When I see the looks they give each other I know I'm fucked up, I mean how the hell didn't I see past this? The looks Steven and Jamie were giving each other at times and yet here I am asking if he can like me? Stupid Zoey for thinking that way, have you even seen who you are competing with?
I see Mira give Jamie a little nudge, ughh!! why didn't I think of the outcome?
"Of course he could, he'll be crazy not to." It's Mira speaking but my mind is fuzzy, all I think about is the thought of my all time crush having his way with Jamie.
I hate this feeling that's for sure.
Jamie moves closer to me, "I know the two of you go to the same school..a year ahead of you but still."
"Also I see how you look at him even when you think you're being secretive, we all notice. And the nicknames, the bickering damn girl you show way too many signs." she continues.
"No I don't." I protest only for Mira to scoff and continue scrolling through her phone.
"Hey! No phones on girls night." Jamie scolds but Mira seems too serious wait is that a blush I see. I'm so sure it has everything to do with my brother.
"So how long have you liked Steven." Jamie asks while giving me teasing eyes.
I cover my face to hide the redness that I'm sure is already on my face. "It's been long, since I saw him at school one day, well he kind of helped me with my situation."
"What situation?" Mira now asks.
"I uuh..." she gives me this curious look that I know will all turn into pity when they know but it's now or never.
"I uuh...I have... I kinda still am..." I breathe in and out and drop the bomb. "I'm being bullied." I say it fast and by the confused look Mira is giving me I know that she caught that fast enough.
"What? How? I mean I'm crazy am asking how you are being bullied, how long has this been?" She's so confused that I feel sorry for her.
"Uhh since I arrived at the school, for the past two years." I confirm.
"And you've managed to keep it to yourself?" Jamie asks and Mira hits her on her arm hard. Jamie looks at Mira with a shrug. It makes me smile a little. These two are literally a package.
"It's not like I had anyone to talk to. Nate wanted to come with but he's literally the best in your school that they gave him that unresistable offer that we all know about." They both nod.
"It's Livia and her young sister who do this, it first started with little pushes but now..." I breathe out shakily looking down, I really don't want to be pitied. "It's gotten worse, they even don't want me to sit with Nate. I never said anything Nate will literally mash them like gullible mash potatoes."
Mira comes to me and makes me look at her.
"Is that why you came the first time crying?" I see how hard it is for her to even think about this but it already happened.
"Yeah. I was helping out some kid, they were torturing her and all I could think about was how painful it is for her, she's freaking younger than me. I stopped them but that resulted into me being shamed on infront of her girlfriends and other campers." I feel so vulnerable I just need to feel something.
She hugs me so hard and then wipes my tears with a smile, "you're one hell of a strong person. No one would have put anyone else forward so that she can be made fun of."
"And Steven?" Mira scowls at Jamie but I know she's trying to lighten up the mood and it's working.
"Oh look she's freaking smiling, aren't I a genius." She tells Mira while poking her.
"He helped me once with Livia's situation and when he asked I denied telling him that it's a family friend thing." Jamie snickers at this. "Dumb I know but it was the only way to get him off the hook."
"Well we are sure that fireworks are there between you two." Mira says this.
"Am so sorry Zoey, I didn't know that you liked Steven I would've stayed far but so far nothing happened. When I told him about my situation with my boyfriend he found it amusing."
"But he was far from anything serious or casual, he is a good kisser though." This makes me throw a pillow at her, why would she tell me that.
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"Hey Zozo. My stomach internally does a summersault." It always does when it comes to him.
"What do you want Steven?" I look at him with a bored expression.
"Did you talk about me yesterday?" I instantly blush there's no way I'm telling him that I did I won't hear the end of it.
"You're so full of yourself you know." I tell him as I continue preparing myself for a running competition.
"And I think you always do yourself no justice when you hide that body beneath your clothes." My eyes practically buldge out is he fucking flirting with me? I look at him to maybe see if he was talking while looking at anyone else but his eyes are still stuck on me and it makes me think of alot of things.
I mean I'm no saint because I've literally thought about all the ways I could be stretched out by him.
The atmosphere is hot, the tension is freaking high and all I can think about is what harm would it do if I kiss him right now.
I see his eyes reflecting my desired ones too, he moves in a little closer our breathing is almost unbearably slow, I can't hold in I need his lips on me now!
"Hey Zoey did you see ohh! Sorry guys." Ughh really Jamie!
That brings us to reality and Steven clears his throat, takes another good look at me, mumbles something I can't quite catch and then sprints off just like that.
I ran a hand through my hair with only one thing stuck in head Steven wanted to kiss me too.