Piper's POV
I woke up the next morning with my arm wrap around Alex's waist, she has her back facing me and I can hear her little snore. I missed her so much so I move closer and hugged her a little tighter. I kiss her shoulder and I lay on the bed for a little while holding my wife.
I watched as a play of lights streamed through the glass window. On the bedstand beside Alex is a photograph from our wedding. I studied it and we both look so happy, for a moment I felt a surge of emotions overwhelmed me. I close my eyes and bury my face on Alex's neck inhaling her scent and strangely, I still find it very comforting.
After a few moment she stirred under me so I carefully unwrap my arm around her and got out of bed slowly so I won't wake her up. I head to the kitchen to make myself a cup of coffee as I am waiting for Alex to wake up.
I never thought I'd see this day coming. The day where everything changes between me and Alex. I don't know how to act, or what to say. Because in all honesty, I never thought that this would ever happen. I could never picture our spectacular love ever breaking down into pieces. Because in the beginning it's all butterflies and pixie dust. And man, it was so damn beautiful.
I tiptoed back into our bedroom and lean on the door post to check on Alex, she was still asleep and she's now curled up in a ball hugging the duvet closer to her. She look so fragile and vulnerable. Her mouth is slightly open and I could hear her breath moving slowly in and out between her lips. She also look tired, like she hasn't gotten enough sleep this past days.
My heart aches that my wife is hurting. While looking at her face I can't help but reflect how Alex, would become a great mother.
I have always been afraid that I'm not good enough and what if I fuck my child's head up? What if I fail to teach my children all the things they need to know. I'm afraid I might do the wrong thing in a fit of rage, or say the wrong words out of annoyance? I'm afraid of putting my child in danger.
Then there's other part of me that wonders, what if all my fears and worries are no more than my mind playing tricks with me?
What if motherhood is the most beautiful and rewarding experience that I'll ever have?
What if being a mother changes me, and every inch of my life for the better?
What if being a mom was exactly what I came here to be?
I have all these uncertainty in my mind, but one thing I'm certain of, is that Alex will become a great mother and the thought of having a kid in our life made me smile.
After I finished my coffee I proceeded back to the kitchen and decided to make breakfast. Since Nicky was also here I made a bunch of food. I made toast, eggs, bacon and sausages. I'm not a good cook and I might've burned some of the bacon. But hey, it's the thought that counts anyway.
After cooking I made myself another cup of coffee and I was leaning on the counter when I saw Alex's arm move and she rest her hand on her forehead and groaned.
I grab my coffee and walk towards her. It must be the hangover.
"Hi". I greeted her
"Hey, Pipes". She said and sit up and lean back on the head board.
"Ugh Shit!" She groaned "My head is pounding".
"Coffee?". I offered my drink to her.
She squint at me and reach for the coffee and take a sip.
"This is nice. Thank you". She said and closed her eyes. "What time is it?".
"Half past nine".
I sat beside her and she lay her head on my shoulder. I patted her leg and kissed her head.
"We need to talk". I said
"I know".
"Alex, you have no idea how happy I am that you're talking to me again".
Alex, sits properly and shifts her body so she's facing me.
"I know that I acted badly... very, very badly and I am so sorry for acting like an ass... will you forgive me?". Alex, said.
"I forgive you". I replied and kiss her lightly on the lips. "And don't you ever walk out again. This is our marriage. You don't get to just walk out". I reminded her.
"I'm sorry, I was trying to figure shit out, that's why I left. I learn from myself that when I can get some distance, separate myself from the problem that I can think more clearly". She explained.
"Piper, I want you to know that whatever the fight, I will always come back". She close her eyes again and took a deep breath.
"I'm really, really sorry, Piper. A lot of things happened to us in the past... terrible things but you know what I realized?... I realized that I don't want anything else in my life... I don't want to have kids if it means having to compromise our marriage... Piper, All I want is you. Next to me. That's all I want".
"No, babe... We will have kids...
I always thought that I wasn't fit enough to be a mom, but Alex, I know you will be a good mom and an amazing mom. With you I know I'll be a great mother too. Alex, I love you and I'm ready to consider making some changes".
I watch how her face lit up when realization hit her with what I said.
"Really? I mean... are you sure?". She asked.
"Yes, I am sure" I replied. "Positive"
She put the cup of coffee on the side table and she squealed in delight and hugged me very tightly.
After a while she pulled away from me and hold me in arms length and stare into my eyes.
"Oh my goodness Piper, you made me so happy! I know you will be a good mom too. We're going to be an awesome parents, and cool moms".
"I'm sure we are, we're going to be the coolest moms". I chimed in.
"And I'll be the coolest Aunt!". Nicky blurted.
Me and Alex both look at the door, Nicky still wearing her pajamas and she's beaming at us.
"Awww, come here!". I told her and motion her with my hand to come and snuggle with us.
She excitedly jump on the bed between me and Alex and we hugged her.
We all giggled and I rain down kisses on Nicky's face.
"Ewww! Piper, stop!". She yelled.
She tried pushing my face away and Alex, laughed so heartily. The kind of laughter that I rarely hear from her and my heart swelled with so much love for my wife.
Nicky squirm from my grasp and crawl quickly out of bed.
"Too much kisses". She complained and wipe her face with the sleeve of her sweat shirt.
"Alright, let's eat I made breakfast". I announced.
"Really?". Both Alex and Nicky said in surprise.
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We had a nice morning and we had a fun talk about the prospect of having a baby. Nicky and Alex are both so excited. They were talking about going camping with the baby and I watch Alex talking animatedly. She look very happy and excited.
"So who's going to carry your baby?". Nicky asked.
"Oh.... we haven't talked about that yet". Alex answered her eyebrows scrunching together. An obvious apprehension on her face. I know she doesn't want to say anything that will scare me off or offend me.
"Maybe surrogacy?... If... If it's okay with you?". Alex said anxiously looking at me.
"Or I'll do it, if you're not comfortable with the idea of another person carrying our baby". She continue. I feel guilty for making her feel this way.
"No, I'll carry it". I announced.
Her eyes bulge and she blinked rapidly trying to decipher what I said.
"What? No, you don't have to do that. Piper, I am very much grateful that you're finally agreeing to this, but I don't want you to feel like you're compelled to do this. I would never ask you to do something very life changing for me".
"I want to do this, Al". I said and reach for her hand and squeeze it.
"You don't have to do this... really if you're not sure. I will do it". She argued.
"Nah, I'll grow the baby and you get to keep your sexy body for me". I said and bit my lower lip. It's been more than a week since I had sex with Alex and my mind is running wild right now.
Nicky cleared her throat and I totally forget about her.
"Hello! I'm still here guys". She yelled and roll her eyes. "You look like you want to jump on Alex, already. If you want to fuck her, atleast not here while I'm still eating. And this bacon is burnt".
"It's not that bad". Alex mumbled and take a bite of her toast. Which I also happen to burn.
"Thanks babe, I'm glad you have a good attitude. Maybe you could teach Nicky". I said playfully and Nicky just roll her eyes at me.
Alex's POV
I didn't think I would get this excited and anxious at the same time about the prospect of having a baby. I know it will never be easy raising a child but I am sure that me and Piper will do great together.
I'm glad Piper finally agreed and she even want to carry it. I mean, I was surprised. I would never asked her to do something this important and life changing if she's not comfortable but she seem genuinely eager to do this.
I'm still a little bit hesitant for Piper though, I hope this is not one of her many impulsive decisions.