I keep on consoling him... Finally he was feeling much better..
"Smile.. please.. you look great while smiling ..." I try to lift up his mood..
"Thanks Zumar... thanks for everything... I am feeling much better..." he gave his precious smile..
"Feel free to share your problems with me... I can't help you everytime but atleast listen to you sincerely...and won't leave you alone" I promised him
"For real.... Are you willing to be with me everytime I feel low..." he behaved childishly...
"Zayden... you are behaving like a child.... now cheer up and behave like man..."I teased him.
"I am already a man... do I need to prove that..." he looked at me with his seductive eyes...
"No need... I already knew it..." I said pulling myself away from him.
"Zumar... I really like you a lot..." I looked at him in surprise.... "what's this... a confession" I thought in my heart...
"I really liked your company... I missed you when I was away... I ... I ..." he continued but then stopped at looked in to my eyes....
I thought it was coming... the moment I was waiting for... I felt like fireworks exploding in my heart... I patiently waited for him to complete his sentence... he then looked away...
"let's be best buddies for a very very long time..." he looked like he was struggling from something... he want to say something but was not getting enough courage... Finally he completed his sentence and the moment I was waiting for never comes... I finally realised that how could my life be so dramatic. it was real very real how could he propose someone like me an average girl. He told me about his standard earlier and I stand nowhere near that.
"It's getting late, I am leaving..." I said to him and get up from the couch... I don't want to show my disappointment infront of him...
"Zumar... what happened... ? " he might have felt my low mood.
"Nothing.. I am just tired... don't forget to drink the milk..."without looking back, I reminded him and took my leave ... He followed me but I ran back to my home.... I could feel his eyes following me but
I don't want to stay there for one more second. I know my feelings were hurt but I can't blame him. He didn't know anything about my one-sided crush on him. It's solely my business but I wasn't able to control myself.... I feel like crying... but for what...? I don't even know that...
I came to my room and washed my face with cold water which helps me to relax. I came out of the washroom and lie down on my bed...
I closed my eyes and try to sleep but sleep is nowhere... I tried hard... but my mind kept on reminding me about my feelings... I don't know what happened to me... I have been keeping my feelings secretly in my heart for all these years, no one in this world except me had the slightest idea about my one-sided love for him... but why I was not able to control myself... My head started aching....
Right then my phone vibrated I looked and there was his text... "Are you all right Zumar... why you left in a hurry... did I hurt you someway..." he asked.
I kept on looking on the screen... then I typed
"It's nothing.... I forgot about time it was getting late you know... I was tired.."
"Are you sure... I feel like you were not fine..."
"I am very well... no need to worry... good night.." I then switched off my phone...
Finally after thinking for almost whole night, I decided to keep my feelings for myself. I decided that I will try to achieve my goal, work hard in future atleast to match his standard then only I will expose my feelings... Maybe I wasn't mature enough to understand the realities of life also no one knows about the future what destiny unfolds for them... I kept on working hard but destiny betrayed me.... I wasn't even able to aproach him. I was too late...