Dawn
I really need to calm myself down
I don't want Earl to think I'm uncanny but, my loud thumping heart is betraying me
Being together with Earl is breathtaking, I know he's different, I can sense him being aloof yet caring and he acts cold but he's fragile so, I have to be careful when he's around me
It took me by surprise when he offered to eat at his house
I mean, can I take this as a sign that Earl is slowly opening up to me?
Am I supposed to get my hopes up?
Hope for what????
Ahhhrrggg!!!! My mind is a mess and I'm not good with using it
I can see with my peripheral vison that Earl kept on peeking at me, it was kinda cute how scrutinizing he is
"So these are your preferred type of dishes" I stated rather than ask him
The stunned look on his face was so adorable when our eyes met
"did you ask Mary to cook my favorite food?" He said as if I didn't caught him secretly looking at me
I gave him a big smile instead of a smirk, I don't want to have the smug appearance knowing I personally asked Mary to additionally cook Earl's fav food
I wanted to ask Earl so many things but everytime when we're together I just become speechless, my dumb brain going even more dumber
I'm just awed when he's with me, maybe it's because I was thinking of him since the first time I saw him and it took a year before we could see each other again, I still couldn't believe it
He became the mantra on my mind for a long time, they said 'mind over matter' and 'law of attraction' was true and I believe in it now, I was repeatedly thinking of us meeting again and so it actually happened
When dinner was done
"I'll go change my clothes for a bit, wait for me in the living room" Earl said meekly pointing towards the said room which was kinda cute and he scurry up the stairs
So here I am sitting on the couch, while looking around I saw books on the shelves that's beside the television
I got up and scanned them only to realize that they were not really books