I groaned as I woke up this time. I felt more expected than I have been in forever. "It's not sunset yet." Father said as he shifted behind me.
"I need to handle something before I could ever sleep again." I tried to move but Xavier groaned and shifted on me.
"What is going on?" Father's black eyes looked into mine, worry and concern filled them.
"That child abusing asshole killed Daddy." I whispered almost too softly for him to hear but that Xavier and Mother would not hear.
"You can not take revenge on him, love." He said to me, tightening his hold on me. "We will handle this but you need to sleep. I can see the exhaustion in your eyes and face. I have not seen you cry in your sleep in years." I just hummed as I tried to relax enough to sleep but I couldn't sleep but I let myself drift through my thoughts and feelings. I looked at Xavier as he groaned and rubbed his eyes.
"Morning." He said. I smiled.
"Night's Blessings." I said softly.
"Night's Blessing." Father grumbled.
"Night's Blessing." He said yawning and sitting up on me rubbing his eyes.
"Did you sleep well?" Father asked him.
"Ahuh Sissy was a good pillow." He said as he shifted off of me. When the door slammed open I rolled over on top of Xavier and hissed as My father was in front of us with his shadows making swords and Mother was up and next to him and air was moving in mini twisters on her hands.
"I didn't mean to slam the door open, I just could not wait anymore after feeling what I did from Diana earlier." Logan said softly, holding up his hands.
"Dare I ask why the sleep over?" Regulus asked as he walked in and I sighed as I rolled off Xavier.
"That would be my fault." I spoke softly.
"What happened?" He asked me as they all joined up on the bed.
"I got a few glimpses of memories in the past. Daddy taught me how to become Lighting. Daddy was setting up some sort of party." I said looking up at the ceiling. I licked my lips as I tried not to break down again.
"You do not have to rush." Logan said as he ran his fingers through my hair.
"I need something to draw with." I said softly.
"Why?" Mother asked.
"I need to draw this face while it is fresh in my mind." I told her.
"Of who?" She asked me.
"Daddy and I were attacked by two witches, maybe more but I remember two." I told her as Logan passed me the pad of paper and my pens. I set to my drawing as the male voice rang in my ears as he told me to run again. "I am sorry." I whispered as tears pooled in my eyes.
"For what?" Mother demanded.
"Right now you're emotionally a mess, Love." Logan said softly. "I have never felt you like this." I passed her the finished sketch.
"I am sorry because when Daddy told me to run I ran to Daddy as he was being stabbed and I got thrown back to this guy." I looked at her as she looked over the picture and licked my lips. "I am sorry because you married Daddy's killer."
"Rayrach?" Mother demanded. "Are you sure?" She asked me.
"There is no doubt the memory was so clear and it hurt when this guy grabbed me." I said tapping the paper.
"Wait, you mean my Father killed Diana's?" Xavier asked.
"Xavier, no listen." I said softly. "You are not at fault no matter what you are not at fa…" I stopped and then the last memory hit and I was up and puking in the wastebasket.
"Sweet heart?" Father asked as he pulled my hair out of my way.
"Remember we had the suspicion that I had been setualy assaulted?" I asked him after I could breath and not puke.
"Yes…" Father said and I wiped my mouth as I straightened and walked to the dresser as my body shook.
"Maybe a month after Daddy was murdered did that start." I said, leaning my head against the stones of the wall.
"Dear Death." Father said as a hand touched my shoulder it took everything for me not to push that hand away.
"You are mine." Logan said softly. "Nothing you remember will ever change that." He said as his head rested on the back of my neck. "I may demand the lives of those who hurt you but you will never not be my queen."
"Even if I become an emotional mess?" I asked him.
"My Dear if you didn't I would be worried." Mother spoke. "You were kidnapped and tortured in ways that your Dragon thought best to keep from you till today. You need a therapist and you need to know you are loved. No you are not dirty you are not weak you are Diana Dragon-Arcaria you are strong."
"She is right, we know there was a larger possibility that you had been attacked like that due to your injuries but that does not change who you are." Logan said softly, running his hands down my arms. Arms wrapped around my waist and I looked down at Xavier.
"We love you Sissy." He said softly.
"I love you too buddy." I said stepping back into Logan and pulled Xavier into my arms. I knocked on my shadow. "Get a guard, have them put the Child abuser in elemental shackles and put him in a holding cell." I sighed and pressed my head into Xavier's shoulder. "I want to kill him."
"I know but you can't." Father sighed.
"I know." I said softly, shaking my head.
"I'm sorry." Xavier said softly.
"Little one." I said, picking up my head looking at him. "You have no need to apologize for anything, you are a victim in this just as I am. Just in a different way." I said pulling away from Logan and crawled back into the bed. "Do we have any plans for the day?" I asked them.
"Nope." Father said.
"Nest?" I asked him.
"Yea yea we can Nest. Where do you want the nest?"
I thought about it. I loved the Nest at the tower because of where it is located. "Home…" I said softly as the shadows grabbed everyone in the room and I yanked us to the nest room.
"FUCK!" Father said as he kept the others from falling as I crawled into the nest with Xavier.
"Where are we?" Mother asked.
"The tower." Father sighed. "Logan, yes you have permission to enter the Nest."
"Thank you." He said softly.
"Can I ask why the nest is so special?" Mother asked Logan crawled in nest to me and pull me into his lap.
"Nest are instutual for use and even more so for turned vampires when in distress."
"It's your safe place." Mom offered.
"Yes you could say that. This is a family nest and each family has their own. You do not enter without permission if you are not part of the family or you are only starting in a mateship.`` I stuck my head out of the nest.
"Are you coming?" I asked them softly, almost child-like.
"Yes Little one we will be there in a moment. I need to send a message to Renee and Maxwell. I will also send a message to Chief vicky so Mother and Xavier can eat."
My eyes widened as I had forgotten that. "I am sorry."
"Shhhhh." Father said. "Why don't you show Xavier the hiding spot while I get them food."
"Okay." I said crawling back into the nest and had Xavier follow me to the Hide hole.
"Is she okay?" Papa asked Father.
"When she's in the nest she acts much younger than she is. She always has."
"Trauma that she went through was dramatic and caused her to grow up fast. Her mind probably regresses to when she was young because she feels safe enough to be small and venerable." Momma said.
"Athair, Papa, Momma are you coming?" I asked as I pushed my head up enough for my eyes to be showing.
"I still don't know what that word means." Athair said.
"It's gaelic for father." Momma said as she slipped into the nest and Papa crawled in beside her.
I turned around patting around and hummed as I looked for the book I know I left in here.
"What are you looking for?" Xavier asked me.
"My book." I said softly.
"This one?" He asked. As he passed me the book.
"Yes!" I said softly and then shifted and opened it to the cover.
"What is this book called?" He asked me.
"It's a collection of short stories called Call of the Tome." I told him.
"What is it about?" He asked me.
"It tells the story of how the Guardians got there pendants."
"I haven't read that in a while." Logan said and I pushed my head back up enough to look at him. I bit my lip. I really want to curl up with him like I would Athair but I don't want to leave my hiding spot…
"Come out you both need to feed… or eat." Athair spoked as he handed out food and goblets and I pushed the lid off the hiding spot and I let Xavier out to cuddle with Momma and I crawled out and curled up into Logan side as Athair passed me a goblet of blood. After Athair was curled up with Papa. I opened the book and started reading aloud.