Drinking "Vodka," is something I have to pretend to do because it will make John more pissed off and along with the guys that I hang out with. If you are wondering who they are, they are actually hunters that try to make it look like I date so many guys that I supposedly get paid to sleep with in order to keep an eye on John because of Ghost. Father Van Moore, who is brainwashed to think Vlad is our actual enemy that he needs to die, even though Vlad is our true ally. Looking at John making a cup of coffee, I can see so much of Dan in him. looking at John, I just have to bite my tongue for saying this:
"Do not even think to start thinking that I will be cooking for you," I say as I went back to eating biscuits with cranberry jelly and taking sips of my so-called "Vodka.". John then gets cleaned up and grabs the car keys.
"I am going out to get groceries, call if you want anything," says John then leaving without another word. Walking to the sink, I empty the drink and had the last bite of the biscuit and went to the phone.
"Hey Kate," says Taylor.
"Hey, John is out of the house, can you come over to talk about when we can talk to John about Vlad?" I ask him.
"I will be there," Taylor says then I hang up the phone and start waiting for Taylor to show up.
As I sit with Taylor in the living room since it was not safe for John to see his principal at a time like this.
"Kate, are you sure that you want me to tell him to send vampires in order to see the truth about his destiny?" Taylor asks. I nod and looking at Father Van Moore, I just glare at him for ruining my life as well as John's childhood.
"You cannot rush these things Kate--"
"If you were in my shoes, I know you will still do shit about it, you are nowhere close to being a Father," I say to Father Van Moore. Father Van Moore looks down and I can tell it hit him hard in the heart.
"You are right and that is why I rather train him to fight, but it is not what you think, reasons why you will find out soon in the future Kate," Father Van Moore says then stands up and walks to the door.
"Hope is going to call you when she gets a chance, I do not know when, but she is the only one that can give you information she gave to me and give you more than that," says Father Van Moore then leaves.
After sneaking out of the house, both me and Taylor, AKA the principal and Randy Forbes' Father who never paid much attention towards Randy since he is worried enough about John. looking out of Taylor's office window, all I can do is scream in frustration.
"Damn it!" I scream out loud. Taylor Forbes who is trying to keep a close eye on John and all I can do is dig a deeper hole for me to be buried in. Taylor walks over and he pats me on the shoulder.
"We will get through this Kate, let us just wait to talk to him about it--"
"No Taylor, we were this close to getting caught by John about Ghost and the battle that is been between us and them, for Father Van Moore, he says that John cannot know until…" I say to him, but my heart went silent. John is going through so much as is and I cannot save him, not that I do not want to, but because the Goddess has ordered us in the group of hunters to keep quiet about John's destiny, well for now for the time being.
"Just be careful of what you say to John, okay Taylor?" I ask. Taylor nods in silence then standing up and walking to the door.
"He is like a son to me Kate, it is the reason why I never let him go into honors courses because of certain people that would be working for Ghost and getting him close enough to be rid of John...once and for all," says Taylor. Turning around, I smile.
"I know Taylor and I am grateful; I will see you later," I say then leaving.
Driving back home, all I can think of was taking my anger out on the world for the bullying that John goes through and all at the same time, I would hate myself because of my choices that I made for keeping him in the dark.
"Fuck it, I am drinking," I say as I made a U-turn from the house and getting ready for the heaviest shit that I can drink.
Pulling in front of the Red Robin bar, I walk in and I see everyone is quiet.
"I could care less at this point," I say as I walk over to the bartender.
"What is the heaviest drink that you guys have?" I ask the bartender. All this guy did was give out a chuckle.
"I will give you whatever you desire ma'am, just wait a moment please," he says then walks over to this mini fridge and grabs a small shot bottle of Rum and slides it over to me.
"Here you go dear," the bartender says then walks over to the other people nearby.
"Well Kate, let us drink in depression," I say to myself.
Walking out of the bar, Taylor catches me here.
"What the Hell Kate!" Taylor yells at me.
"I cannot deal with this shit, I just want to make John, my one and only child to be happy, but...I failed and all I deserve is to just die," I say crying as Taylor holds me in his arms.
"Let us just get back to your house, I will help you Kate, so do not worry," Taylor says then walked me over to my truck and drives me back home where he leaves me right at the front door with my purse and as I walked in, I feel like I am about knock out into a deep sleep. Looking at John cooking, I need to just stop with the bullshit! I need to tell him. But John will be in danger and I cannot take a chance, damn it! Sitting down, I cannot sit straight, and I can barely keep my eyes open.
"What is for dinner?" I ask groaning. John's eyes widened as he looks at me with fear and worry.
"I will give you dinner after you get some sleep Mom, I will help you get upstairs," says John who walks over to me and helps me up then we both walk upstairs and with me stumbling into my room with John's help.
"I will see you tomorrow and it will be leftovers for the both of us," John says smiling.
"Good night Mom," John says then as he was about to turn and leave the room, I just could not keep myself from not saying these three words.
"I love you," I say as we both began to cry. John then wiped his tears away.
"I love you too Mom," John says then leaves the room. I turn to my side and I immediately pass out.
It is morning and I remember everything that had happened yesterday. I feel like an idiot, though I drank actual alcohol and got extremely sick and having to get my own son to get scared for my wellbeing makes me want to cry myself to death. But knowing that those three words were finally able to come out into the open after John's Father died, that I did truly do love John.
"I am so sorry Dan, knowing that what I am doing is horrible, please forgive me," I say praying to Dan.
"It is not your fault Kate, none of this is," says Dan. Turning around, I see Dan smiling by the doorway to outside.
"Dan!" I scream out. Dan then walks over and holds me in his arms. His warmth was still there, even in spirit.
"You need to focus on one thing for our son, and that is to guide John to his destiny," says Dan. Dan's right, I need to focus on taking care of John, even when I pretend to not wanting to have a close and normal family relationship between the two of us.
"I shall see you again soon Kate," Dan says then starts to fade away, but not before saying those three words.
"I love you,"