After her rejection of Benjamin, Queen's feelings become chaotic. Guilt welled up in her chest to the point where it felt so tight. Queen repeatedly breathed to relieve her breathing. She even had time to drink mineral water to help calm her down, but it was so hard for her. The image of Benjamin Duncan's disappointed face leaving her room made Queen's heart feel like it was being stabbed with a knife. After all, Benjamin Duncan has full rights over her, body and soul. But remembering that the man's heart might still belong to another woman made Queenerra unable to give herself to her husband.
Adrianna sat in front of her makeup mirror and looked at her reflection in the mirror. Suddenly a whisper rang in her mind, "You are a slave. Born with various misfortunes. The only luck in you is because that man was kind, took pity on you, and raised you from slave to wife. You should be ashamed of yourself for being greedy and wants his heart, while he fills you with food and gives you proper clothing, as well as a place to live. The things a slave deserves from his master."
Queenerra's tears fell, as if she had just realized that she deserved no more than what Benjamin Duncan could give her.
After thinking about that for a few moments, Queenerra finally took a brush and brushed her hair, even though her tears running down. She shrunk her tears and covered her tear tracks with powder. She even wears lip gloss, blush, and eye makeup to hide her puffy eyes.
However, Queenerra had to correct her mistakes. With a heavy heart, she dragged her feet out of the room and walked towards Benjamin Duncan's room.
Her steps stopped in front of the door, while her chest heaved up and down with the nervousness and pain in her heart. Her hands were shaking when she knocked on the door three times and waited for an answer from inside the room.
It wasn't long before the bedroom door opened and it was Benjamin Duncan. The man stood with a deep gaze on her, but no one made a sound. Queenerra rushed in, leaving all her senses in front of Benjamin Duncan's bedroom door. With a blank mind, she entered her husband's room.
Benjamin's jaw tightened as he watched Queenerra step into his room. Benjamin closed the door again and locked it from the inside. Each turn of the key left a stomping sound that made Queenerra seem to flinch twice. But she tried to keep her mind blank.
"What do you want?" Benjamin asked as soon as Queenerra stopped in her tracks and chose to sit on the edge of Benjamin Duncan's bed. Her face was downcast not daring to look at Benjamin Duncan who stood towering in front of her.
"I want to apologize for my impudence," Queenera answered quietly.
Benjamin sighed deeply, "You know it's presumptuous, but why did you do it?" asked Benjamin.
Queenerra lowered her head, she had no answer to Benjamin's question for her. "My Apologize," Those short sentences were all she could say.
"So what do you want now?" Benjamin asked in his deep voice.
"I surrender myself to you. You deserve me." She said quietly.
Benjamin grabbed Queenerra's chin with the tip of his index finger and forced Queenerra to look back at him. "Look at me," said Benjamin Duncan. With great compulsion, Queenerra looked into Benjamin's sharp and deep eyes, as if they were endless and difficult to trace.
"Say it firmly if you want it." Benjamin Duncan whispered. Instantly Queenerra's throat felt dry. She wanted to say she wanted the touch of a husband who loved her, but obviously, she couldn't have expected that from Benjamin Duncan who married her out of compassion instead of love.
"Do what you want," Queenera answered quietly.
Benjamin Duncan's jaw tightened, "It's not about me, it's about you." Benjamin insisted. "I asked you, what do you want from me?" Benjamin stared at Queenerra's eyes deeply.
"You . . ." Queenerra drooped her face after answered.
Benjamin took a seat next to Queenera. They don't touch each other. Queenerra held her hand with the other, a sign of anxiety. Meanwhile Benjamin folded his arms across his chest.
"If you expect love from me. Maybe you'll never get it." said Benjamin. That sentence instantly made Queenerra's heart, which had previously been cracked, now shattered into nothingness.
"I have and still love other woman," said Benjamin Duncan frankly. There was no point in hiding the facts from Queenerra and letting her hope too much about something that Benjamin himself wasn't so sure about.
"I do not know what to do." Queenerra finally spoke up after a brief silence. "A few moments ago when I rejected you, my chest felt so tight it made it hard for me to breathe." Queenerra still didn't dare look at Benjamin Duncan.
"I regret turning you down." She said in a trembling voice, "But honestly, hearing you said that you still and will always love another woman also makes me unable to breathe. My feeling confused me so much, " She concluded.
The two were silent for a while, "Please tell me what should I do?" Queenerra dared to look at Benjamin.
"Should I regret my rash act by entering your room? Maybe I should get out of yours now," Queenerra asked with teary eyes.
"Don't" Benjamin Duncan answered biefly while grabbed Queenerra's face and kissed her lips gently.
"Just stay." He added before kissed Queenerra once again, while that girl closed her eyes.
Benjamin's kiss deepened and his hand grabbed Queenerra's waist and pulled her closer, making Queenerra's spine arch while her chest pressed against Benjamin's chest. At the same time Benjamin's lips pressed against Queen's lips tighter and deeper. Benjamin's breath hitched as more adrenaline gushed through his bloodstream.
Meanwhile, Queenerra let her mind remained empty of any demands and expectations. She left no room for complicated thoughts, all she did was try to enjoy how Benjamin Duncan treated her. After all, Benjamin Duncan would be the first man to fuck her. An experience that Queenerra had never imagined before.