lol!! There is this guy at my school name Dave, the first time he seems me , he just keep stirring at me 😳😳I don't even look his way for am not interested it was also lunch time, the school bell rang it's time for class. I went to my class waiting for the teacher to start, after my teacher have started teaching she gave us home work! To do when we go home, here!! goes the school bell rang again it's time to go home, school was finished for the day so our lesson was finish, we pack up our books then we says our pray an the teacher dismiss us, there was this girl come to my class after we get dismiss saying she is Dave sister and gave me a piece of paper and said Dave says to read it, so I open the note an it reads; meet me on the playground at five o'clock after finish reading the note, I throw away the paper but it was five o'clock already. I went to meet him on the playground by time am to Sept through the door is Dave that I saw coming into my class room, I was shocked he walks up to me unexpectedly and kisses me suddenly, I felt lifted up from of the ground, as strong currents run through my body, cool bumps was all over my skin he pull's my the tongue very hard with his tongue 👅🥰😘😘 it feels like my tongue 👅 was glue to a tree or a piece of board I try so hard to push him from me, he holds me very tight with his arms I even try to hit him with my hands but he holds my hands and when he's finally finished kissing me with out no apology!! an no words he just left. I was lost😶😱I can't believe 😞that just happen to me!!!! I just didn't know what to say are what to do!!. I just finish take up my books📕an my bags 🎒and went home. when I went home everything just come back to me, I couldn't sleep I even had wet-dreams about this him 😱I can't believe that really happens to me!!😱, I couldn't mention it to anyone but keep it to myself!!! I just have to keep it to myself😔🥺😟😞I can't close my eyes when, I close my eyes flash backs of what😘 keep coming up before me I cry😭😭😭😭😭😭 because my vow about man is broken that only makes me 😡😈👿 more 👿mad. The next day when I went to school I saw him and Damion talking beside the lunch area, I hold my head!! Straight and go to my class, I knew that he saw me because I felt it!!!! To be frank with you, I was having feelings for him from the day he kisses me unexpectedly, i fights the feelings that I develop overnight for him because of the vow that I made against man after what had happen to me from before but I didn't tell anyone about it, I just live with it even until this day!! cause I knew, if I had tell anyone what have happen to me they would condemned me especially the house mother's!! It was break time, I went to use the restroom while I was using the restroom Damion comes into the restroom! While I was in lucky I spot him this time before he see's me, he walks right up before me and said!! "am sorry about the other day and I knew we get off on the wrong", he was so nicely to me that morning!, he even said to me can I tell you something?? "I said yes" what's it's about?? "Then he said promise me that you'll will keep this between and you won't tell anyone!! "So I said yes I won't tell anyone!! What's this all about?? then he said you sure you won't tell no one!! I say yes sure won't tell no one!!!! He said okay" unexpectedly he kissed me!!😲😳😱😭😭 I never expected it. I was a "shock" to me😱😱😱😱 but he doesn't do it so hard like how Dave do it!! Dave was Swizzing me hard with his hands and holding down my hands from resisting him!! His kiss 😘 was soft🤫 it's like "magicnet"🧲 his lips were soft like butter, I never been kissed😘like this before in my whole entire life not even, until this day!! I never wanted to show him back how I feel about him!! so I left the restroom. O 😱😱😱😱😱my head!! What is this happening to me 😱😱 what have I get myself into now is this an curse for me!!!!¡!!¡¡¡!!!!!!🥺🥺🥺🥶🥶🥶🥶😱😱🤯🤯😱 two guys, two best friends just suddenly love me without I even said anything to them!!"O my this is crazy!!😱😱😵😵😵😖😖 I must stop this madness, I hate man!! I hate!! saying to myself going towards my class room. So I went to my class the teacher was not there I just take up my bag and left!! just like that, you just imagine that? When I reach home I throw down my on the bed, went in the bathroom, turn on the pipe and wash my face to cool down my head from today's event. I look into the mirror and ask myself the question?? What it's with you and boy's, why they always approaching you like this?? That what I asked myself, then I take a bath and went for my dinner. For my dinner, I ate macaroni and cheese, with bake chicken and mash potatoes, while at the dinner table, I have realized, that I couldn't ate my dinner, the house mother come over to and ask me what's wrong, why are you not eating your food? I told her that am not hurry!! So she I must cover it up and go back to my dorm. In the dorms we have devotion but even right through the devotion, I was thinking about what happens, when the devotion was over I felt lost 😶 cause I didn't knew when the devotion was finish, I never realized that it was over an it's bedtime 🛌. I go to my bed but couldn't sleep I turn and turn! I just couldn't sleep this guy is on my mind whole night, I screem, literally screem out to sleep!! anyhow I ended up getting some sleep that night!!.