I was staring at the screen after I send the message like an idiot and waiting for the reply as if she changed her mind.
But no answer came from the other side at all as all my replies like a stone that is thrown in the ocean with huge force but the result, just a ripple without any effect. All the efforts are wasted and there are no results.
I was feeling, that everything now happening around me is a dream that should end as soon as possible so that I can wake up and see her beautiful smile with her saying " I always loved you will only love you, Nitin. "
As much I want to wake up from the dream but I can't wake up as all these things around me are still there as they haunted me so that's why I pinched myself on my thigh with all my power so to wake me up.
As soon as I pinched myself on the thigh pain came up which jolted me and as soon as the pain subsided I peered towards the mobile screen, but after reading the messages on the phone which were the same as the one I read before and nothing has changed.
I know all this is true, this is all more real than anything just like India can't qualify for the football world cup and all these are happening with me now and nothing will be changed.
These are not the dream where everything will be over the moment I wake up but I hoped that it would be so good it was all dream the moment I wake up it will soon dissipate. But reality told me that it's all real and nothing can be changed now.
After coming to terms with the reality I was just sitting on a chair in a daze and staring at the mobile phone screen and was waiting for that one reply, one message saying that all these above messages I had done were pranks and I am still there for you like always.
After all, I believed that all those words that she had said now were only due to her was in a fit of anger at me was not real.
She will calm down her temper and message me, after all, she loved me so much.
So I keep staring at the screen.
But I didn't get any reply from her as it has been the same messages that were displayed there on the screen in the dark with only single phone light.
I am sitting there only staring at the mobile like an idiot and waited for a single reply that may come at any time and say with a smile that all these messages that you read are rubbish and I am here for you and will not leave you at any cost.
But those wishful thoughts never became a reality I was thinking about whether is their meaning about living now.
I had a vacant look in my eyes I don't even know why all this is happening to me as we were so happy together always even with so many small moments.
She was the only person in my life with whom I can feel a bit of warmth in my short life full of coldness.
She was like a light of my life on my dark path till now.
Who had brought me from the darkness that I was suffering in from childhood?
But now it all ended like this.
No, I can't let it end it like this I have to contact her at any cost and know these answer to my all the questions that are swirling on my mind right now.
Why she had been so adamant about leaving me? but at the same time, when I was unable to contact her I feel relieved too.
My feeling is too contradictory?
But I am having both types of feeling right now.
I want to know all the answers and at the same time afraid to know the answers to my questions.
As I have a feeling that once all these answers came to the light.
I won't be able to live anymore as the answers will take my heart.
No one will be able to open it again till the end of life.
And I also want to slumber till the eternity too.
I don't want to wake up from this slumber as it will only make me more pain now and I can't handle all these things.
I just want to fall into a deep slumber and never wake up again as to not face these feelings.
I just want to slumber till eternity and never wake up. it's my only wish.
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Here comes the author question:-
After reading this much story What do you like to know more about?
Past of how he became like this or how the situation came to this point?
Or the future of how is going to tackle the problems and solve them?
And the most important question who is gonna be his fated wife?
If the person he loved so much hurt him like this
will he love again?
come on there are so many questions left answered and so many situations left unsolved so just bear with me
as there will be always a solution to all the questions out there
and there will be plot armor for the Male lead can you guess?
If you can guess then there will be more surprises.
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