A confusion filled his mind and with that confusion he stayed still, as if being fully still would make him invisible. But he didn't know how to feel about her. She was endearing but at the same time created a sense of fear and confusion so much he didn't know if he should take a step forwards or backwards. But she stayed there looking at him in the same position. Two chess players indecisive of their next move. Until finally she made the first move.
She faced him properly and signaled to him with one finger to come.
"You want me to go over there?" He asked in his bewildered state. All she did was nod at him.
Slowly and rigidly he took a few steps forward with his eyes wide open at astonishment every time he noticed something new about her. She stayed staring over him with her somewhat innocent smile. A certain creepiness seemed to be hiding behind that smile of hers but her smile was kind at a time making her enticing to talk to. Her dark red hair fell straight down in a messy manner with half of it over her left shoulder and the rest behind her right one. He noticed once he was a few steps from her, when there was only a small wooden fence from the porch separating the two, old bruises on her.
Her dressing was somewhat like a pajama. But an old ripped up one showing some parches of skin and her developed body, which he couldn't seem to not be attracted to in his nature. She was barefoot and her skin was somewhat reddish white, it seemed delicate but it appeared as if it had been made rough over time of mistreatment. He traced her from her feet up to her face.
"Who are you?" He finally silently uttered with an upright posture, now just curious of this woman in front of him. The porch was a bit tall so she tilted her head down a bit to stare at him directly while he simultaneously stared into her eyes.
-!!!! What's this feeling- he thought in a fraction of a second as her eyes caught his in a trance, and wouldn't let go. The red pupils she possessed kept him on the ropes. He remained still, devoid of movement as she walked around the fence without breaking their eye contact. Her steps were soft as feathers and fluid, entrancing. It was as if he had seen medusa. She kept getting closer inch by inch, step by step with a grin still painted on her canvas.
She got up to his face, just millimeters away, he remained in his up right position. She reached for his face and traced her fingers from his cheek to the back of his head and made it tilt down to look at her directly as she was shorter.
-She's…- he couldn't develop his thoughts. All he knew is he didn't want to leave yet. Looking down at her soft facial features full of curves he couldn't force himself to look away. Her lips started to slowly move and he heard her say:
"I'm the one you feel now."
"I'm your L O V E." She said in between breaks. Her breath blowing on his face was warm and sweet in such a bitter and cold forest background. Seducing every cell in his body.
The eyes she had were wrapping their shades of pink, white, and red around his soul. So much he didn't budge as her other hand reached for his right cheek and brought him in closer, and closer, and closer, and closer, his lips about to make contact with hers and both their hearts racing warming each other up. Her chest touching his body and her mouth about to make contact with his.
-Is this what I want…?- he questioned without moving.
-Maybe this IS what I want…-
He let his body go into her hands and closed his eyes.
As soon as he closed his eyes-
"No!" He said abruptly as he moved away from her breaking the trance and hold she had on him.
An image of Jessica had appeared in his mind as soon as he closed his eyes and he came back to reality. His breathing was heavy as he looked around at where he was and processing what was about to happen.
-what was I thinking- Repeated in his head over and over like a broken record from the guilt he felt. He couldn't believe just her body would make his mind go blank and not care about anything.
But now looking at his situation, he felt even more perplexed. In front of him was still a woman like he's never seen before who was about to kiss him. And a cabin unknown to him.
-she said she's my "love." She's another feeling.- he remembered.
"What. What did you mean your my 'love'?" He asked.
After a pause, a pause where she just looked at him with the same smile she calmly replied
"It means…" she traced her eyes off of him and let her head tilt down and looking down, bringing her hands in back of her and interlocking them. Making herself look half her size and simply cute.
She continued:
"It means…we'll be 2 lost dogs in the forest…"
-?!-
She looked at him-
"licking each other's wounds …." she finished half-laughing.
-…-
-that's, what Jessica said. Why did she say that, does she know?-