The party went on for a while, and eventually, it was a little over 3 A.M. Ryder was passed out on the couch, I carried Allie and kept her in Ann's bed, now there is a surprise Ann's gonna get in the morning.
It is pretty damn cold for it being just July and suddenly I feel warmth hugging me from behind.
"You cold?" Alexandra puts her head over my shoulder and asks me.
"Not anymore, but you seem to be." I put my arm around her and bring her body in the front.
"There, isn't that better?" I ask her, while she uses her hand to get the hair out of her face, when she finally opens her eyes she realizes that my eyes are about an inch or two away from hers. Our lips are even closer but not touching—my arm around her waist and the other tucking her hair behind her right ear.
"You seem awfully quiet today," She said to me still looking me in the eye, neither of us blinking for even a second.
"Well...." I look away breaking eye contact...
Well, Atlas, what do you say now? do you have any idea what to say? I mean the whole reason you kept quiet is that you didn't wanna ruin the moment or at least that's what you keep telling yourself or maybe the real reason could be you haven't felt like this in a while and I mean a long, long while. I mean when was the last time we felt like this? 6th grade? Even though we've dated after that one she was still the one until four years ago we confronted her and you really lost feelings for her. She didn't break our heart but she was the only person who thought you how to love and what those three words meant or should I rather say she gave meaning to those words.
You know people say Once you love someone you never stop and once you find another person you love, you just love them more but in the end, you never stop loving the first person but I don't know about that. In fact, I believe if you really loved the first person you wouldn't love the second or rather wouldn't allow yourself to fall in love.
So the fact that I feel the way I do is a little overwhelming, maybe that is why I am at a loss for words. I can't put my thoughts together and cannot frame a sentence with my heart and that's why probably my head took over and decided to stay silent.
"Hey! Are you ok?" Alexandra takes her hand and puts it on my neck, tilts my head facing her, and makes sure our eyes lock in once again, breaking my train of thought.
"You have no idea," I grab her neck look her deep in the eyes and look down at her lips and then back into her eyes and then I reach in for a kiss and she kisses me back I pull away and we smile and maybe just maybe I blush a bit, instead I cover that up with a smirk. I kiss her on the forehead and we sleep on the porch of the house that leads to the backyard pool and just watch the stars.