Although I knew what I saw could've been a misunderstanding I blamed Hiaro and the fact that I held very distinct lines between hate and love. I could not stand the thought of being cheated on and so I stayed away from home for a week then it turned into a month. I finally decided to pick up my pieces and return to my shared home with Hiaro in hopes of collecting my things.
When I finally return I realize the house looks the same as the day I left and inside everything is left untouched and I see a note scribbled on the back of a recipe card, it's already covered in a thin layer of dust but it's definitely for me. It reads, "My Love, Atlize I don't know what you saw but it isn't what you think. I know you will go somewhere I can find you so I'm going to find you, unless something happens to me and this shall be your last and only proof that I love you more than my life," signed as 'Your Kieran forever'. I drop the note as I realise not finding him and him not finding me can be due to a number of severe conditions such as an accident taking Kieran from his path and leaving him lost and disoriented and possibly hurt.
I panic and I feel as though something is truly wrong. I feel guilty until the woman Lonna comes in with Kieran just as I've finished reading the note. I never picked it up and I quickly hide. I watch as they go upstairs and Kieran changes into his fancy clothes meant for high business diners. I don't know how long I stayed there but they came and left as quickly as the wind. I realized the note might've just been something for me to find sooner not this late.
I steel myself and decide if he never wanted to leave his first love for me he never should've asked me for my hand. I collect some of my most prized possessions and take away all of the pictures of me in the house and replace them with a generic picture frame holding place pictures. I then slip into the night determined to fix my own wounds with time and distance.
Having settled into a new state of mind I decide to reside in a town on the mountains and I live peacefully on my own for about two months until a strange sickness takes me into the city to see a doctor. I sit and wait as a doctor runs over my test results and hands me his conclusion and a prescription.
"Pregnant. That's what you got," The doctor says like it's great news. "I've prescribed you some prenatals and something to help with the vomiting," The doctor finishes handing me papers. "I know a doctor up on your mountain she's young but bright and gifted, she can take care of you up there," The doctor adds a card to pile of papers. I look at my stomach and think of the child inside.
I decide I'll be responsible for the innocent life. After all this innocent life is my child, I decide to keep going on my own and raise them to be happy and carefree for as long as possible. With that I get my first set of prenatals and then take them determined to be a good mother. I drive back up the mountain and begin to make baby safe measures.