing, even the customers are very ridiculous so that is the reason we got the loss nearly 50 per cent!
What is that man doing, being the President, he have to look into all of this!