As I go back to school on Monday, I have noticed that some weird things started happening to me, I thought that I get over Dave and Damion for good now because they did not bother me, even though I had not put an end to this drama that is going on surrounded me and them 🤦, I never knew that another drama would raise, O Lord 🙁!! What's is this happening to me now! I thought that I had surpassed all of that troubles, here comes a bigger bubble then the one that I just blew!! I never knew that this guy, from my church liked me off😲I thought that it was at school only will I face these kind of dramas!! Here comes this guy from my church that see's me and like me off, all thou he never come's to my school but he see's me at church one Sunday night when we were having Sunday night service, honestly I can say he is really handsome, he looks very lovely, the color of his skin is brown, his eyes are very pretty, it turns me ON!!. His eyes are 🤔like hashes Gray mixed with brown, his lips MMM 😌my!!WoW!! They look Kissable 😘! just the way the way how this guy looks it 😳😳😍😍🤩 really turns me ON!! No joke about that, to be true to you the way how this guy looks I don't even remember that I said, I don't want anything to do with a (MAN). This guy really sweep's me off my feet's. After the church service was over he talks to me, "he ask me my name and I told him my name" "I asked him, his name and he said am Tristan" Then he was looking at me with a smile 🙂 and I was smiling right back at him 😊 then I suddenly heard one of the girls that comes with me to church from the girls home, start calling my name and said "Stacy were are you but I was around the back of the church near to the bathroom talking to him with him by time am to say goodnight 😴 to him, same time I heard she comes around and says that the bus is ready and I must come now!! I really likes the way how he looks at me that night 😁he really makes my night!!! am in love with him 💖 let's get married (LOL) it's just a joke for me 😜😝🤪🤣🤣😁😁 cause it's not really real am not even interested in him just, his looks. When I went to school I saw Dave from behind whatching me, while I was going to my class, with this look in his eyes like he's trying to tell me something, when it was break time I spotted him going into the girl's restroom, one of the girl's was coming out of the restroom but I didn't uses the girl's restroom, I used the boys restroom that day to avoid facing him because of what had happen to me before with Damion, even though all of that kissing took place. Yet still I was not interest in any of them because of my vows I made in the beginning but instead I bumped into Damion, O😱Lord have Mercy's am hiding from one devil 👿 and bumped into another devil😈!!!😶😶😶😶😶😶😶 what is this on me now🙉. How am I going to deal with this?? think!!! A said to myself, I get so nervous now 😰😓is this really happening to me again?? I keep on saying to myself 😰😰😰😰😰😰😰 when he sees me, "he asks me are you afraid of me" with a smile 😊 I said to him boldly NO AM NOT AFRAID!! Of you, then he walked over to me and pushes me against the bathroom wall 🧱 and ask me to look him in the eyes and tell me, tell me that you don't have feelings for me, cause am having it for you", he said?! ""Then he whispered in my ears softly saying are you feeling me! my mouth was close😶, he kept on repeating it in my ears!! Then he started kissing me all over my body, same time I felt is Boy's boys scouts (penis), it started to act up on me, I couldn't move because he's actually pressing down on me tightly firm, right away my body gets freezed up I could not feels my hands My body get weak, tears 😭 started to come to my eyes, I started crying and saying in my mind, am I an prisoner of force-will or, an killer of connection, are maybe I have been arrested by obsession, with love telling me that I'll bail you out of the prison, of caressing with emotion being my judge,which one? Why these things keep on happening to me over and over again, I have been saying in my mind; then he suddenly started to kiss me on my lips, he started to pull my tongue 👅 even harder than how Dave pulled it, same time tears come to my eyes, I was crying😭 I never knew that Damion had that side to him!! I just couldn't believe my eyes, all part's of my body started to vibrates with strong currents, I left weak on my feets. I never knew that such an kisses 😘😘😘 could make me feel so weak, my body was so tender, he didn't of to touch me, for me to feel chilly just by the way how he approaches me. I went to have my lunch at the lunch room, when I was there! I heard someone, from behind me said can I sit here?? When I turned around and look👀👁️, it was Dave asking me, if he can sit 🪑🪑 here!! I was like silent, I felt my skin started to get hot my whole body beginning to burn up with feelings for him, I started to get nervous when I answered him way down in my throat and said yes, you could!! With a silly look. I could not finish eating my lunch I just stop eating, and went to the restroom, I never go back to the lunch room to finish my lunch. When school was over, Damion came into my classroom looking for me but when he sees me, he walks right over to my desk where I was standing and he asks me to follow him go for a walk before I go home, so I said to him no I can't because I have to reach home before certain time if I don't reach home before five o'clock they are going to kill me but any how I follow him, it was the beach 🏖️ he let me follows him, when we reach he holds my hands an look me in the eyes and "said to me, you are my forever my"! When I saw you the first time at school, there was something about you, that makes feels you whenever I see's you. When he says that to me is like my whole body just come rushing in like the sea!! O 🙉 my body is burning 🥵 with feelings for this guy, same time he started to kiss me and I kiss him back we started kissing untill I find myself on the ground and he was all over me same time I felt his penis get hard on me, in Jamaican terms when a man penis get hard, we say(it stiff up), he even started to kiss me even harder and I felt every energy left is body when he kisses me harder. You might wondering why I follow him to the beach 🏖️ in the first place if am not interested in him🤔??to be honest with you, I am weak for this boy, i don't knew how comes i get so weak for him!!! the kisses never stopped, we were still kissing on and on it was going endlessly, it was getting to the next level but I didn't let it get there!! Same time flash back memories of how I was pressure to have sex before kept coming back to my mind, same time I stopped him but he won't stop, I hit him on the shoulder with my hand but he didn't stop kissing me, same time, eyes water comes to my eyes when he felt it on his face then he stopped and ask me "what's wrong" "I told him that I can't do this anymore and want to go home" then he said to me okay then I'll stop" when he stop kissing me I felt drained out, then he stopped and we talked for awhile but I never tell him what had happen to me before I only told him that am not interested in him at all. He let me know how much, he loves me and how much he care's for me, Then he even said to me that he just wanted me to be his girlfriend, I keep on saying am not interested in you, the appearance of his face was not please when I told him to stop kissing me"Then he says okay I will just back off and leave you alone, I was crying 😭 on his shoulder with the drama, that is going on inside of my head but he never knew that Dave has a crush on me, neither did Dave knew that Damion has a crush on me. When I went home I never reached home too late, I went right away to my dorm and have a shower 🚿 while I was in the shower, flash backs of what happen to day, keep on going through my mind. After I finish have my shower, I went upstairs for my dinner🍽️. While I was at the dinner table, I could not eat my food, my belly was full of nothing but hair breeze. I really have feelings for the both of them but am not interested in any of them, I don't love any of them!!!!.