Working during the day was hard. I couldn't stop thinking about me and Trevor. How he held me when he kissed me. The way his hands go through my hair. The way he kissed my neck. Last night's conversation, but most of all, what he said to his father. What he couldn't say to me.
I've been ignoring his calls and texts all day. I finished assignments, since Mr. Walker canceled all his meetings for the day. I never even noticed the time when Mr. Walker came out. I took out my earphones. "You going home, Mr. Walker?" I asked.
"Yes, and you should too."
"I'm almost done. Thank you, Mr. Walker. For this morning.":
"No problem, Amabel. I told you to tell me if I should hang him up," he said with a chuckle and then left. Ella was still working too. Or at least I think she was. She was usually done this time of the day. Maybe she doesn't want to leave me alone.
"Hey, Bells. I'm going home. I need to go back home. I'll see you tomorrow?" she asked. I didn't mind that she stayed with me and Gwen. It was kinda fun having her there.
"Are you sure you don't want to stay with us?" I asked.
"I'm sure," she said. She looked sure.
"Okay, good night."
"Night, Bells." Then she left. Funny enough, I kept myself busy until I finished two more assignments. I was really impressed with myself. I had to start charging my phone from playing music all day long. I needed it.
But since I'm alone in the office, I took out my earphones. I have to know what goes on around me. Especially when I'm alone.
I stayed until I finished my assignment. I looked at the time on my phone. Wow, 19:34. I really have to go home. Or they'll lock me in the building. I packed up and got to the elevator. Getting downstairs I greeted Jessica and Olivia, like always, and Caleb opened the door for me.
"Good night, Caleb."
"Good night, Amabel."
I got into a cab and went straight home. "Welcome home, stranger," Gwen said. I guess I really am a stranger to her. I've been staying at Trevor's for a long time. It's kinda strange being back home.
"Hey. I'm sorry I've been gone so long. But I think I'm gonna be home for a long time." I went to my room and did the usual. Showered and slipped into my pajamas. Then, joined Gwen on the couch for some TVD. I missed this. Watching TV with my best friend.
Seeing Elena and Stefan, made me think even more about Trevor. I hate that fight. But maybe this is for the best. He doesn't know what he wants...
Gwen fell asleep, so I woke her and walked with her to her bedroom. I'm always afraid that she might get hurt. Then I went to turn off the TV and then there was a knock at the front door. I didn't want to answer it.
I leaned against the door trying to hear who it might be. "Amabel?" What the hell is he doing here? I don't want to see him.
"Amabel, please open the door." I heard him placing his palm on the door. I started tearing up. He really hurt me badly. I needed time to heal. To think. To reconsider.
"Amabel, I know you're there. I can hear you breathing."
I unlocked the door and opened. He was standing there with his hands on the doorframe.
"What do you want? Why are you here, Trevor?" I asked. I couldn't show him that I've been crying over him. The only person I've ever been in love with.
"I'm here for you. For us," he said.
"There is no us. Okay? Go home. It's late and I have to work in the morning. And so do you," I said. I didn't want to talk to him. Because the more I see him, the more my anger melts away, and I need to be angry at him for a little while.
"Amabel, please don't do this," he said with pain in his voice.
"Good night, Trevor," I said and slowly closed the door. Then I heard him leave...