Yoongi looked at the clock and it read '2:15'. He was pacing around in the living room waiting for Hoseok. Even though Hoseok clearly warned not to, Yoongi couldn't just ignore it and sleep. His heart couldn't just stop racing fast.
Why do I feel like somethings bad gonna happen....
I hope Hoseok's safe.....
*Ring, Ring*
Yoongi ran towards the door hearing the doorbell. He took a deep breath and opened the door revealing 4 people. Three their co-mated Seungcheol, Hoshi and Woozi and one his member Hoseok. Woozi and Hoshi were holding a drunk Hoseok by his shoulders. He glanced at Seungcheol his eyes a little wide he was surprised. As if Seungcheol read Yoongi's mind "He was passed out on the bar counter and we happen to be in the same bar so we decided to drop him home" He answered.
Yoongi didn't know what to say so he just nodded feeling awkward. This was the first time he was talking to them. "Please let us inside. He's so heavy!!" Hoshi murmured breathing heavily. "I'm so sorry please come inside" Yoongi Apologized for his dumbness and let the guys inside.
"Uhm guys lay him down in my room. His room is upstairs it will be hard for you to carry him there. We already caused so much trouble to you I don't wanna cause more." Yoongi said bowing a little feeling bad for the trouble Hoseok caused.
Hoshi and Woozi just nodded at Yoongi's sentence. Yoongi showed them his room and helped them lay Hoseok down on the bed. Hoshi wanted to throw Hoseok but didn't because Yoongi was here. Woozi was trying to calm his angry tiger down by rubbing his back.
"He's heavy as fuck. What does this asshole exactly eats? I nearly broke my bones" Hoshi muttered under his breath cursing at Hoseok for causing him trouble. Woozi who heard him chuckled knowing he was overreacting for such a simple matter. After all they were helping their friend.
Yoongi smiled at the trio and bowed thanking them earning the same back. They walked out of the room Yoongi closing the door behind them. "By the way Seungcheol which club he was in!?" Yoongi suddenly asked he was curious maybe. Seungcheol looked up from his phone "Uhmm he was in–"
"Can i get a glass of Water Yoongi sunbaenim!?" Woozi interrupted and Yoongi nodded walking to the kitchen and getting a bottle of water. Woozi furrowed his brows and shook his head motioning Seungcheol to just shut up and he understood Woozi and went back to looking at his phone. "Here, and just call me Hyung" Yoongi said handing him the bottle.
"We will get going now. Thanks for the water!!" Woozi said looking at his members.
"Atleast have some coffee guys" Yoongi suggested but Seungcheol refused shaking his head. "Thanks for the offer but it's already late and we've practice in the early morning."
Yoongi nodded not forcing them but it would be nice if they had some and he would thankful like that. "Thank you so much guys for dropping Hoseok home. I will buy you guys a meal whenever you're free" Yoongi sincerely said bowing he was glad Hoseok is safe.
"Aah It's nothing and as a co-mate we should be help each other" Woozi replied with a smile. Hoshi was fondly smiling at his boyfriend feeling butterflies in his stomach.
I'm gonna make a mess of him tonight.
"Byee Hyung and Good night!!" Hoshi wished waving & smiling. Yoongi smiled back too waving his hands.
Closing the doors behind Yoongi's smile dropped instantly and the reason was Hoseok. He really makes him worried and these days Hoseok's been drinking way lot. Everyday he comes home drunk and next day he would loose his focus and mess up everything. Getting annoyed by little things and lashing out on the members and the manager.
Yoongi walked to his room and stared at the guy he loves who was sleeping soundly. All the worries got away when he laid his eyes on Hoseok. A sudden warm feeling erupting his heart. Yoongi couldn't help but admire Hoseok, his beautiful features which never fails to amaze Yoongi.
Look at him sleeping without any care in the world after making me sick worried!!
I'm crazy for him and that annoys me.
Sighing Yoongi walked over to the edge of the bed bending down on his knees. He pursed his lips removing Hoseok shoes and shocks. He stood up and sat on the bed beside Hoseok staring at him. For some reason Yoongi wanted to stare at the younger for a little longer. He never got to admire Hoseok from this close.
Yoongi smiled and moved the hairs from Hoseok's eyes. His gaze then fell on Hoseok's plump heart shaped lips gulping down his own Saliva Yoongi craved to kiss those plump lips of his and wondered how it would feel they would definitely be soft and be the best kiss for him.
It wouldn't cost anything to just peck him or would it!?
Without a thought Yoongi leaned closer to Hoseok he could feel Hoseok's soft breaths. Opening his eyes his gaze fell on the younger's lips once again. He could hear his own heart beating rapidly. Yoongi pulled up biting his own lips and going against his urge he exhaled.
You must have gone crazy for thinking like this.....
Get a grip on yourself Yoongi!!!
Ohh!! How he wished to kiss and feel his soft lips but Yoongi knows kissing Hoseok without his consent is wrong and Yoongi would never do something like that. He will wait for that day to arrive where they will kiss each other.
It will only happen when you will confess you dipshit!!
Yoongi's inner voice mocked him and it wasn't wrong though. He was scared to confess because what if their friendship will get ruin because of his dumb feelings and that's the last thing Yoongi never wanted it to happen. He would rather love him from far then ruin their precious friendship. He sadly chuckled at his pathetic self.
Standing up Yoongi walked to the other side of the bed and laid down his back facing Hoseok. A tear escaped his eyes wiping it, Yoongi tried consoling himself by mumbling 'it's okayy'. He cried silently not wanting to wake Hoseok up. He thought out of all why Love!? The thing he never wanted to experience yet here he was experiencing the unrequited Love the worse out of all others.
He must be out of mind falling for someone of same sex. Yoongi always doubted his sexuality but cared the least because it didn't matter if he likes men or women. For him Love is Love like age the gender doesn't. He labeled his sexuality as Gay when he first saw the Gorgeous guy who is sleeping beside him and that was years ago. From then Yoongi has been keeping his feelings to himself without letting anyone have any ounce of it but these days it's getting hard to keep it to himself.
Because what's worse than knowing you want something, besides knowing you can never have it?
He needed someone who he can talk about Hoseok and how he feels about him but that looked like a risk. He turned his head and stared at Hoseok. If Hoseok's with me I don't care about anything. For Yoongi what will people think comes in the 'I don't give a fuck list.'
He's so close yet he's so far, so far that for years I'm trying to reach him.
But atleast I'm glad I can be near him.
A tear rolled down Yoongi's eyes thinking of it. Smiling sadly he slowly drifted to sleep.
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"So tell me how do you make yourself not love someone!?"
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"Problems can be fixed. But unrequited love is a tragedy."
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