Interesting, rather interesting. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't like I have an affinity for that kind of relationship; an older guy and a younger woman, well maybe some other girls prefer that kind of relationship but for me, I'm not into it. Well, as if I could fall in love with anybody.
So why did I said that it was interesting? was this the first time I got interested in something? how strange, maybe because this was the first time I saw this such thing. This wasn't abnormal for me, it wasn't normal either—seeing my new classmate Vanessa kissing a man who's probably at thirty to forty-five years old.
"So how should I deal with it?"
The answer was none. It amused me, it interests me a little bit but I'm the type of person who doesn't want to stick her nose on other people's problems. How should I advise the person who experienced what I didn't? I think it's kinda rude to get ahead of yourself and gave half-baked advice. Yeah, it's kinda rude.
Seeing people who acted like they knew everything in this world, disgusted me, especially adults I guess, they acted as though they were omniscient or think highly of themselves, something like that.
I remember after my parents separated the older people in our area instantly turned into saintlike whenever they spoke to me, but they didn't know that I wasn't bothered because of my parent's separation but I was bothered by their fake kindness.
Every time that I ran into them they always asked me if I'm okay or was I felt lonely. Honestly, they asked me these questions a couple of times that I automatically answered them without thinking deeply about the question. Yes and no
I'm sure that it was just for their self-gratification. Having relied on by a child in a tough situation is kinda cool, right? I knew it was kinda cool cause that was what I felt whenever my little sister asked me for a favor or two.
Anyway, after what I saw that night, my mind couldn't be at ease. I always found myself staring at Vanessa—thinking about what it feels like to have a relationship with a middle-aged man, of course, it wasn't like I was insulting her, it just made me wondered about it.
I quickly averted my eyes as Vanessa turned her gaze into mine, I supposed she noticed that I was staring at her. Opening my book of notes, I acted as if nothing happens. It's pretty embarrassing to be caught by the person you were staring at.
"What's wrong?..." Rena asked with her usual soft calm voice. Rena has no gist of what's happening, about what I saw that night, I couldn't tell her that I saw Veronica kissing an older man, I knew that if Rena knows about it something bad might happens.
Just like what I told back on few chapters ago, Rena is the secretary of our school's student council, and she really devoted herself to improve our school's image, just like what she said when the newspaper club once interviewed her; Maybe I couldn't turn this academy into a perfect school, but I won't let any students stains its image. At that time I thought Rena is an amazing girl with an amazing passion, I really looked up to her.
"Recently, you always glance at Victoria... did something happened between you two after you accompany her on her first day? if you like you can tell it to me later" Rena spoke in a light voice without facing me, it was still class hours and the teacher was teaching in front of us though.
"Ah...erm... it's nothing don't mind it" lightly laughed and turned my gaze on our teacher, I felt that she glance at me for a second but I didn't mind it, I don't want to cause a problem for her.
Hours passed and it felt like the time got slower each time our teacher opened his mouth, I hadn't noticed that I dozed off in my seat that made the nerve of our teacher snapped and threw his marker on me.
Currently, I was standing outside of our classroom with a couple of books resting on top of my head and both my hands. I was looked like a scarecrow of our class repeatedly mumbling "It's embarrassing" every time students or teachers passed by in front of me.
"It's all Veronica's fault if I hadn't seen that thing"
That's right, it was her fault that I barely could have sleep because the image of her and that man always flashed in my mind. It always bothered me every time that I went to the convenience store where I saw them that night.
"If only I hadn't seen that—"
I was startled after the door beside me opened, I thought our teacher decided to let me inside the classroom but I was wrong. Behind me, Veronica was standing—holding a few books in her right hands. She looked at me before she closed the sliding door of the classroom.
I just watched her walked past me and stood on my right side, quietly put each book on her head and both of her hands; seems like we were doing the same posture.
A moment of silence roused between us, I felt awkward continued to avert my eyes from her since for just a moment ago I was blaming her for what was happened to me today.
Watching the students passed by, there was still silence between us before I heard her muttered something.
"You... me... that... right?" I hardly heard her muttered.
"What is it? sorry your voice was kinda low I barely heard the words you said"
Turning his face on me, she looked at me with her usual straight face "Tell me, you saw me that night right?"
That night? is she talking about the time when I saw her with the middle-aged man?.
I didn't know what to say, I was thinking if I should say no or I should say that I saw her that night and it made me fell into silence. I don't really want to associate myself with her, I found herself as an arrogant person that's why as much as possible I don't want to form any connection with her.
"You don't have to tell a lie, I know that you saw us that time," she said nonchalantly.
"Then you don't need to ask me right?... if you already know the answer, you don't need to ask it" I said irritatedly.
"What will you do?"
My brows furrowed as I heard her said that word as if she was expecting that I'll spread to our school that I saw her kissing a middle-aged man. "What?!"
"Like I said, what will you do?...what are you gonna do?"
"Nothing of course!" I immediately closed my mouth as I heard my loud voice, I took a deep breath before talking again" of course, I will do nothing. First of all—!"
My eyes widened and the whole body of mine stiffened as I felt a hand-pulled my face towards her and a soft texture grazed on my lips. No, it's not only a grazed. She kissed me, out of nowhere she kissed me outside of our classroom and inside of our school building. My first kissed... my very first kiss was taken by her.
After she removed her lips into mine, she was gasping as if she came out under the water. Even I was catching my breath because of the shock and times where I almost lost my breath.
"With this, can you tell nobody about that night?" she said as if nothing happened, back to her position and left me still in a daze.