The next day he went for his run. As usual, the chain was still there. Clinging on to him tightly but lightly. And on his way to school, at the stop sign, he stood idle for a couple seconds even though no cars were crossing. He just stayed thinking about what he had done the day before and he didn't want to go back. So his body stayed still.
-I can't see her. I just can't. I'll feel far too awkward.- he repeated over and over in his head.
Until a car came and the driver gave him the signal to cross the street first. And he snapped back to life and crossed the road.
Once he got to school, he rushed to his first period faster than usual. He saw her in the corner of his eye, but he wasn't prepared to face her yet. He just quietly went into the classroom and put his head down without saying a word to his teacher.
The bell rang.
People started to come in.
He heard her voice.
She said "Hiiiii"
He looked up at her and,
and he felt nothing.
No remorse, regret, shame, nothing, nothing at all.
-Should I feel something? It's not like I actually did something THAT bad.-
It was and odd feeling.
And so he simply shyly said "hi" back to her.
She kneeled down in front of his desk and rested her head on it, glaring at him with her Atlantic blue eyes.
"….what?" He said confused.
"Nothing, am I not allowed to look at you?"
But he felt people staring. Guys saying shit about how he doesn't deserve her, girls talking shit about how he's not good enough for her but
"Don't worry about them." She said blocking his side view with her hand.
"When we're talking, its's just you and I, no one else."
And his anxieties went away.
The bell rang for class to start.
"Hey, I have something to ask after class, okay?" She abruptly said.
"Huh? Uhh okay yea." He answered back but had no idea what was going on as she went to her seat, swaying away people jokes and teasings about Miles and her.
-This class is long. Mr.Barbick never stops talking…- with every word the teacher said, it felt as though it added time to the turning of the clock. While his leg fidgeted out of control, wondering what she was going to ask him.
After class finally came and they all started to leave the classroom. She got out much faster than him and he saw her talking to a guy outside. It was Angel, that one guy who teased them loudly last time.
-are they fighting?- he thought as he saw their silhouettes moving around abruptly. He didn't want to interrupt their business.
-wait…this is my business now! I'm going. -
He walked over to them, in his head he was moving swiftly and in an intimidating way but from everyone else's eyes, he was the opposite. Either way, he got to where they were, and he heard him quietly say as he got there,
"Really? Him??"
-what does he mean by that?- He said in his mind but the words didn't come out of his mouth. He just stood behind her.
She turned around and grabbed his hand firmly and showed it to Angel.
"Yes. Him." And she walked away holding his hand. Miles turned back while he walked away and saw his eyes.
A different type of glare, not the one other guys gave him when he walked with her, no. It was different. There was a certain amount of pain in his eyes and it reached Miles' stomach and made him feel
Odd.
But either either way, he kept walking.
-doesn't matter.-
"Hey, what was the question you were going to ask?" He somehow managed to say. He would've hesitated more but the curiosity had the best of him. But curiosity killed the cat because she said
"Want to go out today?"
-…..-
In a split second, his mind just said
-I've never done anything like this.- and went into a small panic mode.
"I know you're never going to ask so I figured I had to ask you out. " she said as he walked behind her.
-Now why she have to diss me while asking me out.- he said in his head.
But regardless he had to give an answer. Not like he had anything to do whatsoever, but he couldn't decide if he wanted to go. But then he thought of every good scenario in his head. Just about every single good thing he imagined flew in his head and madd him say
"Mmmm a date with Jessica." While smiling idiotically.
-oh shit I said it out loud.- he realized as she turned around.
"I take that as a 'yes' ?" She said laughing.
He just smiled with embarrassment and nodded.
"What's the date going to be though?" He questioned.
"Well, I was thinking something simple sooooo, how about a movie and quick bite to eat after." She said.
-maybe we can kiss at some point.-
"Yea, sure thats sounds fine. At what time?" He replied.
But she got to her class so she had to go.
"We'll talk later." She disappeared into the classroom leaving the feeling of her hand in his.
He saw as she approached many people, saying hello to half the class, laughing differently than she does with him.
-Will I be able to make her smile the same way?- he wondered.
What if he can't make her laugh and giggle, if he can't make her blush or make her enjoy the day the way she does when she's with others. She looks like a different person when he looks at her from a distance. Like he really shouldn't be with her.
-either way I'll give it a shot.- he said to himself. Determined to do his best. An odd feeling he hadn't experienced in a while. But she was able to make him feel it.