April 2019 doctors told me i probably have cancer. i was in Chandigarh when i was diagnosed following my FNAC report. i was shocked, i was terrified , i was confused , i felt hopeless. if you told me than that in one year I'd be dancing my way through survivorship with a smile on my face I wouldn't have believed it. i am so proud of the woman i have become in the last year i am better because of this experience.
sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine just breathe, and have faith that everything will workout for the best. once you choose hope anything is possible.
well, its been an incredibly emotional ride after a long 12 months that shook my world. i finally made it . i could go on about how much i hate 2019 for making me an anxious mess , but instead i am grateful for every challenge that only made me stronger i proved that i am braver than i give myself credit for. i made it. 2019 has changed my life completely i see things completely different. i am so much more thankful and dont take anything for granted. i am just so happy can't believe how much i have come along from the awful experience of treatment. (which changes you inside and out ) i was feeling everything physically, emotionally and spiritually. i had never felt so down and this much in my entire life. i was just letting it all happen and trusting the process and trying my best to always look at the positive side but ofcourse grieving and feeling sad when necessary, there were days where i wanted to give up.
As a 21 year old stage 2 cancer survivor. i can attest to the fact that a cancer diagnosis is life altering. i went through rounds of intensive chemotherapy. chemo made me loose my hair, it made me extremely fatigued and it sucked the life out of me. it was the hardest thing i have ever gone through. however, i am honestly grateful to the experience. call me crazy but most positive things have come out of my cancer experience than negative things. cancer has taught me an abundance of lessons that i will carry with me for the rest of the life. i have a greater appreciating for life. i am so happy to be alive and i will never take another day for granted. so if there is anyone currently fighting cancer i want to remind them that there is light at the end of the tunnel. " difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations"
i think that when enough time has passed when you have survived which you dont imagine you could, there is a dignity in that. The pain made you stronger, the pain made you fight to succeed. someday, when i am living my dreams, i am going to think of all the things that broke my heart and i am going to be thankful for them, all the pain i have known has shaped me into the person i am today and for that i am thankful.
cancer is a life changing experience for me, it teaches me to live one day at a time, to live a life with much more courage and strength. To all my family, and friends it has been positively overwhelming to see the love and support that have shown to me. 6 chemo Cycles and 25 days of radiation was a long journey but I've got this. it knocked my confidence so much but slowly I've been able to rebuild myself.
" remember how far you've come not just how far you have to go, you may not be where you want to be, neither are you where you used to be".
i left my studies and many more things to travel around for about a year. i temporary left college to go on a different kind of adventure, strange enough i was officially diagnosed with stage 2 cancer. My cancer treatment includes chemotherapy and radiation .Chemo side effects had been tough for me, i had a hard time. During chemo sessions i felt those chemo drugs racing in my nerves head to toe, body exhausted, hair loss( i felt so down here) numbness and tingling sensation, facial breakout, nauseous, mouth taste like metal ( not enjoying food) it was easy to get beaten down and feel sad about everything . Love, care and support of the people around me was the source of strength. I was feeling everything physically, emotionally and spiritually. Its hard to love a body that was covered in cancer. when i was diagnosed i was angry at my body for allowing cancer to grow and spread. Throughout my treatment i started to speak kindly to myself, and i grew to understand that my body saved my life. My body warmed me when something was off, my body handled intense chemotherapy and radiations. My body helped fight off the cancer. And now, my body is reganing its strength.
i now, spending my days evaluating what really matters in life. Why i do things, i do, why i say things i say, how i can make a difference and thus continue to shape me into the new me i was meant to be. Not a day goes by that i am not grateful for my experience. Through my diagnosis i have discovered peace within myself as well as my faith.