When the doors opened, I got out and walked past the reception. "Good night, Mr. Walker," Alison and Cathy, the receptionists, said.
"Good night," I said. The doors opened and Jonathan stood by the car, opened the door for me and I got in. When he was inside, he asked, "Where to, Sir?"
"The hospital, Jonathan."
"Yes, Sir," he said and started driving. I'm being selfish. I should let her be with her mom. But the mere thought of someone else taking her home is tearing me apart. She said she needed time.
"Actually, Jonathan. My place, please. When you dropped me off, go to the hospital and wait for Amabel by the doors. Take her home, please," I said.
"Of course, Sir," he said and drove me home.
He stopped at the front of the building and then took off. Maybe I should've gone with him. She needs time, Trevor. Leave her be...
I went inside and got into the elevator and then inside my apartment. I went to my room and the moment I stepped inside, I smelled her. The smell of her hair and her perfume. She's everywhere and she's haunting me.
I took a shower to fill the room with another scent. I need to get her out of my mind, just for a little while. After my shower, I got dressed in shorts and dropped onto my bed. Her scent was even on my pillows and covers. Being a creep, I took the pillow she used to sleep on and held it close to me.
I needed to feel her presence. I feel so empty and cold. What have I done? Did I just lose the love of my life?
She needs time, Trevor. Leave her alone...
I got up and went to the living room. I spread myself on the couch and watched some TV. Even the couch... Are you fucking kidding me? Why is she everywhere? I can't be in my bedroom... I can't even go to my boat to sleep there, because she slept there too. I need a drink.
I went to the kitchen and poured myself a glass of Scotch. Swallowing a sip was awful. The taste was bitter and made me even more upset. I opened the fridge to find something else, and saw the carton of mango juice. Amabel's favorite.
I went back to the couch and decided to fall asleep in front of the TV. I hate my TV. Every single movie I watched was a romance. How stupid can those guys be, letting the girl go?
I can't just let her go! I'm sorry. I won't. I'll go to her tomorrow and fight for her. Yes! I'll go to her apartment, drive her to work. I'll pick her up and take her to dinner. Then we'll go stargazing and then maybe I'll kiss her. I want to show her how much she means to me. I'm not ready to lose her.
With this plan in my head, my eyelids became heavier and I noticed it began to rain. I love the rain. Especially when Amabel is with me. Cuddling with her on Monday night, was epic.
Amabel's POV
"No! What did you do?" my mom asked as she laughed. She's never laughed this much. We laughed so hard, Laurel had to quiet us down.
"I didn't do anything. I couldn't."
"What did Trevor say about it?" she asked me. How do I tell her that we're not together anymore? Not that we even were together before. But now we're even more not together. That sounds so fucked up on so many levels.
"Uhm, he doesn't know. And there's no need for him to know," I said.
"What? Bells, he's your boyfriend. If a guy kissed you on your cheek and it's not Trevor, he's gonna be really hurt and upset," Mom said.
"He's not my boyfriend, Mom. We talked about it last night and he suggested that we're just friends. He told his dad that we're not in a relationship. And that he's not sure if he wants this. If he really wants me like that. So. We're not together, even though we weren't together before. We've fought so many times and I fought to get him back. And I'm done fighting. Chasing him is like chasing the clouds. I just don't have the strength to fight for him anymore. He never really wanted this. I'm just glad I didn't do anything stupid," I said with a chuckle.
Mom looked at me as if she was staring into my soul. "Baby girl, he likes you. Don't ask me how I know, I just know. The way he looks at you, it's the way your father used to look at me. He loves you, even though he might not even know it yet."
"I don't know, Mama. But I don't want to talk about him anymore."
She looked at me and nodded. Laurel came into the room and said, "Bells, visiting hours are over."
"Okay, thank you. I'll be out in a minute," I said. She nodded and left.
"Good night, Mama. Sweet dreams," I said as I got up and kissed her forehead.
"You too, baby girl," she said. I took my bags and closed the door. I walked to Laurel and said, "Thank you, Laurel. For everything. Here, have another cupcake," I said, holding the box for her. She tilted her head and then took one.
"Thanks, Bells. Good night," she said.
"Good night," I said and walked to the elevator. I got downstairs and then the doors opened. "Miss Avery," I heard someone say.