//the one within me,
The one beside me,
neither did wipe my tears//
It has already been 3 months and my belly has started to get bigger.
I realy wanted to keep it a secret but I guess my body is not gonna help .
I knew it was time for me to tell Mr.Deel about the baby. After all he is the father of my child!
All his divorce fuss was over now I guess.. He is now an independent man and I think it's totally okay to ask him to look after his baby
I took out my phone and searched up his name.
........
#me: hey.
#mr.deel : hi.. how are you
#me: I'm all fine.. but there's something I wanna talk about..
#mr.deel: okay tell..
#me : No! I wanna meet you..
#mr.Deel: oh ok... I'll come to your house after class..
#me: okay thanks
......
I was so nervous... I was about to be a mother and the father doesn't even know...
Even though I loved him a lot , it was all about the baby in my uterus right now.. a reason for me to live . A reason for me to care for myself.
I felt the shock when I heard his car . And the doorbell sent a lightning down my veins. I opened the door with hesitation.
As we sat in the hall, I could see the curiosity in his eyes. It was now or never.
"I... I.. have something important to discuss about.."
"Yep, please make it fast.. I'm in a rush"
I just couldn't get it out of me. So I lied.
"I've been unwell, so I can't submit the English assignment next week.''
I saw mr. Deel getting all worked up. His eyes were filled with tension.
"Is that your emergency? I was in such a hurry .. and you wanted to see me for this? You could've just texted me... Do you even know what I was fearing?"
"What? What were you expecting?"
I asked
"I.. I thought you were pregnant"
I was shocked.. it was the truth. But he did fear it. So i was not in a place to announce it right now. He didn't want the baby. What if he asks to kill it? Thoughts rushed through my mind and I got up to see him off.
For the first time, I thought of killing it too. This was something holding me back. As I wandered in my thoughtland, someone called me.
Eve? Why? After all this time .. after leaving me all alone?
I picked up the phone
"Hello? " Said her voice
"What do you want? Why are you calling now?"
"I'm sorry . But I'm still your mother, Bianca."
"You? You are my mother? What makes you think so now? You didn't think of that when you left me all alone at 5.
You know way better than me what I had to go through living with dad alone. "
"But I'm here right now. For you"
"Please, I disgust you. And I don't need you"
I cut the call..
I couldn't believe her audacity to call me after all these years after abandoning me.
That's when the thought struck me. I was doing the same. I was abandoning my child. I was gonna kill it. Me, who is supposed to provide it protection, actually thought of harming it.
I realised I had to keep it. I sneaked some money and went to the local hospital to have a checkup.
The doctor, hearing my age, suggested an abortion. Well I didn't want an abortion. I wanted the baby. I did the checkup. The gel felt cold on me. But the nurse let me hear the fast heartbeat. And told me it was most probably a boy.
The nurse seemed nice. She smiled at me and congratulated me
"What's your name sweetheart?"
"It's Bianca" I replied . She showed me that the baby was Healthy.
As I was talking to her, someone rushed inside the room .
It was mr. Deel?! At first he didn't notice me
The nurse exclaimed " what are you doing here?"
"Emilda..Why didn't you come to the court?" He asked.
"Why are you here?" She exclaimed
"I need an answer" he shouted back.
"Coz, I don't want a divorce right now" she replied .
Wait what! Was this his wife?!
That's when he noticed me.
"Bianca ? What are you doing here??" He talked to me with rage.
The nurse looked at me and asked " Do you know him?"
I replied: "Yes . He is the father of my child!"