Do you think life is easy? You think committing suicide will end all your problems? That's just creating more and more problems. You decided to commit suicide, did you even think about what would happen next? What about your family? Friends? Your significant other? I don't think suicide is an answer. This is my personal experience. My name is Chris Ledge and I'm 19 years. Yes 19 and I'm gonna be sharing my experience with you. At the age of 12 I was depressed, yeah depressed. Nothing was wrong with my family. My family were loving and kind. Why I was depressed was stupid. I only thought about the future. What if I'm not good enough? Will I be able to make my parents proud? Those questions floated around my head which made me do a lot of fucking shit. My first attempt in trying to kill myself was right after I wrote an exam. I was so fucking scared because the exam was harder than expected and if I had failed I would have to repeat a class. I didn't want that so I tried to slit my own throat but I was afraid. I didn't have the guts to go through with it. "I can't even fucking kill myself," is what went through my head. I didn't know what to do. I was so lost. I didn't want to tell anyone because my family is amazing and I didn't want to worry them. I started to cry and I remembered that I cried for the entire night. "Am I really worth it? Won't it be better if I was not here?" questions after questions kept popping into my head and the more I think the worst everything gets. I just wanted to leave everything. Couple days after I tried to convince myself that I was worth living but my pep talk only lasted for a year.