"Don't leave!" I cry as a sharp pain brings me back awake melting my sweet half memory half dream away from me. The sharp pain continues but I'm still trapped and alone. Involuntary screams and grunts escape me even though I bare my teeth gnashing them together to try to get a grip.
I finally pass out falling into a dreamless state. When I wake up again I'm in a clinic bed and Anise dries her tears as she realizes I've awoken. She pats my shoulder and drags my hair behind my ear in a caring manner.
"It's a miracle we found you. But before you try anything it's time for your little miracle to meet the world," she says and I realize my pain is numbed but still very persistent. "You're going to do great," Anise says as she verifies the prep work for my delivery is done and I go into a lengthy nerve wracking delivery.
In the end I have a son, a broken heart, and many regrets. I regret being the only parent around for my son who I can't decide to name only knowing that I'll name him after his deceased father and my first love. His last name is De Janko and his first name will be decided.
After many debates with myself I decide Haru as his middle name and his first name will be Mieno. My baby boy looks like a bean with light hair so light it looks blonde in his first hours of life and then his hair begins to turn bronze like his father's.
After living in the mountain town for almost seven years I finally leave the mountain with my six year old son in tow. I decide to move back to the town where I spent my time with the man who had finally captured and held my heart. In the town of my first love many people still hadn't found out about me and my secret first love. Even though Hiero had begun looking for me his efforts where still not revealing of our secret.
Despite trying to avoid going to Levitt's Logistical company I needed a specialty product only sold by Levitt's and ended up at the place where it all began from my first glimpse to the glances I couldn't help and then his fair and even personality giving way to me letting me see his sweet side. Inside I kept my eyes on my young son who was too curious to be restrained in a shopping cart.
In the end I settled with my youngin by a fair compromise of him holding onto my hand allowing him to walk around and see things at his level while me being able to keep him close. I find what I need and end up needing both of my hands to secure the product I need. In the span of seconds I've let Mieno's hand go my curious bronze haired and golden eyed child has taken off.
I lose myself, I'm a woman of above average height, pale warm fair skin, and brown honey eyes. I stand looking like a deer caught in headlights. My red and blonde hair moves like a wave as I snap my head around to realise something. My face falls and I begin to look around worriedly for my missing son.
I treasure and spoil my son and it's moments like this that I have to think of myself as a bad mother. I hear a small peal of Min's laughing and I abandon my current mission and rush to find my young treasure before some tries to kidnap him.
I see him enter the area of customer service and I'm only two steps behind him and I call him out. "Mieno Hiro De Janko! Stop right there," I say firmly and come around the corner. When I turn the corner my breath catches and then my world stops.