Nowadays, my daily routine is very simple. In the morning, I used to do my bouquet business, in the afternoon I go to Mrs.lucy's house. In the evening I do marketing. I promised myself that, of course, I can't afford to give her a complete bouquet daily, so I thought at least, will give her one flower whenever going to her house. This routine was happening for the last fifteen days.
{love is not like you love them for one day deeply and you tell, yesterday I loved you that much, is that not enough! well, if you ask me no, love is a daily ongoing process. it doesn't work like that. Every time love doesn't mean buying something for your loved ones. Love can be expressed in many ways. Taking care of them is the best way to show your love. Just a few lovely texts from you and sometimes a call, that's enough.isn't it?}
Good afternoon Mrs.lucy
oh, common you can call me lucy. I m ok with it.
But I like to call you Mrs.lucy only, said childishly.
well, okay fine call me the way you like to.
I gave her the flower which I brought for her and gave a peck on her lips and whispered to her. you look amazing today.
uh, come on stop praising me daily and she was blushing
{ Definitely, she wanted to hear these words daily, but it's just the outside one says, stop but the inner one always wants to hear something like this. isn't it?}
We made our love. Now, we are happy that, after making love we used to talk a bit. I and Mrs.lucy eat lunch together daily. Because of her, I was able to eat daily two times peacefully. while going back in the evening, she used to pack dinner for me. she was a caring person. I went back to my room at night. Daily, I used to think about her. I recall everything which I did with Mrs. lucy today. I am a good dreamer. I imagine things that never happened but I love to dream like that, I used to play both the roles of my dream and cherish them. I used to dream like, after few months we'll marry each other. we will have a beautiful family. Me, her, and our two kids. I used to dream many things like this. I can't get into sleep until I create two or three future goal stories and make myself happy.
{ I believe, you also have done these lovely things, dreaming about your loved ones didn't you?}
But, the next day was a black day for me rather I could say, a black day for all my thoughts.
Mrs.Lucy wore olive green velvet clothes and a marron lip gloss, it was sleeveless and only up to her knees. I was stunned by looking at her for a second. I feel, she only dresses up like this for impressing me. I loved the way she was looking.
Don't you think day by day you're growing younger and beautiful? said with a smile.
She started laughing .later, we did the same thing which we used to do daily. we were lying on the bed, we covered our bodies under the bedsheet only our faces were not covered.
Later, I was telling her my childhood stories. I told about my friends and all the mischievous things I used to do in my childhood and teenage. she was loving my stories, I have seen the excitement in her eyes while I was narrating them. She used to laugh too much, catching her stomach.
She would say,' oh please now stop' if not, my stomach will burst out. Those moments were memorable for me. we both loved each other's company. everything was going great in between us until when she told Anand, can I ask you something?
yes, of course, said looking into her beautiful eyes.
Don't take me wrong, I just want to ask you about it. It was running in my mind for two days, so I just wanted to know.
I understood that the situation is a little serious, so I need to speak clearly.
Did you tell any of your friends about us? she asked by keeping a little sad face.
No, not at all. I haven't told about us to anyone. I could say I don't even have good friends here.
she didn't speak anything for a moment. my pulse was increasing by her silence.
Then, what about your vendor friends? Did you tell them?
No way! we talk very occasionally. we are not much close, I said without hesitation.
oh! ok fine she said, in a low voice.
I got perplexed by looking at the expressions on her face.
I asked her, tell me what happened?.
After few seconds she told me, The day before when I went near those vendors to buy fruits they were looking at me differently. They were disgustingly looking at me. They were also passing comments, but I don't know whether they were commenting on me or no. Anyways leave, she told and closed her eyes.
I understood what she was trying to tell me. I felt like banging them. But I know I can't.why the hell did they do that. why did they even think wrong about her!
My mind started questioning me, whether I was doing the right thing? Are you sure?. It started sending me into a dilemma. Conflicts started inside me. My brain got heated up, started feeling guilty. I felt like running away from that house at that moment, but I did not. I relaxed, did some breathing exercises.
Lucy, do you think what we are doing is wrong? I asked her in a timid voice.
{she didn't speak for few seconds, which made me more nervous}
No, I never felt I was doing wrong. If I had felt that I would have stopped this long time ago.
why do you think this is not wrong? how could you be so sure that this is right? how could you kiss a person whom you've met once? what will happen if your parents know about this? If you wanted to make love, you could have married someone? why didn't you marry? what do you expect people around you should think? you barely know about me! how could you do this!
{I blabbered everything which came to my mind, I haven't even thought once, I shouldn't have said all this, I have talked too much. After all, once words are spoken they cannot be taken back.}
she was staring into my eyes. she gave a simple smile and I could also see her teary eyes. for the next few seconds, she didn't utter a word.
I am sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you. Forgive me.
{ After few minutes of silence}
she started talking....!