//He was like a touch of water, I lost myself in him. //
It was past dinner time already but I couldn't get the thought out of my mind. Why would he do that. Wasn't it a risk regarding his professional life? And why would he want to hurt me? For lying about my age?
I went to bed early. As I unfolded my blanket my phone beeped .
It was a message from an unknown number.
#unknown no: "hey I'm really sorry for the mistake. It was not me."
I knew who it was . I typed my curiosity.
#me : "then who did it?"
..
#unknown no: "my wife"
I was shocked
#me : "you are married?!? And you go around fucking others?"
#unknown no: " well we are not together , we are going throught our divorce formalities.. "
#me: "then how did she get the video?"
#unknown no: "I forgot to change the password to my drive"
#me:" I can't believe you"
#unknown no: "I'm sorry"
...
I couldn't type anything back. I was furious but at the same time I couldn't gear up the courage.
I switched off my phone and went to sleep .
Next day was horrible as expected. Everyone calling me a cunt was not a nice experience. Even Fin looked ashamed to talk to him.. so I walked away from him.
As I sat alone in the cafeteria, the lunch break felt like eternity, and thoughts filled my mind.
That's when Mr. Deel walked through the corridor and placed a bottle of cola on my table. He walked away without looking into my face.
I knew the anger I had against him was pure fire. But he was like a touch of water, I lost myself in him.
I went home as soon as the class finished. After all , all I needed was some alone time to figure out what is going on with my life.
As soon as I reached my house , I saw dad sitting in the chair watching tv and sleeping. I didn't want him to see me, I totally disgusted him. I tiptoed my way into the room.
I didn't know what was happening. Everything was frustrating . I cuddled myself in my bed sobbing.
*Knock on the window.
I got up to see what it was. To my astonishment I see mr. Deel climbing onto my window. I was terrified but the sight of him gave me pleasure.
I opened my window to him and he entered into my room.
He uttered no words and hugged me. His broad shoulders could cover me fully, and his scent could turn on anyone. I felt at ease, when I realised this was all I needed. Touch, his touch that made all my worries go away, his touch that could erase all my overthinking , his touch that could do strange things to me, his touch was everything I ever needed.
He slowly released the grip and moved his hands from my back to my face . Holding my face and rubbing my tears off he said
"It's okay, I'm here"
I was extremely happy that tears burst from my eyes. I hugged him again. I rubbed my head against his buttons down chest.
He caressed my hair slowly.
.
.
.
I gave him a chair to sit and he started talking
"I'm sorry that I hid the fact that I was married, but I never expected to see you again. That too as my student! You know this is hard for me as it is for you. I never anticipated this. "
I felt guilty . After all he had to go through all this just because of me. But I never regretted that night, it was the best memory of my life.
-" see, I didn't want you to go through all this , but right now I'm going through a lot due to my divorce . I need to clarify my mind.
And I hope you don't interpret this as something else. We know that night was on one agreement 'no strings attached' . You know I do this, and I don't date or love. I simply can't .. and I'm sorry if I gave you the wrong idea. I gotta go. See you later"
He left throught his way of entrance
I didn't even raise from my bed. I know I expected nothing, but his words were sharp and it cut open my heart. He had put a spell on me . And I was drawn to him more day by day.
But he couldn't see my heart bleeding because of him.
All I wanted now was to become his.
All I wanted now was HIM.