"Satou, is there something wrong?" Miu said sounding worried
"It's complicated, I will explain it later but I really have to go!" I said hurriedly while putting my shoes on
"Can you tell me where you're going?"
"The hospital. I'm going now, sorry about this." I said rushing out of the house.
I felt so many different emotions my heart was racing it felt like I was running the fastest I had ever ran in my life. The hospital was actually pretty close to my house, which was actually one of the reasons I moved to this apartment. It took about ten minutes to get there. Once I got there I ran up to the staff and just randomly blurted out "Where's Eve!"
"Umm, excuse me sir could you keep your voice down?"
"I'm sorry but please tell me where Eve is."
"Are you referring to Eve Kato, if so she is in room 421, however, I'm not sure if you will be allowed in. She just entered critical condition and only her direct family is allowed to enter."
"My name is Satou Ichiro."
"Oh you are on the list here, Okay I will take you right away."
My heart pounded as I walked towards the room, not only because I was worried, also because I hadn't seen her since the accident. Some part of me said just run and leave, don't enter the room. I went against it however and did enter. When I first saw her, I simply stared at her. I didn't know what else to do.
Suddenly her parents came into the room, they looked like they had been shot. I could already tell what they were going to say. Her father put his hand on my shoulder, stared into my eyes, and shook his head. "They say there is nothing more they can do."
I looked towards the ground, and started crying. I didn't know what to do or what to say, I was utterly useless. I truly hated myself at that moment. I walked up to Eve and just sat there staring. I wanted to say so many things but nothing would come out, and even if it did she wouldn't have heard it.
For some reason it felt as if I had seen her hundreds of times in the past years, even though I hadn't seen her even once. I listened to the soft beeps the machine made, I sat there listening for a while, until eventually they became more and more spread out, and then it stopped, and I was still staring at her, unaware of everything else happening. Eve died that day, there was no happy ending, she simply died.
She had a service held for her, I attended it. They would normally talk about how great the person's life was and what they did in their lifetime. They were unable to do that for Eve since she had spent the greater half of her life in a coma. It was all my fault, I couldn't have just paid more attention to her, I didn't even try to save her, all because I feared losing my own life. I would have rather had Eve live her life, it would have been filled with so much fun, she would have forgotten me in time.
If only I had been hit that day, then I would be the one who had died and Eve would still be alive. I am my own arch nemesis, I hate my guts, I want to die, however at the same time I want to somehow live in the process. I am the one person I will never be able to defeat, for I am myself, and you can't defeat yourself.