Joel 2:25-26
And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpillar, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you.
And ye shall eat in plenty, and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God that hath dealt wondrously with you: and my people shall never be ashamed.
You may have lost some worldly possession or you may have lost your faith and trust in mankind because of what they have done to you
But know this; the God that you serve will restore whatever you have lost.
I have lost my faith and trust in men in general because of what has happened to me some years ago. But most of all I lost my innocence without giving permission.
I was sexual assaulted by one of my mother's boyfriends at four years old. On that day I was outside playing when my mother decided to go on the road and leave me with him.
He was a dark complexion and was short in stature. As soon as mom left he calls me inside and said we were going to play a game that I would like.
He took me into his lap put his hand under my dress and started to touch me in a place that he shouldn't. I started to cry and told him to stop but he only hold me tighter and continued. At some point he took out his penis and try to force himself inside of me, I scream and that's where he stopped.
The saddest part of it is that when mother came home I told her I hurt but she did not understand or get what I was trying to tell her.
after that incident, a few months after my mother gave me away I became heartbroken and that's is where a door was opened up to the enemy to destroy me.
When I was eight years old I was raped by a guy who was a few years older than me when I was Ten years the lady that I was living with a son came home and molested me, and when I was twelve years old he raped and then turn on his mother.
This is where I understand what have happen on the first occasion was wrong and they all took advantage of me. And for this same reason, I have grown to hate my mother because she wasn't there to protect me instead she gave me a way for me to be battered and torn by persons who should have looked after me.
Growing up then I trusted no man, I never had an intimate relationship until I was around 21 years old and even then I was not comfortable around him, so the relationship never last long. I have believed that all men want was to take advantage of me, so once I guy say he liked me, I have made sure I gave him sex before he took it.
I have struggled with this issue for a while, even when I was living with my adopted mom who has been there through thick and thin, she never knows that I struggle where men were concerned.
But I thank God that I can say today I have overcome that he God have restored my trust in men. I can say that when I guy says he like me I don't worry about what he might do.
I thank God that he has restored me, He has restored my trust that the enemy had stolen
The enemy has held me captive but God came and rescued me. Amos 9:14 says and I will bring my people Israel (Patesha) back from exile, they will rebuild the waste cities, and inhabit them and they shall plant vineyards and drink the wine of them, they shall also make gardens and eat the fruit of them.
Am I dating now? No Why? I have surrendered my all to God and allowing him leads me on the right path. I am not running into anything that will cause me pain. I am waiting on God's timing, and most importantly when I have questioned God about marriage He told me it is Ministry time and I must wait on Him.
I trust him as he directs my path. Proverbs 3:5-6 says Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding, in all thy ways acknowledge him and he God shall direct thy path.
God will restore everything that you have lost and He will also restore you.