No matter how much I love Ella, I've been low on the details about me and Trevor with my best friend. I have to tell Gwen first. Even though she's not very fond of Trevor right now, she's still my best friend. She would want me to tell her first. To be the first to hear about it...
"I can't talk about it yet. I need to think about it, before I jump to conclusions..." Maybe I should just think about it before I tell anyone. What would I tell them exactly? That Trevor almost told me that he loves me? No one would believe me anyway... Out of all the women in the world, Trevor Walker chose me. Why?
You can ask him that at dinner... Now, get back to work...
I finished making the coffee and saw Mr. Walker coming in. "Good morning," he said. "Good morning, Mr. Walker," Ella said first. I walked with him to his office and went in after him. I always wait a few seconds before joining him in the office.
"Good morning, Mr. Walker. How was your night?" I asked with my iPad in my hands, holding it to my chest... I miss Trevor. I want to hold him...
"It was good. I took Katherine out to dinner. She loved it... And I bought her a necklace a few weeks ago. I had it specially made. And last night, when I gave it to her, seeing her face made me fall in love with her all over again..."
Oh, my soul... I love hearing about people's love-life. It's so romantic and sweet. The fact that he does little things to keep the romance alive with his wife, it's so special. I think that it's every girl's dream to find the man she wants to spend her entire life with. A man that will hug her and kiss her for no reason at all. Someone who won't ask any questions when she's sad and will only say It's okay. I'm here for you. I love you. Someone who will make her smile... Someone who will make the effort to keep the spark between them alive. And it doesn't have to be a huge thing, because at the end of the day, she'll remember all the little things. Because that is what counts...
"I'm sorry, Amabel. That's not professional..." he said, putting his suitcase on his desk.
"No, it's wonderful to hear. I'm glad that things are going better," I said. And I really was. Mr. Walker was a mess a few months ago... He didn't get enough sleep. He barely ate. Until I made those dinner reservations for him and his wife.
"I'm sorry anyway. I didn't mean to pour it in front of your face. I know things between you and my son aren't as good as they were. Just say the word, and I'll hang him up," he said.
I chuckled at his words and said, "It won't be necessary, Sir. Whatever happened between us, I forgave him. But I also want him to forgive me... But that's all in the past, and I'm ready to move on." It felt good to say those words. I felt like I could finally breathe better.
I went back to my desk and started working. And then I remembered the contracts. I put them on a separate file with the rest of the other paperwork to give it for him later. He's busy on a call. Well, I'm having dinner with him tonight, so... Anything can happen, right? Why am I expecting something to happen?
The hours came and went by and it was time for our two o'clock meeting with Mr. Conner. During the whole meeting, I could think of nothing else, but that kiss. Later, I decided to make coffee for Mr. Walker and Mr. Conner, just to clear my head.
I kept my iPad in Mr. Walker's office to record and went to the kitchen.
I was waiting for the machine, and as I reached for the mugs in the cupboard when I felt familiar arms around me. Wait, and lips starting to kiss my neck. Why am I leaning into those lips? They feel familiar... Trevor...
I turned around and saw him there. He held himself up by pushing his arm against the cupboard above my head as his other hand remained on my hip. He smelled my hair and to feel his breath on my neck when he started kissing me, made me crazy.
"What're you doing here?" I asked him. He was already breathing hard and trembling and he didn't even kiss me yet.
"I can't stay away from you. I can't," he said as his lips hovered near mine. I'm doing everything in my power not to kiss him. It's not professional. I work here. But it's his company... So, I think it's okay.
Is my subconscious defending him? That's a first. His bottom lip brushed slightly against mine. And that's when I lost all restraint. I grabbed his face and kissed him. He picked me up and sat me on the counter near the window. He wrapped my legs around him as his lips feasted on my skin.
"Amabel?" Ella asked.
"Are you okay?" she asked again, folding her arms over her chest.
"Huh? What?" Holy shit! Daydreaming about him. That's a first.
"What were you just thinking about?" she asked me. Blush... Blush... Blush...
"Oh, shit! You just had dream sex with him, didn't you?"
"What?"
"You're telling me that you weren't just daydreaming about you and him having sex?" she asked. Are you kidding me? I need to get back to work. I can't talk about him. Something is burning inside of me. Something I can't control.
"I have to get these coffees for the gentlemen. Excuse me," I said with a giggle, immediately covering my mouth with my hand. I have to get the We got in the elevator and the moment the doors closed, he had me pinned against the wall. I gasped the moment his hands touched my waist. There we were... just looking at each other. His hand glided from my waist, over my stomach, between my breasts and cupped my cheek.
I know I'm not supposed to, but I leaned in to his touch. I couldn't breathe. "I can't be without you," he said with tears in his eyes. "I don't want to. I'm broken without you. I don't know what to do or how to go on when I know that you can be with someone else. I don't want you to be with someone else. I want you to be with me. It's just that... I can't seem to let you go. I know you said that you need time, and call me selfish, but I don't want to give you time. I want to give you all of me," he said as a tear fell down my face.
He brushed the tear away from my cheek and cupped both my cheeks and leaned his forehead against mine. I was crying... I can't deny what I feel for him. I want to tell him that I love him. I want to tell him that I want all of him. I want to tell him that I want to give all of myself to him.
"I want to take it all. I want to have all of you. But I don't want to force you into something that you're not ready for or something you clearly don't want -"
"But I do want it. I want you. And I don't care if I have to say it thousands of times, I don't care if I have to jump off a bridge, I don't care about anything. All I want... All I need... is you, Amabel. Please, give me one more chance. I can't do this without you."
"I want to believe you... I really want to but," I said and then he kissed me. His lips were soft and gentle. His kiss was slow and wet. The need I felt for him in my heart was overwhelming.
"No more thinking..." he said out of breath and kissed me again. "No more talking..." he said again and then kissed me. He spoke with his lips pressed against mine. "Just us..." and then he didn't stop kissing me. He kissed my neck over and over. I moaned out loud and immediately bit my lip to stop myself.
"Don't bite your lip," he whispered and sucked on my earlobe. Going back to save my lip he kissed me, sucking gently on my bottom lip before giving it a gentle bite.
"Come with me today. No work. No people. Just us. You and me. What do you say?" he asked with our breathing slowly slowing down.
"I can't. Your dad has a meeting at two o'clock. I'll see you at dinner."
"I'll pick you up after work," he said, rubbing my lower back.
"Gwen is taking me home. Can you pick me up from there?"
"Okay. I do mean it. I miss you. I can't be without you, Amabel. I... I really need you," he said. Was he just going to say that he loves me? I have to get off this elevator.
The doors opened a while ago and he kissed me one more time before letting me step off the elevator. "Trevor..." I called before the doors closed again.
"Yes?"
"Don't hurt him..." I said with a smile.
"Who?"
"Caleb. He means well. Leave him alone, please..."
"Okay," he said with a smile and then the doors closed. I felt butterflies all over my body. My lips are still tingling from his kiss. My body is still flushed from his touch. He was going to say the L-word. Was he?
"Good morning. You look happy," Ella said. I started blushing and kept walking to my desk.
"Amabel? What happened?" she asked me. I put my bags down and started setting up my laptop. You know, the usual. Getting my iPad ready, my notebook, my phone... Everything...
"Trevor kissed me," I said. Shock... That was her facial expression. Pure shock.
"He did what?"
"Well, I had to let him walk me to the office, before he killed Caleb."
"The downstairs Caleb? Why?"
I sighed and then got reminded of his kisses one more time. "Well, Caleb kissed me yesterday," I began.
"Holy shit!" she exclaimed.
"It was one kiss. Besides, it was on my cheek and it meant nothing. He just did it to say 'happy birthday'. He was busy apologizing for making me uncomfortable with the kiss and then Trevor came out of the building and heard what we were talking about. He raised his fist... I had to stop him. So, I dragged him by the hand onto the elevator and then he kissed me..."
She was smiling brightly. Why was she smiling? Wait, did she and Trevor have a thing? Because that would be totally weird.
"How did he do it?" she asked.
"Ella!"
"What? I'm single. I have no other way to experience these kinds of things. Come on, Bells. Give me the details... Please?" she asked making puppy eyes.
"No..."
"Did he pin you against the wall? Damn, that's just so hot."
"Ella, first of all, I have to start getting to work. Second of all, I haven't had any coffee this morning, which reminds me... Do you want some?" She shook her head and gave me a mm-hmm...
"Thirdly, if you must know... Yes... He did pin me against the wall..." I said starting to blush all over again. I turned around to see Ella's mouth wide open. I chuckled to myself and walked to the kitchen.
"Amabel... There's something more that happened. I know there is... Go on, spill it..."
hell out of here. I brought them the coffee and took my seat again. I really want to go home. The faster this meeting goes, the faster I get to see him.
I didn't have any use for staying there. My iPad was still recording, so I could go on with other work. "Amabel, do you have the contracts?" Mr. Walker asked.
"Yes, Sir. I'll get them," I said and got them from my desk. I gave it to him and he gave me a smile and said, "Thank you." I turned around and walked out of the office. Going to my desk, I took my phone to look at the time. It's been two hours. No wonder I'm getting bored. Then the texts I received. There are so many.