I remembered that I was going to ask Wam about breakfast before I climbed in bed, so I trotted back down the steps to ask him if I should make breakfast or if we were going to grab something on the way. His door was closed, but I saw light underneath it and knew he wasn't asleep yet.
I knocked but got no answer. Normally I wouldn't open someone's bedroom door, but he's probably brushing his teeth and couldn't hear me over the water. I pushed the door open slowly, and sure enough, he wasn't in the bedroom, but the bathroom door was wide open. I made my way through the bedroom and looked around the wall into the bathroom, but was not expecting what I saw.
There stood Wam behind the translucent, glass shower doors. His frame was drool worthy and I shouldn't be watching him, but I couldn't look away. I heard him moan and was drawn by the movement of his hand and arm that were stroking his shaft. Hir left arm shoots out to steady himself on the tile wall of the shower and his strokes become faster. I can almost see his body tremble as he lets his head drop forward and I hear his say, "yes Lee...take it...take it all and swallow it down. Oh...my...ahh," Wam groans and I see him shoot his semen onto the wall and floor as his chest begins to heave.
It hits me that I have no right to witness such an intimate act, and I need to leave. I back out of the doorway of the bathroom and then out of the bedroom. The door was closed when I left, but when I go to close it, it makes a noise. Afraid of being found out, I let go of the levered handle and race up the steps to my bedroom.
Once inside my room I shut the door, place my back against the door, and will my breathing and heart rate to go back to normal. Oh my gosh...I just witnessed Wam relieving his frustration in the shower, and he said my name. Was he fantasizing it was me getting him off? What did he say? 'Lee, take it, swallow it all down'? Oh my gosh! How will I ever be able to look him in the eye again?
I decide it's getting late and I need to try to get some sleep. To hell with breakfast, I need some sleep. Maybe by morning this won't seem like such a big deal anymore.
Since I'd completed my bedtime routine and put on my pajamas before I went to talk to Wam, I climbed into bed. I closed my eyes and focused on slowing my breathing to help my body relax enough to sleep. My mind seemed to have other ideas, as flashes of Wam pleasuring himself in the shower kept overtaking my mind. I tossed and turned for over half an hour before I finally laid on my back and stared at the ceiling.
No matter how hard I tried to relax, my body was still buzzing from our make out session and then the bedtime show I witnessed of Wam in the shower. If my mind wanted to go there, fine, I'd let it. I closed my eyes and replayed every sight and sound.
Before I realized what I was doing, one hand had snaked under the waistband of my pajama pants and underwear and was nearing my feminine channel. The amount of moisture I found there surprised me, because this had never happened before. Obviously I enjoyed watching Wam more than I realized. Dragging the moisture up to my bundle of nerves, I began to rub myself slowly. I could not deny how good it felt, especially with Wam's shower escapades running through my mind.
As Wam became more vocal and sped up his strokes, I did the same with my most sensitive area. My breathing was rapid, I felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest, and it was too much and not enough all at the same time. My chest became hard peaks and I felt the need to stimulate them as well. My free hand moved to my chest and began to twist and squeeze gently as my bottom squirmed against the bed. I don't think I've ever been so aroused in my life. My whole body became tense right before I saw colors flash behind my eyelids. My breath was coming out in short pants, and I hoped I didn't yell out when I reached the pinnacle and fell over. I've gratified myself before, but it's never been this intense. "Oh my gosh," was all I could whisper.
Once my breathing and pulse returned to normal, I felt calm and peaceful. I couldn't help but wonder if it would be this good if Wam was the one to take me over the edge. I had friends in high school that were intimate with the people they dated, but I never had the urge nor did I have the opportunity. Now though, it seems Im making up for lost time.
I sincerely hope that Wam will be my first. Id be lying if I didn't admit I'm concerned because he seemed so well endowed when I watched him in the shower. I don't know if my body could accommodate someone his size. Of course it could Kynlee... women have babies for goodness sakes. A male organ is nothing compared to a baby. It may take some preparation, but it would certainly be doable. I take a deep breath, roll onto my side, and close my eyes. This time, after my stress release, sleep finds me easily.
My alarm goes off at 6am while light is just barely starting to peak over the horizon. I throw back the covers and jump in the shower. Once dried, I dress in jeans, a tee shirt, tennis shoes, and grab a hoodie. With the physical labor we are doing today, I certainly want to be comfortable. By the time I'm headed down the steps, I can smell that Wam has started coffee, and it is very enticing. I follow the aroma all the way into the kitchen.
Wam must have heard me enter and held out a travel mug of coffee for me to take as he started a second one. "A man after my own heart. Thanks Wam." I couldn't help but smile as the rich, dark roast aroma filled my nares. The first sip is always the best.
"Oh Lee, were you in my room last night?" Wam asked me as I was taking a drink.
I began to cough, choking on my delicious coffee. What the hell do I say? Was I in his room? "I umm, came to ask you a question but realized you were in the shower and left. It wasn't that important." I continued to cough and could feel my cheeks blazing with embarrassment at the thought of what I witnessed last night.
"You okay?" I simply nod a reply to Wam's concerned question. "So what did you want? You must have wanted something to come all the way back downstairs."
I can feel Wam looking at me, but cannot quite get myself to meet his eyes after what I witnessed last night. Oh how I wish I could be more adventurous and not get embarrassed so easily. I take another small sip of coffee and turn toward Wam, "I umm, was gonna ask if I should make breakfast or if we would grab something on the way." I looked out the kitchen window as I answered his question. The sun was finally coming up and it was light out. "Like I said, not important since you were showering."
"Okay. Are we ready to go? I need to gas up anyway, so we can grab some food." Wam lifted my chin to meet his eyes before asking, "why won't you look at me this morning? Are you embarrassed about last night?"
I feel my eyes get big and my cheeks feel warm. Last night? Am I embarrassed about last night? Hell yes I'm embarrassed, but I don't want Wam to know that. "Umm kind of," I answer, unsure what to say. Does he know I saw him and this is all a ruse to get a confession?
Wam sets his coffee on the counter and unexpectedly pulls me into his chest. Immediately I take in his manly scent as my head rests against his chest. I'm torn between feeling at peace, safe and protected, and feeling turned on, being this close to this sexy god of a man. "Lee, you don't ever have to be shy or embarrassed around me." Wam kissed my head, squeezed me slightly, and then released me.
That small gesture was enough to settle my nerves and I met Wam's gaze long enough to say, "thank you. I'm ready to go if you are."
Wam nodded, grabbed his belongings, and we piled in the SUV.
We stopped at the first gas station we saw to fill up the tank, grab breakfast, and last but not least, packing tape. We had forgotten to stop the night before on the way home, so thank goodness they had some at this convenience store. As I pulled out my wallet to pay, Wam inserted his card into the EBT machine and paid the whole bill. I said, "hey... I was going to pay for that!"
"Come on, it's done." He looked at the lady behind the counter, smiled, and in true Wam fashion, said, "thank you and have a nice day."
I narrowed my eyes at Wam as we walked out to the SUV. No doubt I had a bit of a pout on my face from being none too happy with his shenanigans. "I thought we talked about you paying for everything and making decisions for me?"
"Oh come on Lee. It's gas for my vehicle, and I chose to stop for breakfast. I don't see the problem." Wam glanced my way as we drove off to the directions the SUV gave him as the quickest route to my old apartment.
"The problem is that I don't want to feel like I'm taking advantage of your kindness. I also don't want you to think I'm a mooch! It's too much Wam." I felt tears coming to my eyes and suddenly felt sad that I was headed to the apartment and not to see Kedron. I couldn't look at Wam or I was afraid I'd break down sobbing. He had become my safe place to share my feelings, but I didn't want to feel them right now.
"Hey, I'm sorry if I upset you." Wam grabbed my left hand with his right and squeezed it. "Lee, please look at me."
"I'm afraid if I look at you, I'll start crying." I broke out in what probably sounded like a deranged laugh. I rubbed my eyes since I had foregone any makeup this morning. I took a couple deep breaths, and finally looked over at Wam. "I'm sorry I'm so emotional lately. I assure you, this is not my norm."
"I completely understand. You've had a lot happen in the last two weeks. A lot of changes, and a lot of uncertainty for the future. Those circumstances are hard on even the most stable of individuals. It's okay. Please forgive me. I'm sorry if I overstepped." Wam's thumb stroked over the dorsum of my hand and it felt nice.
"Thank you Wam for being so sweet and so supportive. I really do appreciate it."
We drove the rest of the way in silence except for a bit of small talk. About an hour after we left the gas station, we arrived at my old apartment. It felt like ages since I'd been here.